Thankyou Atra. Thankgodness you recovered. I simply dont see many recovery stories.
I feel like ive been through war. Ive been traumatized, and then had more trauma on top of that trauma plus more all because of this illness. I have NEVER experienced this in my life prior and I had never heard of the word anhedonia before I was diagnosed. Everyday is pure torture. Everything feels foreign and everyone around me is functioning normally. I dont even feel human. All I think about all day long is how I am feeling or should I say what Im not feeling. Its like being on a permanent drug come down. Someone tell me what is worse than this? I really cant think of anything. I am so negative about this because there is barely any support or treatment. You just have to wait around hoping that one day a miracle might happen. There seems to be treatment for basically every illness out there but this ... nothing. Plus you always risk making it worse by adding on more medication.
I used to be so bright, bubbly, happy and productive. I am now the polar opposite. This is all thanks to big pharma. There was no warning that this could happen to me. Its been going on for 2 years but I still wake up in shock everyday and wonder how on earth im going to make it through the day. Then I am a little relieved when it is time to sleep because sleep is my only escape.
I know I have been nothing but negative but I do not know how on earth I am meant to stay positive in this situation.
I LONG FOR MY LIFE BACK!!!!
I really feel for each and everyone of u who are suffering through this HORRIFIC HELLISH existence