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FerryJerry

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  1. I'm glad that they are I been through hell since it happened and it's impacted by mental health badly so I'm glad there is justice
  2. I cant say much but the police have now done something so I am happy that I shouldn't be harassed anymore
  3. I decided to email one last night and hopefully they will call me back
  4. I have and the new messages too and I don't think they will do anything as they didn't the first time I reported her
  5. I moved to a new town everything was going good until I uploaded a video of the local air ambulance to YouTube of The helicopter taking off, a lady took Offence and started harassing me and things just got worse i asked her to stop badgering and harassing me and she did the opposite she started making false accusations against me and I started to receive threats against my pets, one of her friends posted my home address and days later someone came in to my garden and took my rabbits and let them loose a few blocks away, I’ve had to install locks on the hutch and install cctv they threatened to boil my rabbits and threatened me with knifes, the police won’t do anything, they say because they don’t name me, there is nothing they can do Its got to me so much that I had migraines with migraine aura, I started cracking up at the super market. This lady even went to the police and said I posted about her on Facebook, which was untrue and the police cane straight around to my house and harassed me and I’ve had enough i did nothing to this woman other than ask her to stop harassing me and I’ve had no peace since, I’ve been getting a ton of requests from her to access my files on google drive and she posted a hateful message, I’ve got to live here, she’s storing things up and I don’t know what to do I've spent all day in the garden, hurting my knees, securing the rabbit hutches to prevent anyone from getting in and I did this in the rain, I live my life here or at least I did until this happened, if I pursue a legal case against her I fear it will fuel the fire but if I don’t then when will this stop it’s been going on for a week or so some of her friends threatened to put me in the sea with a brick around my leg and other vile messages
  6. I’ve just felt very ill since and keep having really bad days but I’m going to find a few one somehow.
  7. I have felt hopeless and low since my first psych appointment since we moved, she had no interest in me as a patient or doing any work, she was me for 20mins and most of the 20 mins was badgering me for consent to get access to my old medical records, I tried to tell her that there were issues with confidentiality and she just ignored that and said we will meet again once she gets my old medical records. She was very cold and I don't have many hopes that I will get treatment, my partner wants to put in a complaint and I agreed became yesterday I was physically ill when I was out, I think it was the stress of the appointment. I recorded the appointment on my phone so I let my partner listen to the recording. I feel so low end depleted that I'm not sleeping at night and today not helping because I am waiting for parcels and I don't think they are going to arrive. I got up early waited in and that means the same is going to have to happen tomorrow which suck, I have chores to do and don't feel up to doing them, I barely look after myself anymore and I'm fed up of being alive I can barely walk properly, sitting and standing is really painful and taking pain meds for them makes me high because they are opiate-based so when I take them you feel high and you can walk for a while but I don't think they help my tummy. Maybe I will do something today, like go to the beach and just rest
  8. This month has been hell and I cant cope, I was attacked by seagulls and then I got very ill and then the bank caused my card to be blocked for a week they said it was a system glitch so bad that the IT department had to investigate, hut I dont believe them. I had to borrow money just to eat. Then it got me down so much that my gums became infected and I had the dentist two days in a row one tooth removal and the other a root canal and my gums still hurt. I tried to rest and recover and my partners just been s real jerk, I waited around for ages and then she kept messing me around and then when I couldn't cope she just kept piling things on me to do, her cat pooped all over the place again including me Things are getting on top of me and I cant cope, I've thought about leaving my partner but I couldn't look after myself so i am considering suicide because I cant bare the thought or having more difficult times and then I can escape these cats, the aggravation from my partner and the fact that my health has gone downhill I was so bad last night that I felt close to fainting and I was exhausted from two days straight in the dentist and then the legal battle with my doctor and I felt so ill and took painkillers and then crashes out as I was burnt out and went to sleep and slept through dinner and everything I dont want the responsibilities I have anymore and lifes becoming too difficult to bare and I've had enough of my life. We got cats and then my partner got another one that doesn't seem properly litter trained and poohs all over everything and crys loudly as she does it and we paid a lot of money to make this place nice and they keep messing it up badly and I cant cope with everything that's going on Jerry
  9. Today I was supposed to go on a boat trip to a remote island and it was a 4hour trip and I hardly slept because my fear of landing on the Island was too much to cope with I worried that there was no cell reception, that the boat just left you there on your own for hours and went off fishing I was scared of the weather I was scared of being alone and having a panic attack and not being able to get help but most of all I feared not getting off the island and not easily being able to get on or off of the boat because of my bad leg and I also feared the weather It kept me awake and the anxiety was so bad that I didn't sleep and I made myself ill through worry, It went right to my tummy Then I got several calls and emails I didn't want that caused me anxiety one of the calls was the boat people cancelled the trip due to bad fog I didn't realise how bad my mental health is and how much I depend on my partner for moral support and because she couldn't come as she gets sea sick I couldn't cope alone I've tried to get therapy but they keep cancelling on me at the last moment and there don't seem to be any private therapists here I've never felt so scared and alone as I have done today, I don't want to go on the Island I just wanted photos closer towards it. I've emailed another fisher boat and asked if they offer a non landing trip because that wouldn't worry me as much If there was people and facilities on the Island I would cope but it's just a 99 hectares island made by a volcano and it's filled with birds, an old abandoned light house, castle and small house but people are allowed to visit the Island I feel stupid for being so worked up over a boat trip Jerry
