I get you--I also have OCD (besides being bi-polar as well) and I also get these bad thoughts and I have trouble getting rid of them--I used to be a cutter,but, I stopped because it really quit bringing me relief..The point I am trying to make is that now when I have a bad thought I try like hell to just ignore it and focus on something else..I know how hard it is to turn "it" off---just takes lots of work not to have the bad thoughts..I do understand!! BTW, I welcome you to the website--8-]]