Cynaminngirl

Hi All! I’m new to this group, but an old hand at coping with chronic pain (Fibromyalgia, Neuralgia, arthritis, and many, many surgeries in almost every part of my body) and depression. I am 64 years old, had a Cervical fusion in 2001, and the rest is history. Periodically I fall into a bout of severe depression because I am SO TIRED of feeling like crap, and knowing I will NEVER have a day that I don’t feel like crap. Women in my family live a very long time, and frankly that sounds horrible! I am NOT suicidal, but if God decided to take me now I’d be happy with it. I have a wonderful life, but when this hits, I find no joy or happiness in it. I’m in a flat line emotionally, with the only emotion breaking through being sadness. I know how to do mindfulness, I have a wonderful support system, etc., but I’m seriously considering getting on psych meds to counteract this. I hate taking them, because then I’m REALLY in a flat line emotionally, so I was hoping talking to people that were out of my loop would help me. I have run support groups for Fibromyalgia, and I find my biggest joy comes from helping others! It seems to help me step back from MY pain. Sorry this is so long!