  10. I keep feeling ill and exhausted and people keep treating me badly and I just don’t want to be in this world anymore, I am struggling to get help Today I went for a walk and got back and was so exhausted, my partner was fed up so was I because the cat did a poop on the carpet again and I refused to help because A: I was in so much agony with my joints that getting up and down was agony and B: I told her if she wants to keep that cat that keeps messing the carpet she’s gonna take care of it. I ended up going to sleep with no dinner because of it, half the time I can’t sleep and end up only getting to sleep after I take drugs and pass out, but that’s my life, I’m not coping any other way i think this is a good as my life is going to get and I just waiting for something in my body to give up so I can leave this messed up world, I don’t believe I was ever meant to be here, I was an accident and I stumbled through life barely making it through. I’m fed up of fighting and all the battles I have ongoing i look across the sea and I see an Island and I wish I could flee there and live on the Island to live out the remainder of my days away from everything Maybe one day I will find my way out people keep saying aww those cats look so happy and I just think I am glad they are happy but I’m never happy and I’ve been searching for happiness since I was a teenager many years ago, all I found was violence, abuse and people screwing me over and every day I am in agony with my joints and I keep having many issues with my stomach and I think to myself when’s it gonna end in order to get better I need exercise but exercise causes me to hurt and feel exhausted for days after, I don’t want to try the experimental operation where they saw my bones in half and recast them as there is no guarantees it will make any improvements according to the doctors, I needed help for my knees when I was a child and no one got me any medical Help so they became twisted and now they hurt me so bad
  11. I didn’t sleep last night so I woke up and had a tummy upset then I got a text message to say look on Facebook and that’s is how I found out dad is engaged to his new girlfriend he has known for less than a year he asked me for mums ring but I said no I am super super pist off, I expect that everyone else got phone calls me just a text to say look ok Facebook Mall I know is that I’ve just a really bad panic attack because of it and feel low
  12. This week has been dire and its left me feeling so darn low My dad texted me and he gave my mum's things when she died years ago and in my text my dad asked for the ring back and it was not even a nice way he did it he said Hey Son know your grandmas vases they are worth £1400 he said that they need repairing and he would swap them for the ring, no reasons or explanations just straight out hey how are you want to swap for your grandmas vases that were my mum's it hurt me to be honest, mum loved her rings she loved her things and all he did when she died was sell everything off and give it away and I am just really really upset and offended, these rings meant a lot to me and they were my grandmas. Today someone nasty got my face book account banned by claiming that my profile is fake when its not and I had two years of game saves and data on that account which also upset me a great deal and I lost my therapist so I got no one to talk to and my new therapy is months away but the nhs cant be trusted to be fully open with as they record everything you say like data miners and store it forever Iv'e had enough of life and being alive and the thought of what happens after I die scares me because I don't believe I am a good person my thoughts tell me that all the time and that I am just fooling everyone. I keep coming across some right nasty abusive people and I just don't want to know people anymore, these cats of mine never treat me like dirt, maybe they some times scratch and bite and trash the house but its not done out of malice and what you see if what you get, that is why I love animals better than I do people because they are not two faced or evil they are pure. I would like to take off across the countryside in to the wilderness and never look back, never go back I can only imagine that my father wants this ring because he is broke like I am broke and he wants an engagement ring for his new girlfriend but in stead of telling me he keeps it from me and I am hurt, I know he has no sentimental value the ring means nothing to him because like all mum's stuff and our stuff growing up he just sold it off or gave it away, he did not even say "Look Son mum's ring means a lot to me, I want to have it because its dear to me" non of that just here's some vases they are worth money look, you can sell em and I will swap the ring for them. When I declined he was like "OK I understand, I will give the vases to your cousins so we can keep them in the family" and he knew very well that those vases mean naff all to him because he tried to sell them for the last year or so and he can't he was told that they need to be restored and being restored costs money and he doesn't have money, neither do I, everything that comes in goes on food and bills and even then isn't enough for a basic life style. I don't care if dad does anything because I won't swap the ring, he cant do anything worse to me then the loss of my kin and mum because I am dead inside and badly broken so much that the thought of my own demise doesn't worry me anymore because if I die then I don't have to suffer anymore. I got dead lines and chores I got to do but I am struggling because I feel in a really bad place right now. I talked to my friends and relatives on facebook and asked no one to tell my dad what I said and some one has gone to dad and told him because he was like "morning I hope you feel better today" I never told I wasn't OK, I only said online" you see my problem here? Deep down I don't feel like my dad gives a dam about me because he keeps saying he will help or do things and then he lets me down time and time again and never does what he says he will do but when he wants something, its a different story and I am just really hurt.
