drowningsakura

Had a okay day. I didn't really get anything done BUT I had almost no urges to self harm or anything so that's a good thing. I hope I can get everything I need to get dome tomorrow... We'll see.

Never heard of it... Is it similar to CBT/DBT ?

I feel the same way. But I don't miss passing out, or refusing all food, being hungry all the time, scaring my friends ans family. Try to focus on those things.

Finished a paper I have due tomorrow. Feeling incredibly empty and dull. Like everything has been sucked out of me. Definently going to sleep for the rest of the day.

I'm sorry you've been feeling like this... It's the worst, isn't it? I would suggest taking some time for yourself without letting your anxiety or depression attack you because you stopped moving. Something I do that really helps me is just distracting myself with whatever- games, movies, TV, books... Something that also makes me feel good is when I make something & listen to my favorite books on tape. I listen to the Harry Potter books on tape because they bring me back to my childhood and make me feel safe. I like to knit or draw while doing this. I hope you can think of something that you like to do that can also be relaxing!

Bit better... I spoke with my therapist and my dad which always helps. Hopefully I will be able to accept whatever will happen the next weeks.

when the party's over - Billie Eilish

Are you talking to me or @Royally1nsane ?

I'm absolutely horrible at remembering to take my medication, especially when my life is quite busy (like during my semesters). I just realized a week ago that I have forgotten to take my meds for the past month or so, which definently had a hand in the downward spiral I am in. But the thing is, I don't want to take my meds. I know I should, I know it would make me feel better, but I just can't get myself to do it. I stare at the bottle and do nothing with it. I guess I partially don't want to admit that I need meds or anything else, even though I know I do, and I guess I'm terrified that I won't take them at all and end up hospitalized. I'm just really really lost right now.

Do you have any friends you can talk to? Can you maybe cut some things out of the next semester so you can focus on yourself and your health as well as studying? I'm in the same boat. Hang in there bud.

incredibly suicidal and alone 🙂

It never gets any easier, huh? I hope you can at least find some moments of peace. Know that you are not the only one feeling this way.