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Soarsie18

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    Soarsie18 got a reaction from SolaMara in Does it matter?   
    We are all people who have been hurt in someway, we know what it's like to feel that kind of hurt, and I think it makes us more sensitive to other peoples feelings. If you are suffering and struggling to talk about it, just know that this is a safe place for you to talk, with understanding people, who are just like you. 
    I'm forever grateful for the support I had, and know the importance now of supporting others struggling like I did - the impact it has. 
    - You have all my support
    Meg X
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    Soarsie18 got a reaction from Aic in Does it matter?   
    We are all people who have been hurt in someway, we know what it's like to feel that kind of hurt, and I think it makes us more sensitive to other peoples feelings. If you are suffering and struggling to talk about it, just know that this is a safe place for you to talk, with understanding people, who are just like you. 
    I'm forever grateful for the support I had, and know the importance now of supporting others struggling like I did - the impact it has. 
    - You have all my support
    Meg X
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    Soarsie18 got a reaction from samadhiSheol in Does it matter?   
    We are all people who have been hurt in someway, we know what it's like to feel that kind of hurt, and I think it makes us more sensitive to other peoples feelings. If you are suffering and struggling to talk about it, just know that this is a safe place for you to talk, with understanding people, who are just like you. 
    I'm forever grateful for the support I had, and know the importance now of supporting others struggling like I did - the impact it has. 
    - You have all my support
    Meg X
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    Soarsie18 reacted to nojoy in Properly letting go   
    It is okay to focus on other things. You have options in life. You might  become a vet in the next few years or maybe you will find something else that interests you.
    Look how many times I switched majors in college, and I'm still trying to figure what it is that I want to do with the rest of my life. I have problems committing to anything for very long. In the last year, I have taken up crocheting (brought a lot of yarn!), recycling used items into jewelry, jewelry holders, children's toys (I still have a room full of boxes that I was going to use), join a gym or yoga class (I have the clothes for both). And I gave everything up because I compared my work and myself  to the beautiful work of others and decided I was not good enough or I lost interest. I've taken art classes, jewelry making, wreath making and I'm looking for the next class.  I'm still looking for something that I can feel good about and that interests me.
    Don't give up. Don't miss out on life. Live and enjoy everything you do. Explore what interests you. You may find you like painting or helping people or pet sitting or working in a store. Keep exploring. 
    I think everyone feels lost after high school. Fear of the unknown, made me go right from high school straight into college with no break  to figure out exactly what I wanted to do. Everytime I moved out of my parents house, fear made me return to what I knew. Fear kept me from committing to one person (until I married him to get way from my mother's emotional abuse and even then I don't think I really loved him).
    Look around the world, explore many paths, Work at different jobs to find something you like or just to have something to do and make some money. You are not lost. You are a at fork in the road and have to decide which direction to go. Enjoy the journey, don't worry about the big stuff,  it will still be there whenever you are ready to deal with it.
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    Soarsie18 got a reaction from Atra in Properly letting go   
    @nojoy I’ve decided to find a new focus for the time being. I’ve put so much time and effort into being a vet and now that theres nothing left to do I’m lost. 
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    Soarsie18 got a reaction from Atra in Properly letting go   
    Thats the chat I need to have with myself now @Atra
    It's painful. I don't want to let go because I feel like thats giving up in itself. But something has to change because I can't carry on living like this. 
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    Soarsie18 got a reaction from nojoy in Properly letting go   
    Thats the chat I need to have with myself now @Atra
    It's painful. I don't want to let go because I feel like thats giving up in itself. But something has to change because I can't carry on living like this. 
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    Soarsie18 reacted to Atra in Properly letting go   
    You can be strong woman and sometimes feel like surrendering; the synthesis of these two seemingly opposite truths can be viewed as conflict but also seen as a balance. Like a scale  ⚖️ sometimes one side is just heavier than the other. Balance isn't a finish line we can cross, it's not an achievement it's maintenance. 
    Living in the present can be awfully hard and I believe harder still for we who wrestle with depression. If we're not ruminating about the past we're worrying about the future. I feel for you because I understand what it is like to be unable to let go. The times I've been able to let go, I sort of had a little chat with myself: Okay. You can't change what has happened. You can't control what will happen. You can control this present moment, so, for how much longer do you feel it is necessary to suffer - another hour? A day? A week? Pain, loss, change is unavoidable. Suffering over it is avoidable. 
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    Soarsie18 reacted to JustAnotherSufferer in My depression story   
    Awwww. I knew you’d like it sws
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    Soarsie18 reacted to JustAnotherSufferer in F me   
    I know meg, you’ve always strived to be accepted, loved and something to feel proud of but you never got it. I know you might feel like those losers at school are right, but they’re not! You’re ten times better than most of those jerks. You don’t have to try to better than them, you already are better than them
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    Soarsie18 reacted to JustAnotherSufferer in My depression story   
    That’s so sad Meg! I’m sorry that they treated you trash. Never feel guilty for what your aunt and cousin did to you, what they did was completely their fault. You where so sweet and kind to them and they had the guts to make you feel guilty and push you down And it’s so sad that they’re getting away with it.
    You’ve been so strong Meg and I’m proud of you!
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    Soarsie18 reacted to Jamark8 in I don't know how this helps anyone   
    WOW. Thank you, this helped me. You thought it wouldn't help anyone, but it did me. I don't know your specific details of course, but I can relate. I feel you through those words. It's something I could really relate too, as I am struggling with harming my insides too...

