Just found this forum so figured I would jump right in....I am in my late 40's, have a pretty, loving wife and 2 teenage sons. Nice house in a small town. No noticeable problems. But I am miserable, and always feel so alone. Tried meds but quit because it didnt help at all. Inside I am a complete mess, no desire to keep going but I won't **** myself because I don't want my kids to be without a father. We have acquaintances but no real close friends and I always jealous when I see groups of friends having fun. We have (or used to) have parties on occasion but usually it is just the 4 of us doing whatever we do.
I just don't understand how I am not happy, actually I breakdown almost daily with profound sadness. Reading through all your stories and situations, why must we all live with such terrible pain ? I want to be able to enjoy life, not just try to get by.