TheToddman

A Charge to Keep - Iced Earth

When I was in rehab several years back everyone used to quip about me describing myself as 'cautiously optimistic'. LOL. I guess today I'm 'somewhat hopeful'. Yeah, that's it.

Knocked my obligatory shoulder/trap/forearm routine out of the park today, as per usual on a Saturday. Must have something to do with the extra sleep Also might be attributed to the herbal supplement I've started that's supposed to help with mood/energy/strength. We'll see. Gotta watch the pre-workout caffeine consumption though! Nightjar, I can only imagine what it's like to walk to Hollywood Later folks!

Went to the local HIIT studio and felt like I was gonna die. I HATE rowing. Period. On a more positive note, burned a bunch o' calories so good to have that behind me

Wow THIS. I'm there with ya man. Almost identical situation, where lack of thankfulness has kept me from counting my proverbial blessings and a tendency to look at what is missing (trust me, I'd conjure something up if nothing were!). Led me to what seemed like major anhedonia and then full-blown alcoholism. I've been sober for three years now, but let me say that the propensity to dwell on where I'm coming up short and the negative still persists. It's a daily battle. I'm still at my age and place in life contending with comparison of myself with others and where I've come up short. Good folks here though--glad you joined us! T.

HOT. Holding off on the yard shtuff until tomorrow, when it won't be hell degrees out. Already in the 90's...

Tymothi and Sober--my sentiments exactly. And on that note, had my share of endorphins today. Worked delts/traps/forearms. Gym was crowded (as per usual on a Saturday) and it only motivated me. God--- to capture the natural high in a bottle and sell it.....

Hope Dies - Shattered Sun Complete epicness.

Hit the gym as planned; worked back and bi's. Ugh. Maybe it was the break or the need for more pre-workout Happy Tuesday, y'all!

Automatic Fix - Lynch Mob

No exercise today, as I was on the road. Hiked a bit yesterday but really looking forward to getting back to the gym tomorrow am. It's amazing how much energy I have on days where I actually work out to start off vs. days like today.

Decided to kick it 'old school' and crank up Ian and co. from Stand Up. New Day Yesterday - Jethro Tull

A bit more exhausted from what was supposed to be a brief jaunt out of town than I'd like. Was sorely tempted to follow up with a few coworkers (I work remotely and was off today) since we're getting to the end of a project cycle and I had to resist. Setting boundaries has never been super easy lol---or maybe it's just a control thing

Kafka's fusion of realism and the fantastic (postmodernism, maybe?) is legendary. Today I heard a quote of his that was seemingly antithetical : "Anyone who keeps the ability to see beauty never grows old." I often jokingly respond to people saying that I'm quite cynical by saying "Welp, guess I'm old enough!" Maybe I just tend to filter out the positive and let the poignant come into focus and color my current philosophy. Can't blame aging for the negative retrospection though... Guess I get to contrast that with the adage of 'aging gracefully' Anyone else relate? Surprised that this is a Kafka-ism? Is it lunchtime yet? Provoking to say the least....

Pharmaecopia - Mudvayne (incredible bass lines)