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Ratvan last won the day on June 7 2019

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  • Birthday 11/28/1985

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    Football, Aquariums, Cats, Dogs, Aikido, Muay Thai, Boxing, Downhill BMX, Protesting, volunteering, mentoring

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  1. Thanks Sue, next milestone is three years which is on 23.12.2020 so 90ish days
  2. 1000 days sober for me today 😄
  3. I am doing well, celebrating a massive achievement for me tomorrow Tomorrow will be 1000 days sober
  4. Here's the thing, I'm doing well and trying hard for me. I think I need to just let go and learn how to live as me by myself. If things work out fantastic, if not I'm still in a better place than I was. I love her, am in love with her we just don't have anything in common anymore. Literally we will sit in silence until one of us decides its time to sleep with the laptop on and me with my head in a book. We used to read to each other but now she has no interest in that 🤷‍♂️ Plus the whole "I love you but don't know how to live with you, and I'm terrified of being on my own" just goes round and round my head like the Bohemian Rhapsody video
  5. Thanks I am very proud I have got this far. Just need to keep doing what I've done previously and take it how it comes. I'll admit I did want to go get blackout drunk for all of 15 minutes but that passed fairly quickly. I signed the divorce papers early on in lockdown. I think March 23rd ish. Not really soon. I don't think anyway. Well we all (me, the ex, and her mum) live together currently until we can sort some housing for her mum. We know where the pets are going if neither of us can afford or find somewhere to rent. She wants to give things another shot, she says she can see me really trying again now. While that's all I have wanted for the past 6 months I don't think I can. I love her so much and want us to be happy but I don't think I am ready for that yet and after 12 years I can't ask for more time 🤷‍♂️
  6. Well today is day 996 sober and I'm really being tested. Been to the doctors again to have a look at a mole on my back that my tattooist recommended that I get seen too. Been told today that it is either stage 3 (grown into a nerve) or stage 4 (grown into bone) which is lovely. So I need to now wait for an operation date knowing I need to self isolate for 14 days before hand. Also the chat with the ex, wow that was upsetting. She's also been texting about the appointment today so not sure how I'm going to break that to her
  7. Having "a chat" with the ex tonight so that'll be interesting
  8. Been working back through Avatar the Last Airbender, love the show and how much i notice different stuff each time
  9. I am with you on the not to hot part, Leeds is getting to a lovely 23C today. An Indian Summer for us again
  10. I've not had fresh water in a number of years, but i do remember they're omnivores. So if they ran out or didn't like the algae they would likely go for a weak, old or injured fish. what did you keep in with them?
  11. Thankfully i took most of them home so i have not lost any. However i am getting very close to putting a brick through the tank at the moment. It is not playing ball
  12. I have spent the last week or so slowly cleaning out my Office Fish tank after Covid had killed it for nearly 5 months, I think another week or so it should be ready for me to restart it again
  13. Advocado on toast, coddled eggs and bacon
  14. I've had to slow down my exercise lately due to health reasons, but I have made some changes. I no longer drive to work, it takes the same amount of time and so much less stress if i take the train into town and then walk to the office. All in all it is a 5 mile round trip each day so i am getting my daily gentle excercise, I have a few more pounds (4) to put back on before i want to start to work out a bit harder. I have also reached out to a couple of the Gyms and Dojo's that I frequented and they are back more or less fully open and are starting to do full contact sparring again in the next few weeks which is exciting, just need to get the stamina back up and I feel like I can start to work off the frustrations of these last 6 months
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