    It gets scary out in the world sometimes. But I always feel alone too, especially in despair and I often get or see the hope a little too late. When I come out of the depression and regroup my mind, I get that hope feeling, as if one day the Joy will stay with me in my heart for ever and ever.

    Here's some wisdom I've gathered. I wrote it in a special journal:

    Sometimes we have to have a breakdown before we have a breakthrough.

    And what you focus on grows.

    What you resist, persists. Resistance makes stronger.  

    Complete the past so you don't have to repeat the past. If past memory comes, look at it, observe it, acknowledge it's there, but let it go.

    Trust the Universe, trust the process. Know it's all coming from within anyways.

    Your reality is a reflection of what you believe to be true.

    Decrease the importance of things you're giving a lot of meaning to. Let go of giving things too much meaning.

    Patterns of the past keep us in ego.

    Show your mistakes to let others know its okay to make mistakes.

    Things get better when you don't resist... just be yourself.

    It only matters how you see yourself.

    Don't try to control everything.

    We don't attract what we want, we attract what we are.

    The day you plant the seed is not the same day you eat the fruit.

    You harm yourself, as dust thrown against the wind comes back to the thrower.

    Anxiety deals with the future, depression deals with the past. Stay Present.

    Ego = the phantom self that runs your life when you're not there as witnessing consciousness.

    The awakening process is an inside job.

    Pleasure is externalized. Joy rises from within.

    Enlightenment is knowing how much you don't know and being okay with that.

    Nothing changes for the better in your life until you do.

    Nothing ever goes away until it teaches us what we need to know.

    You didn't come here to be perfect, you came here to be real.

    If you learn self control, you can control anything.

    The greatest relationship you can have is with yourself.

    Prove yourself to yourself.

    The Universe reveals it's secrets to those who dare to follow their hearts.

    Life begins where fear ends.

    We control how we respond to situations, but not the situation itself.

    We control attitude.

    Learn to accept being in the present moment.

    The things we can't control teach us how to let go.

    Step into the truth of who you really are, move into the oneness that everything is, and trust the Universe's plan.

