BrainRot

I contacted my doctor's office shortly after quitting the Lexapro and told them that I wasn't going to take any more antidepressants until after I check my vitamin levels, hormone levels, and thyroid levels. I discovered that I have a vitamin deficiency and thyroid issue caused by Hashimoto's. My immune system is attacking my thyroid which leads to depression and fatigue. All of my other systems suddenly made sense as well. I will go back in soon and do another blood test then go from there. I urge anyone reading this, please get these three things checked if you are depressed. Just to rule it out. I wasted a lot of time trying Wellbutrin, Zoloft, 5HTP, St. John's, Prozac and Lexapro. I wasted a lot of time thinking I was crazy.

I contacted my doctor's office shortly after quitting the Lexapro and told them that I wasn't going to take any more antidepressants until after I check my vitamin levels, hormone levels, and thyroid levels. I discovered that I have a vitamin deficiency and thyroid issue caused by Hashimoto's. My immune system is attacking my thyroid which leads to depression and fatigue. All of my other systems suddenly made sense as well. I will go back in soon and do another blood test then go from there. I urge anyone reading this, please get these three things checked if you are depressed. Just to rule it out. I wasted a lot of time trying Wellbutrin, Zoloft, 5HTP, St. John's, Prozac and Lexapro. I wasted a lot of time thinking I was crazy.

Stopped taking Lexapro on day 26.

Day 25 Checked myself into urgent care yesterday because I was having chest pains and aches. Shortness of breath. Nothing on the xrays or blood work. I think I was just having a negative reaction to the Lexapro. Today I fell into a deep depression and high anxiety. Seems the Lexapro is wearing off. I may stop taking it if I'm going to keep having issues.

Woke up feeling good again. Been having a chest ache since starting Lexapro if I do too much. It's better since taking the medication before bedtime but still there when I'm moving around a lot.

Day 20 Feeling good today. It's strange. I have been having a lot of old memories coming up since taking Lexapro. Memories from my childhood. Things I'd forgotten about. I find myself daydreaming a lot more. Seems something is restructuring in my brain? Feels like my mind is defragging. Could be a good sign.

Day 19 Took 10mg before bed last night and slept really well. I had lots of dreams and only woke up once. Starting the day off with a cookie and decaf coffee. Vitamin D levels are normal.

Day 18 - Dosage Change Sunday was a good day. The depression won't go away though. Anxiety too. Been feeling a pressure in my chest lately. Very tired all of the time. I slept most of the days away. Finding it hard to play with the kid or do simple tasks. Doctor wants to up the dose and have me switch to taking it at night time.

Day 13 Yesterday was good as well even though I ate so terrible. Today I feel good. I think the Lexapro is working. It's not making my blood boil like the Prozac did. Although Prozac was better for anxiety the Lexapro is better for depression. At least in my case, everyone is different. I'm feeling optimistic.

Day 12 Actually had my first good day yesterday. Which is odd because it was a Monday. The whole day I didn't have a single thought of suicide. That is big for me! I think it helped that I was fasting for 10 hours for a blood test (testing allergies and vitamin levels). I definitely have a food intolerance issue affecting my mood if I feel great when fasting. Today I've had some donuts and I feel like crap. I'm sure it will affect my mood later as well. This correlates with my food intolerance test that I took stating that all milk, cheese, and yogurt have a high reactivity. Some sort of an immunoresponse to these foods. I'm going to try cutting out all dairy from my diet for a couple of weeks (starting tomorrow). Fingers crossed.

Day 11 Yesterday (Sunday) was actually a good day for half the day. I felt great until around 12. Then I felt so tired that I took a nap. When I woke up I felt like someone had shot me in the chest. I felt so terrible. Heart palpitations more than usual for the rest of the night. I'm not sure if I have a heart condition or a food allergy/intolerance is messing with me.

Day 9 Headache is still here. Feeling a sense of hopelessness again. Trying to fight all of my thoughts at this point. I hate being at war with myself.

Day 8 My doctor and I agreed to stay on it for another week. Today I had a low grade headache behind my left eye. The headache has now grown into a borderline migraine and I can't stop thinking about suicidal thoughts. Before I considered them dark thoughts but now I have a sense of calming because I had a vision of getting into heaven still if I commit suicide. I've never thought that before and always believed that it's just lights out when you die. So now I'm feeling a sense of relief and purpose.

Day 7 Feeling a bit better today. I suppose I got a better nights sleep and was only woken up 3 times. I've been eating a lot of candy lately. It's keeping me from locking myself in the bathroom and crying. I miss being by myself most of the day. I've never been a people person. Lately I have the kid, wife, mother in law and father in law all here because of the coronavirus lockdown. My anxiety is getting higher now that the Prozac has worn off. Diarrhea has gone away for the past 3 days. Hoping it stays gone and that my body has gotten used to the medication.

Day 4 I spent pretty much all of the weekend going through Prozac withdrawals. I was supposed to taper off for 2 weeks but I shortened it to 1 week because I just couldn't stand to have it in my system anymore. It was making me miserable. The withdrawals were no joke and the depression was as dark as it could get without actually acting on it. I'm feeling much better today (Monday). I'm hoping that the Lexapro is the reason why I'm feeling better. The only bad side effect so far is that I've had diarrhea since I started taking it. I hope that goes away soon.

Day 1 Just made the switch from Prozac to Lexapro (5mg). I'm going to keep a journal here about my experience.

Tapering off of Prozac and switching to Lexapro.

Time to stop taking this. I hope it works for somebody but I have to try something else.

Day 59 I'm losing hope.

Day 56 Still depressed and thoughts of suicide most of the day. I'm going to give it a few more days then ask the doctor if I can taper off and try something else. I can't imagine that 80mg would suddenly turn things around.

Day 49 - Dosage increase Spoke to the doctor yesterday. Since it has been 2 weeks at 30mg and I'm still depressed most of the time we agreed to increase the dosage to 60mg. Just took 60mg about an hour ago. Hoping that I don't have to fight being so tired today. Gotta give it another 2 weeks.

I've been sleeping most of the day today and yesterday. I just feel so tired lately.

Day 48 Feeling crappy again. Is it possible to be bipolar without manic episodes?

Day 47 Been feeling better since I stopped taking my "one a day" multivitamin.