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  1. Hi there. First of all, I just would like to say that there's nothing wrong with you. You are amazing and special and deserve to be noticed and cared for. I hope that you know that. I had a friend who used me before, it was so awful feeling that way. At the time he was my only friend, and he would bully me almost every day. But for me, I was so afraid of being alone, I just let him keep treating me like that. Um, anyways, I'm not sure if your situation is the same as mine was, but those kind of people aren't really your friends. They're toxic and all they do is hurt you. I understand how you feel You're not alone, and if you would ever like to talk or anything, I'd be happy to listen.
  2. Hi. I'm so sorry to hear that you are going through this. You aren't alone, though. For me it's my mother. She always seems to point out the worst possible outcome, consciously or not. It's so difficult to try and stay positive with all of the negativity. I don't need that in my life. I think nobody does. Anyways, I'm unsure of the personalities of the people close to you, but it could help to be honest about how it makes you feel. Not the most creative idea, I know, but sometimes I believe they just need to directly hear it. I'm not saying that it will necessarily be easy, but sometimes what needs to be done is difficult. I hope this helps a little. I wish you peace and happiness.
  3. Um... I've seen good writing here, and it made me want to share a poem I wrote. The Cycle Continues You stand there looking down on me. All I want is for you to see. What the bullying you are doing makes me feel. My mind festers with suffering, and can't heal. Life turns like a huge wheel. Here I wait for the usual spiel. Where you seek me out, and put me down. Turning my smile into a frown. After you are done. You watch me run. Laughing with your big group. As my heart melts into soup. The tears pour down my cheek. I feel so utterly meek. You were lucky is what they'd say. Lucky to live another day. That's what I thought. When I got caught. By you in that same hall. Everyday by that painted wall. My heart's filled with ache. So much more than I can take. Feeling this way, so alone. I have the feeling to want to atone. For the way I am in your eyes. I hate donning this guise. I'm the one who cries. Telling everyone awful lies. About how I'm just fine. I'm not, I'm walking the line. The "Me" inside is falling apart. An awful weight upon my heart. I want to you to stop. My brain is going to pop. You can't see the pain you cause. While you torment me without pause.
  4. Thank you for offering to listen, I really appreciate it. It's so difficult feeling like nobody really cares, you know? Take care.
  5. Hi... I read this and felt compelled to respond. So here I go. I can't say that I know how to face depression for sure, I can only say what I have done. I always just took whatever hurt that came my way and let the blows do their damage and then faced the aftermath with what strength I had left. Not the best way to face depression, I know, but what else could I do? With no close family or friends I couldn't talk to anyone about my feelings even if I wanted to. So, I had no choice, it was either that or give in to despair and the part of me that won't give up keeps on fighting. I realize that not everyone can just tolerate the pain, but sometimes life just doesn't give you an easier way. For me, that was pretty much always the case. So, call me strong or call me foolish, either could be considered true, I guess. Whatever people take away from this, I'm just sharing my experiences and my feelings. To whomever reads this, from the bottom of my broken heart, thank you for listening.
  6. I feel like everything is all wrong. With me, with what I do. Everything. I feel so much confusion and unhappiness. I'm just wandering through life going through the motions, like I'm not really living. I'm just existing here in this world, never having any real friends or loving anyone. I've always just endured all of the fear and pain, but now I've become that fear. It's no wonder people don't want to get close. They sense all of that pain and anxiety and twisted up inside me and avoid it like the plague, and I don't blame them. Nobody with any sense would want that. I feel like the world has no place for me.
  7. Thank you for all of your kind responses. It means so much to me to receive positive words like this. It's honestly something I'm not used to... It makes me glad to that someone understands what I've been through. As an amateur poet, I see what you mean by using metaphors to break the chains of my past, but I'm unsure if I have the inner strength or confidence to accomplish that... I want to, but I truly have no idea how to. I would love any advise that can be given. I find it useful to listen to others so I can use them to find an answer of my own. I used to see a professional therapist, but I'm not right now. I had seen one for 6 years. I've been feeling pretty down lately. I've spent the last couple of nights crying, as I feel confused, overwhelmed, and alone. My heart aches and yearns for something better. I'm sorry that this response is late. Thank you for listening.
  8. Hi, um, I haven't really spoken about my past to others so this is a little difficult to put into words, but I was bullied from little on. I always wondered why I was so different from the other people around me, but I never found an answer. I don't think I ever will. Anyways, now I'm out of that situation and I still feel all of the pain and the rage and despair vividly. I hear their voices taunting and laughing at me. I can barely sleep... I thought that I would find peace once it was over but I'm still as depressed as before. I would like to move on with my life, but with the chains of the past binding me there is no way to leave it behind. Thank you for listening.
  9. Thank you for your kind responses. I appreciate the reception. It's very nice to meet all of you. I look forward to getting to know all of you.
  10. Um, hi. I'm not to sure of what to say in an introduction of myself. I was bullied a lot, so I'm not very good with people. I wasn't sure if I wanted to do this but I really would like to make some friends to talk to. Sorry if this is scrambled, I'm kind of nervous. Thank you for letting me post this here.
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