    I hope this helps.
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    Soarsie18 got a reaction from Devlinkyla in Never hade a blog before   
    I’m so sorry to hear everything you’ve been through. Any one of those things would be extremely hard to cope with. I’m glad you’re able to talk to us about it. I can’t imagine trying to keep all of that to yourself. ❤️
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    Soarsie18 got a reaction from JD4010 in Never hade a blog before   
    I’m so sorry to hear everything you’ve been through. Any one of those things would be extremely hard to cope with. I’m glad you’re able to talk to us about it. I can’t imagine trying to keep all of that to yourself. ❤️
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    Soarsie18 got a reaction from Ratvan in Yeah im a piece. A big piece too.   
    Natasha your self worth comes from within. It’s not something to be determined by other people - who gave them the right to. I can guarantee just by you’re statement alone you are far better than most people I know. The fact that you think that you’re crap shows that you want to be good. And some people out there honestly couldn’t care less about being ‘good’ or are completely unaware of their flaws.
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    Soarsie18 got a reaction from JD4010 in Yeah im a piece. A big piece too.   
    Natasha your self worth comes from within. It’s not something to be determined by other people - who gave them the right to. I can guarantee just by you’re statement alone you are far better than most people I know. The fact that you think that you’re crap shows that you want to be good. And some people out there honestly couldn’t care less about being ‘good’ or are completely unaware of their flaws.
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    Soarsie18 got a reaction from JD4010 in Wavelengths   
    @JD4010 Thanks to you guys, I know I'm not going crazy. I can't stress enough to my family how much it has changed my life. But I guess people on the outside will never understand how you can go from wanting to die every day, to caring about your life and actually being scared of death. But as you've said, I'm also kind of grateful they've never experienced this kind of pain before. 
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    Soarsie18 got a reaction from moodyjuniper in Wavelengths   
    @JD4010 Thanks to you guys, I know I'm not going crazy. I can't stress enough to my family how much it has changed my life. But I guess people on the outside will never understand how you can go from wanting to die every day, to caring about your life and actually being scared of death. But as you've said, I'm also kind of grateful they've never experienced this kind of pain before. 
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    Soarsie18 reacted to JD4010 in Wavelengths   
    Well! You aren't far away from many of us who feel very much as you do. If I had any creativity, I could have written a similar poem. I've tried to explain depression to my daughter and she simply doesn't get it. I see that as a good thing because that means she isn't familiar with the feeling from it.
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    Soarsie18 got a reaction from Tears_Always in My depression story   
    @Tears_Always at least you don't have to pretend here. And I'll still be waiting for that day you'll post here on df with news about a good turn in your life. Maybe about finding another shield like Wicket. 
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    Soarsie18 reacted to Tears_Always in My depression story   
    @Soarsie18 I know that for me it will be a very long time if ever that my life has more than little snatchs of joy. The loss of my Wicket broke a major part of me. He was my shield against the world, my comfort, and my child the hole that he has left is deep and wide, but my mask is coming back in place and I will pretend.
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    Soarsie18 got a reaction from Tears_Always in My depression story   
    @Tears_Always You've been through so much, but your still here. And like you said, you're moving forward. I admire that a lot. I know there's still more for me to experience, harder things to have to deal with. I just hope that I'm as strong as you are when that day comes. And I'm praying that we'll both be able to get out of this dark place somehow and experience some happiness - (even if it's just for a little while)
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    Soarsie18 got a reaction from TopekaK in It's gonna be a long climb...   
    My weight loss diet is, I only eat when I’m hungry and stop when I’m full. When I get to the point of being starving I allow myself to eat whatever I fancy (I try and choose healthy). When I eat I eat slowly so that I know when I’m full and should stop eating. I also drink a lot of water throughout the day. And as a treat, once a week (normally on saturday) I allow myself to have 200kcal of whatever sweet treat I want - dark chocolate is good for curbing cravings, without actually needing to eat a lot of it. But the point is to limit bad foods rather than cutting them out completely, it’s quite a nice diet to follow. I’ve lost 1/2 a stone in one month 🙂 
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    Soarsie18 got a reaction from TopekaK in It's gonna be a long climb...   
    My favourite healthy meal is stir fry, because you can pack a lot of veg in there, and also a lot of flavour. V filling !!
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    Soarsie18 reacted to JD4010 in It's gonna be a long climb...   
    @Soarsie18 Gosh yes. Stir fry is great. And it's simple enough that even an old clod like me can make it!
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