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DragonBallZ1995

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  1. My name's vinayak I'm 24 year old man I live in india I'm depression patient since 5 years my hobbies are video games digital art, sketch and painting
  2. Even if I got out of depression it's bad beacuse my mom says that If I get married i shouldn't tell my wife about depression I should work a lot for hours and plus she says I should alone work for my family a lot I also should take care of my parents and work she also says that if I don't get married my life will be bad at my old age plus someone or other been jealous of me or my skills If I had a sibling he or she would take care of almost everything Life's been lot of pressure
  3. My mom took me to some missionary church in 2011 which was named ashirwad prarthana Kendra in Mumbai they were brainwashing people about JesusThey say only Jesus is truth not anything else and they used to say like exaction of each and every sentence they used to sell coconut hair oil Some day my mom asked some women working as missionary that my dad was harrassing her then she said to my mom to put some oil in rice we eat My mom used to take me there everyday because I was abusing my my mom wordly (some how I got into depression beacuse of these missionaries, some Youtube videos on team fortress 2 sfm, PewDiePie and some of the friend I was living) Then I used to think, "We shouldnt hear to Satan like to argue people hurt them" once my cristian friend said it's bad to abuse, so I thought even bad words even single of it I know after I get to home after going to missionaries every Saturday or Sunday I get heavily hurted by my friends in words plus they were so smart I couldn't do anything to them even neither avoid them beacuse they use to tell me to pay respect to them my dad used to hate those missionaries or they are somewhat called Jesus prechers it was because he cared about his religion which is Hinduism but worst thing about my dad is he is definitely the person who will be the no 1 worst person ever seen he does make me and mom feel bad at worst times even other people are really pissed of from him After a 2 years I was like Jesus I was like a preacher but I did no preaching no reading about jesus what I used to was browse internet normally also for adult part of internet In 2013 me and my parents for a pilgrimage to Shirdi which is in India, Maharashtra then there I was cryingly ranting to my mom in the guest room at Shirdi about how bad my life was how bad my friends are from my school Near to Shirdi we traveled to Shani shingnapur which is nearby travel of 2 hr of distance some how I messed up there by saying some awkward things to their devotees on the same day I was feeling bad a lot about my life when we were packing bags and leaving I made joke on top indian actor Salman Khan 5 days later came back to our home and at 6 am I was shouting heavily "oh god"(oh god in Marathi language)while and I was saying so that neighbour will wake up in while I was taking a bath few days later in morning time outside toilet I heard like some people were talking to each other but it was hurting me so 6 months later I was diagnosed and doctor said I was in depression
  4. I observed that people are indirectly disturbing me while they are talking since 5 years when I travel outside they they still do that When I'm home they make me mad or make me think like an idiot or something and they still do disturb me mentally while they are talking to each other by any means When I enter social media they give pain to me by hurting me by Thier jokes or memes or sometimes even profile pic Nowadays even my mom dad make me suffer indirectly and they don't admit it I say like from small dot to whole universe is suffering me but the exact story is different This disease always change problem it comes whenever it wants It's like the more you suffer the more bad life it makes the more tricks it plays
  5. This guy gives me pain to me and he also gives pain to me and my mom I'm just very tired and I can't do anything after he gives me a lot of pain It's a very painfull life because of him
  6. If I tell my relatives I'm good at sports I'm doing a job or even show them that few days or maybe months later I am very lazy very weak in sports or i quit my job and I don't search for any job again I become jobless How does this happen it's a very big issue
  7. When I tell my moms side relatives about my progress in my life that progress spoil eventually after some days or months or years How does this happen
  8. I eat food even at night and in day it's just impossible to control food I like to eat food even when want to do exercise I eat too much I also have sleep cycle problem also with insomania I'm in minor depression from 5 years Now my main question is not just about binge eating but also about insomania sleep cycle it's too hard controling it
  9. I eat food even at night and in day it's just impossible to control food I like to eat food even when want to do exercise I eat too much I also have sleep cycle problem also with insomania I'm in minor depression from 5 years Now my main question is not just about binge eating but also about insomania sleep cycle it's too hard controling it
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