I am trying some therapy, and i'm doing better than I was. A couple of years ago I went for a promotion at work and, it went poorly... namely my co-workers basically screwed me which really got me down. Since then I did start therapy which is how I found out it wasn't just some weird thing I was imagining and was actually depression. I've always felt pretty much that i've been alone, I just don't really get people. Heh though I have studied them so I can usually respond correctly so they don't think i'm completely weird. As is i'm mostly just writing in whatever stream of thought is coming to me so i'm not sure if what i'm saying is really making sense. The upside of the whole beverage bug is as i'm introverted, quite reclusive, I can work from home, and can even get groceries delivered I can keep human interaction to a minimum that is at least one thing that is making me a bit more relaxed.