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Posts posted by Soarsie18

  1. 14 hours ago, Extremebeginner said:


    Soarsie, take a deep breath..... and let it go.

    what did you do today that you felt good about, no matter how small. Here to help you as best I can, understand how you feel but honestly you are at an age where things can and will change for the better. If you split with your bf, then it was meant to be, you will find somebody else who loves you as you deserve to be loved. You have a life ahead of you full of ups and downs. You will be ok. Hugs

    I don’t think I did anything yesterday that made me feel good bar eating ok ish, today I woke up and found that a scammer had taken £50 pounds out of my account, and as an unemployed student living in London, that was all the money I had. I am so devastated and angry with myself, but have meditated today and so am feeling better already, I’ve postponed all chores in order to focus on myself today. Thank you so much for your kind words.

  2. 28 minutes ago, Evergreenforst4 said:


    My girlfriend ended up dumping me. Now all I do is workout, go running. I feel like a product in a window and people evaluate my worth lol you just gotta get angry and pump the iron and make him wish he never cheated >:D and one day he will come crawling back to you but then you just stand your ground and say no thanks 🙂

    He already has lol, was crying down the phone

  3. Have just found out that my boyfriend is flirting with the girls he works with and is bragging about it to his friends, I feel broken, made to look like an idiot, sitting here waiting for him to come back whilst he’s having the time of his life. I don’t know how to feel, he told me that he loves me and I’m blowing this out of proportion, I’m broken because he said that he would never break up with me and that just makes it harder to break up, I don’t believe him, I don’t trust him, I don’t do relationships

  4. 6 minutes ago, APFSDS said:

    Hah, "dwy'n hoffi coffi" is a classic 😄 it's in every phrase book!
    Even though I'm pessimistic as heck, I keep saying "popeth yn iawn" for comfort 😅


    Anyhow. We used to have a dog, his name was Kutcha - basically Uralic for "doggie"... incidentally Russian for "heap" ... don't ask why.

    Here’s another one, bendigedig - fantastic, love foreign names that no one understands

  5. 29 minutes ago, Nightjar said:

    Rough day again. Lots of rough days lately.... Had very little sleep/hormones are playing up/narcissist knocking at the door earlier/mini lion anxious... It all adds up... I'm trying to relax but I don't know if I'll manage it today. Still, I'll try 🙄

    Go outside , find a quiet place, confront the narcissist , we all support you

  6. So right now feeling alright, I’m far away from being a vet, but having someone give me something to study that is getting me there GIVES ME LIFE, so happy. All you other students gunning for my spot better watch out, failure and disappointment has only made me even more ruthless 😈, mental strength is truly the best gift ever, but the most painful to develop.

  7. 2 hours ago, sober4life said:

    You're in the same prison I'm in endlessly trying to prove I'm ok.  I hate this life.  I feel afraid when they focus on me too much because what will they do to me?  The only time I have peace is when I'm with mom in my dreams.  I scream every time I wake up to this.

    It’s hell right, especially when you know that you are the route of their unhappiness, I wish I could scream and say I am trying my best, but instead I have to say that I will do better because otherwise I am scared they will give up on me. I don’t want him to leave me and not in this state. The only time I am truly happy is when I push myself to the point of crying from exhaustion, don’t know how much longer I can live like this, when will I be able to relax and just exist.

  8. Tired, I revised for 11 hours yesterday. Have woken up now to do the same today. My eyes hurt from staring at the computer screen. I’m starving and weak but can’t eat because of anxiety, I just feel so ill. The pressure is so intense though, I have to prove to my boyfriend that I am doing ok

  9. 2 minutes ago, Soarsie18 said:

    Twtwylltrwydd twtlyd twti twt twt , miss twt, twtigofwylltrwydd, all welsh names that we call my cat ‘twts’. Twt meaning small and cute, wylltrwydd meaning wild and crazy. 

    I don’t expect anyone to understand what I just typed there 😅

  10. Just now, Svenetc said:

    Live in the US ...so I did not know ...well tobacco and any alcohol is expensive here too ... but nutrition is more important .... I bet you could have combined all with them 20 ..... I assume anyways 😉 

    maybe, was hoping to get some vegetables but because of covid all grocery stores were shut so had to go to the corner shop, thankfully the man in the shop has a son that has a crush on me so he let me have some pennies off. But embarassing none the lease

  11. 41 minutes ago, Kogent5 said:

    My brother's birthday is soon and mine soon after that. Mid-30s now and at this point I feel I've wasted my life entirely. I finished my final assignment for a class I'm taking - an assignment I've spent a ridiculous amount of time on - and just said to myself, "That was stupid and meaningless. No one will see this besides your teacher and he'll forget it right after he marks it. This isn't important work, it contributes nothing to the world. Why are you wasting your time? Why are you here?" So that's where I'm at...as if I'm so important that I deserve a hero's story or something.

    And then I remembered a depression test I had to answer in high school. I lied on that stupid test to seem not depressed and I STILL tested positive for mild depression. Meanwhile my friend got not depressed at all. Nothing changed for me, I just lie less about it now...

    Wasted your life ? you are 30, that is not a lifetime. 

    I know you you feel with regards to assignments, especially now with covid, all i am given is assignments and then very little feedback which seems pointless and unsatisfying. Try and think back to the reason why you are doing any of this, if there is an end goal focus on it, and if there isn''t at the moment then just know that every degree has weight behind it, all hard work has weight. 

  12. 1 hour ago, Bulgakov said:

    🤠  Soarsie18, I agree, there does seem to be something else going on with that wealth gap! 

    At the moment it is getting bigger unfortunately, with the 10 richest people in the world holding the same wealth as 50% of the worlds population. No need to vote for politics because money rules the world. But i guess thats off topic .. but definitely a factor in individual creativity

  13. 1 hour ago, Svenetc said:

    I had to google that ....lol ....glad you feel ok ....

    lol american or canadian ? have spent the money on a little bit of both but tobacco is so expensive so was only able to get a small bottle of rum, this also means won't be eating for the week and i can't space out my alcohol. 

  14. 16 minutes ago, Bulgakov said:

    It's a time of change for movies, actors.  Big movie companies are moving online to distribute their films.   Actors lucky enough to stay in films used to move into character roles as they aged.   Now they're lucky to get roles in commercials.  What were big names are showing up in some pretty funky action movies now too. What was part of our cultural conversation, movies and movie stars, will fade.  



    Totally, there are remakes of everything, creative thought has been declining for a while now but even more with covid and actors being stuck at home which makes sense to a point. However I feel there is something else going on in regards to the increase in the wealth gap, things have just changed a lot since the 80s/90s

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