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  1. So it's been a while since I posted, but I had my second appointment today with this new psychologist and it went pretty well, I liked her a lot and we found a good tone, so I feel good about upcoming appointments. I was far from as nervous as the first time around so it was also easier to talk about certain topics. Thank you all for cheering me on, it helps, honestly
  2. Having a really bad day today. Barely managed to drag myself out of bed. As of now everything just sucks and there's nothing I can do about it. I just wanna cry and go back to bed.
  3. So, I just got back from the appointment. I was nervous as all h*ll and didn't even sleep last night, but it went really well! I'm really glad I went because it was definitely worth it. He was super nice and understanding and even cracked several jokes and made me feel really comfortable. We decided that I would start their program to work this out, so when I start that, I'll meet with one of 40 psychologists, so it might not be the same guy, but I feel ready to open up more after already having been there twice, so I feel good. Your input really helped me a lot and I even managed to follow your tips. I told him everything that was going on and, for the first time ever, managed to speak up when there was something I felt uncomfortable talking about. I've always just went silent and avoided the question, but this time I told him I felt uncomfortable with it and we worked it out anyway. Wouldn't have managed without you guys, thank you.
  4. So it's not the "first" first appointment I've had, but the first one that handles adults as I was categorized as a child in earlier appointments so I'm now going to a new place I haven't been and haven't seen this therapist before. I'm also planning on seeing said therapist, or at least go to the same place, for a long time. And I'm really anxious about it. I don't know how I should approach this as the last time I did this, my mom was partaking in it and I didn't go there for a long time and didn't feel like there was good chemistry between me and the therapist. So going into this feels new to me. Is there any red flags I should look out for? Anything I should find to be weird or strange from this therapist? Anything I should or shouldn't do? I appreciate any tips you have.
  5. Been there. My mom found out about my depression when I was around that age too and I know how much of a pain it is to try and explain how you're feeling when they don't understand depression or how it works. But life does move on, and the "awkward" moments pass with time. Parents just want to help when their child has problems, but you just have to tell him that this isn't something he can help nor make better by meddling. Treat this how you want to, get help from someone else if that's what you want. I did and it's way easier to talk to a professional rather than a parent. As for my mom she wanted to talk about it a lot, which I hated, and I since I couldn't explain how I was feeling, I got the doctor to try and explain it, which was a whole other painful prosess, but it worked out a little better in the end. She was still curious and concerned, but stopped trying to get me to talk and I said I wanted to handle this alone and she left me to it even though she kind of watched from the sideline. Now that it's been years, that's way easier since I'm actually an adult and make 100% of my own decisions and upfront say, I'm an adult so back off and let me deal with this.
  6. So the reason I'm asking this is because I want to know if anyone else is experiencing the same things I am and can relate to it. I'll tell you what I mean. So for the past few years (during the years I've struggled with depression and anxiety) I've been a lot more forgetful and being easily distracted. I know this can come with mental disorders, but I just want some confirmation from others I guess. Like for example, I can sit on my pc doing whatever and I get told dinner is ready and I'll respond, but then literally forget 2 seconds later until several moments pass and I suddenly remember dinner is ready and I have to get up. This happens a lot and tends to annoy people. The same happens when I receive a text and thinking I'll check that in a second, but forget right away until I look at my phone again. But it's also things like, if it's something I need to remember, I have to write it down or I'll know I'll forget, even simple things. When I was on medications, I had to put on an alarm every day or I would without a doubt forget to take it even though the meds were always right beside me. Then of course going through that annoying thing of noticing my alarm, thinking I'll take it in a second, and forget for maybe hours. I'm also most likely the most forgetful person in my friends group and they can also tend to get annoyed that I don't remember events from the past and such, but being reminded of things tends to jog my memory. A lot of the times when I'm asked a question about something from the past (even just a year ago), I won't remember, which is frustrating for me too. So does this happen to others to? Any tips on improving my memory?
  7. I struggle with the same things, so I completely understand. So I would just like to know what helps others too. I keep bottling up anger because of small things, and I've exploded a few times in passive aggressiveness until I'm pushed to actually speak my mind. Then I get told; why haven't you said this earlier? So I keep trying to be verbal about it when something is bothering me and it does actually work to be fair, it's just difficult. Sometimes you just gotta take the leap and do it, no matter how scary it is and not worry about how the other person takes it.
  8. I've been feeling really anxious all day and had an anxiety attack, so not feeling too great right now.
  9. My sister and I were goofing around like we were kids. She's the only person in the world who can make me smile and laugh no matter what I'm going through.
  10. Yeah, I would link it to anxiety. Forgot to mention I have anxiety as well so it impacts my depression, and those two are very often linked.
  11. I'm not sure how helpful this is, but if I were him, I'd probably be acting the same way and would just need time to assess the situation. People who are depressed, as well as myself, tend to unintentionally push people away even though we don't want to, and we isolate ourselves. He might feel that he puts stress onto you with his depression since it's something you have to deal with as well and might not want to "bother you" to put it that way. At least, that's how I feel. And in a relationship, this becomes more important. He might have to figure out if his depression would damage the relationship in any way and how you both would handle it and if he is willing to risk it. He probably wants someone close to be able to reach out to whenever, like in a relationship, but is nervous to put pressure on it. This is just me; I would think, what if once they find out more about my depression it becomes too much for them to handle and they'll break up with me? What if I can't explain what I'm going through and push them away and they'll think I don't like them anymore? Again, I don't know if this helps, but it might shed some light on how someone with depression could act.
  12. So I've been struggling with anxiety for pretty much all my life and for the past few years, I've been getting anxiety attacks. So what do you do to cope with this? I struggle to find things that work for me. Not just for anxiety attacks, but anxiety in general too.
  13. Thank you so much, that means a lot. And I'm sorry to hear about your husband, but I'm glad he impacted so many. Teachers really are important.
  14. Feeling the same way, you're not alone.
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