  13. I still have my kitten, I was mislead by the cat people they placed a private advert as a private person and they claimed the cats were in reading and that it was just one kitten then one kitten became one kitten and a mother cat and they said that they where bribing them from Reading to Glasgow and have me an address in Glasgow on the day I got a strange message to say on a flight and that the cats hated being in pet carriers and to wish them luck, then I got a strange message to say that they where in a taxi and 14 hours passed, midnight came and then there was a knock on the door and they had brought the cats here and the first thing they did was run under the bed scared the cats and they stayed there for over a week and I had to put the cat litter by the bed and the food and drink etc when I looked on the pet pack it said that they had a flight from Dubai to Heathrow airport and listed the names and addresses of the people responsible I am angry and hurt, I didn’t sleep last night for crying and panic attack’s and I am going to sue them because they can’t get away with it or they will keep doing it We got in this situation because A) I went to people I thought I could trust for cats, B)my fiancé wanted a third cat and she’s hardly wanted to know it, I am the one babysitting it all the time and it’s bonded to me and I love it but I didn’t think it was a good idea in the first place but I am looking after kitten and focusing on her now. She’s cute and shows a lot of love and affection and is a happy little baby. those cat people have gotten to me so much that I got a book on magic to use on those horrible people in case all else fails. Maybe others can forgive but I can’t forgive everyone, some people hurt me so deeply that I can never forgive or forget i don’t see how they should be bringing feral cats in to the UK i am glad we have kitten she’s cuddled up on my lap and is fast sleep and looks like she’s smiling
  14. Those people who sold me the cats harassed me and harassed me and threatened me and blackmailed me until I gave in and gave them the cats back, they refused to give me my money back, so I didn’t give in, I called the cat protection league and gave them away, the cats attacked our new kitten and they attacked me as they were feral ( a few weeks back I posted because one sent me to hospital) not only did I have to catch them on my own and got badly hurt again I had to watch as they were crying and being carried away I am destroyed and I had to speak to cat protection agency while receiving a flood of abuse from the ex owners and threats and the house got trashed why trying to catch the cats and I cried my eyes out and It hurts me we had the cats for 10 weeks, they were sold to us as tame for £200 each IE £400 and it’s not the money it’s the fact that those cats were happy here but we couldn’t get them to the vet (they wouldn’t go in a pet pack) and we were told that if we didn’t take them they would get the police and the rspca I am conflicted inside and torn apart and deeply hurt and angry and I am going after them in court for breach of contract, misrepresentation and copyright theft as they stole my photos and plastered them all over the internet to advertise their other cats I've had enough of people I have had enough of taking things laying down I am going to bury them in legal proceedings then name and shame them all those cats wanted was to be safe, they didn’t need the vets over a healed cat scratch from where they were play fighting and I feel this rage inside that won’t go away I need your support more then ever as I am broken in to pieces and torn apart and can’t stop crying
  15. I spent ages yesterday doing the chores and then cat sitting and every waking hour I have to cat sit to keep the new kitten safe from the other cats at they hiss and growl at her and at night we have to separate them I said to my partner I didn’t think getting another cat was a good idea, but it so happens I have really taken to the new kitten and love her dearly but what’s difficult is the fact that the older cat won’t even go near her so they won’t eat or drink or use the litter tray in the living room despite the door being closed and no kitten in that room, now good old honey dearest wants to put a litter tray, food and water in the bedroom and obviously the cats come first but it’s gonna smell bad after they poop I am finding it all exhausting and stressful, I crashed out at 11 last night and only just woke up then smashed my head on the door on the way to the bathroom, when I enter the bathroom the cats always are very vocal and try to get under the door as they want to get in to the bathroom for some reason. Last night I kept having nightmares too
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