Lostonesweeping

I think it's time for me to start seeking help. My friends and family are distant and have only been hurting me. I don't know what to do. I just want to disappear.

Tired of existing. Ready to not be around anymore.

Not doing well recently. Went from being numb and not feeling much back to no sleep and nightmares. Loneliness is terrible. I wish I could rewire myself.

R.I.P. Everyone by JJ Demon

Had a dream that I met an old friend. The rest of the dream was terrible but that part made me smile and if fun to think about even after waking up.

Trying to get out of bed.

Clush by Isles & Glaciers

I love animal crossing! Brings back some good memories. Can't wait for the new Animal Crossing for Switch!

I don't really know much about you or your life so I cannot really offer any advice. I wish you happiness though. Life is rough. I just hope that however your life goes and whatever you end up doing in life you can find peace and happiness in your existence. Hope is hard to keep but I want to keep striving to be better. I want to make it past all of this and be at a point in my life where I can exist without all this pain and darkness.

I enjoy making eye contact. Makes me feel connected to the person I am talking to. Knowing that they are focusing on me and I am focusing on them makes conversations more important. Since I have very little time to interact with others, I try to make the most of it. I was also raised in a small town though. Whenever I have traveled to big cities the only people that made eye contact with me or said hello were people trying to sell me something.

I can definitely relate. If I had to describe my life in one word I would say loneliness. As hard as I fight not to be alone, others aren't able to relate to me so they don't find value in me. What keeps me going is the possibility for things to change. Life is constantly change so I just keep going hoping one day I'll be happy with how life has changed to. Do you think you'll keep going?

Ah to be human. Hurts to be around others. Hurts to be alone. Though when I'm alone and don't think about others life is fine. Very tempted to just stop trying.

😁🔫

Ah gotcha. I get like that sometimes as well. Life can be going fine but here comes depression. Things have gotten worse but I know what I need to do I just need to do it now. I'm not sure there is a way you could help but thank you for offering. I really appreciate it. Haha nice. I haven't ever played the Soul Caliber games but the characters always have looked very cool.

Looking through old messages from my friend last year. I miss our friendship. I miss being that close to someone else. Life always changes though. I just have to move on and get use to the loneliness.