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when I feel to overcome chronic mental pains

my schizophrenia starts

Noises and all kind of things start

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following Numerology and Astrology ruined my life seriously i fell into depression because of that

 

[It's been 3 years I am suffering bipolar disorder]

I suffer from mood swings

I always used to change my discord username frecruently

Nowadays my flaws change repeatedly for example like i like one thing at a time after sometime i don't like the same thing I feel stupid about it

I say to my mom i wont do that thing later on I do it

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Everybody blames me on social media if i comment something i get negative replies 

And my mom's friend always laughs at my problems like my crush cheated on me my friends do humilate me and cares about women only and expect to feel compassion on her problems 
She also thinks men shouldn't be weak like in depression.etc

I have trouble at jobs can't maintain to be on same workplace due to depression
 
I don't have friends, relatives to support me

I cant marry until I have job and I don't have girlfriend so she be with me and support me

Mom says she might die in few years due to diabetes

My life is bad

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My life is like reanimated dead body

It works but nobody needs my life

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everytime there is new problerms seriously its been 10 years, one problerm goes another problerm comes, seriously man this is a headache

[my mom is awkward person]

i said to my mom that there is possiblity of decline in wealth she said that dont say negative words and all i want to say is its nessesary for freedom of speech otherwise because of these stupid belief in hinduism there might be gender and sensuality problerms 

[Emotional/Verbal Abuse]

hope you get well soon and run away from there to

hope you will have better life

[following both hinduism and christianity are bad]

im just tired of both hinduism and christianity they just throw kind of rotten tomatoes at each other
pope  my mom knows says that dont keep hindu idols at home just flow it in river this infuriates me cos i am hindu
my dad used to break crosses and tear jesus photos when he was alive
these 2 religion people goes fight both silent and non silent way
 i shouldnt had myself  to christ since that also made me ran into problerms
worst thing is my mom dosent understand these 2 religion belief causes depression and i dont understand how she follows 2 religion at once

wish if i hadn''t move into christ these things are always upsetting me
its like why dosent my mom understands these things are good as well as bad too

 

[literal lack of pleasure in life]

i dont feel better after playing video games, indoor games, outdoor games, music, movies after doing all these i feel boring 

sometimes i do is watching at tube light and smile at it for no reason 

its beacause of lot of experience in life even if i am 25

all i do is walking aimlessly whole day in home

are there any dbt or cbt kind of books or thereapy which i can read or get im not asking for meds cos i am already having side effects of taking depression meds

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i actually feel like to listen to sad music chill take a cup of tea and and i hope that i can buy pack of cigartes too to smoke plus rain at night

feels like listen to song which is named  "agar tum sath ho"

its just deep feelings

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if i become angry for some reason my mom says directly to me go take your pills
i internally feel like wat the hell is this im not mad rn and its just stupid
oh god this cruel life always finds me to damage me internally everytime

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I'm not interested in living this world

[i need solution for my sad life]

i always go to talk to my mom and she says im harrassing her
cos discussion goes into arguement and many more things
and there is no one to talk to me
now she wrote an agreement that i should talk to her only for some work but not as a family

so i have no friends no parents no relative to talk to

i support my mom but i sometimes irritates her and i swear at her because she involves me in bullshit

but from now on she is just like unknown office worker for me

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i always go to talk to my mom and she says im harrassing her
cos discussion goes into arguement and many more things
and there is no one to talk to me
now she wrote an agreement that i should talk to her only for some work but not as a family

so i have no friends no parents no relative to talk to

[what kind of mood swings are these]

i have depression and anxiety but thts not the deal i want to ask about how i deal with mood sings thing is i have intrest in a hobby or skill or challenge then i switch to other one after few minutes, hour or day what should i do

[im facing lack of intrest in work which is very bad somehow due to depression]

1 hour ago, iWantRope said:

Depends, are there hirers in your local area for penetration testers?

ya sure there are a few

[The Post Anything Thread #4]

check out my sketch

[im facing lack of intrest in work which is very bad somehow due to depression]

problerms i have nowadays is i lack patience and interest in work which is sketching and ethical hacking mut im overwhelmed  by mood swings and behviour changes (which is my depression) but i just gotta do something in my life

i want to ask how should i get rid of this?

should i do ethical hacking which is cyber security?

[TA's "What's On Your Mind Right Now?" Thread, Part 4]

thinking about will power and motivation

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On 11/18/2020 at 12:18 PM, Depressedgurl007 said:

I want to disappear. I don't want to deal with people, with work, with the pain of knowing I am causing people problems. 

see causing pepole problerm is thier problerm its not what you should be afraid of

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sometimes what i think is depression is ok its like youve accepted if it cant go it, but doing nothing after it is kind of bad for your image

i also want to tell that writer of harry potter books was also was in depression, it proves that will power is everything

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i am tired of my mood swings

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I feel like blaming people outside for about indirectly talking to me

[these days been very confused and uncomfortable]

On 7/3/2020 at 7:51 PM, Kogent5 said:

That does sound very confusing! Does this happen all the time or only sometimes? Have you talked to anyone about this? A therapist or doctor would be able to help (or recommend someone who could). It is really hard to deal with mental issues alone.

Ya I did talk to doctor I took my meds too