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Ratvan last won the day on March 15

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    Football, Aquariums, Cats, Dogs, Aikido, Muay Thai, Boxing, Downhill BMX, Protesting, volunteering, mentoring

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  1. Well now, I have been struggling with how to put this into words all afternoon. I had an appointment at my local hospital today. It was for the results of the tests that they have been running for almost 18 months. I have felt numb since the diagnosis. It just seems weird, like it's not happening to me. I feel removed from my body and mind right now. The Dr. Was very good, gave me my diagnosis and explained to me what this meant in terms of treatments, side effects and gave me a load of information and contacts for support groups. I already have a will in place so at least I dont need to undertake this while I process the information. Starting from tomorrow my treatment is going to be 2 aspirin, 4 times a day to thin my blood enough for my monthly (at the moment) phlebotomy treatments. Thankfully the Dr did not see any issues for me at the moment in terms of exercise and activities. I am really enjoying my martial arts and want to compete in the near future. We need to see how the first three or four sessions go before we can discuss other treatment options that maybe available. So since then I have pretty much been staring into space, or on here chatting with other members. Trying to help in any small way that I can. I honestly dont remember my walk from work to the station but since I am on the train I know that must have happened. I dont feel too bad or shocked, I had pretty much made my mind up before the diagnosis that I'd be more likely to have this then not. Although there is no science to this at all. ****. What a day
  2. I believe that there have been many tests and theories linking the lunar cycle to the bipolar mood cycle. Non surprisingly most came back inconclusive due to small sample size Personally I think that there is a correlation, we didn't get the word "Lunatic" for no reason
  3. seems like i need to be listening to “Perseverance” by Hatebreed or "3AM" by Matchbox 20 at the moment
  4. Feel mixed, received a medical diagnosis today. It means an end to the tests but overall I think i prefer not knowing
  5. Music plays a massive part in my life and my moods. However just lately I have noticed that I listen to a lot more of Ska and Punk than i used to, I'm not sure why but there seems to be a theme of dealing with mental health within those genre's I have to say as well that my mood is currently a lot lighter than it previously has been, personally I think that this is related
  6. Personally I would like to be a Mastiff breed that works, where I would work not so much of an issue. A farm would be nice i think, would like it to be Cattle farm. I have also adopted both cats and dogs (and others) I love cats, so much but I will always be a big dog fan (fan of big dogs and a big fan of dogs)
  7. As @MaepleSyrup says "Do whats best for you" I've moved several times in my life and looking back each time has been a great step forward to me
  8. Firstly it is not your fault, you are responsible for your own emotions and no one else. I know that this sounds harsh but don't stay in a relationship because you love each other, you need to figure out. Both of you. What makes you happy and if the relationship is worth it. You really need to find out if you are both as committed to the relationship as each other. To answer your question, yes it is possible to pursue a long term relationship while both suffering mental health issues. For me personally however, it did not make me happy so I had to leave Trust me this sucks so, so much but it is worth it in the end.
  9. I have been watching a lot of History Cold Case. Really insightful
  10. It's very true, the worse the terms used the closer you are as people. I love seeing how people react to my insults when they first hear them.
  11. That indeed is interesting, might try that out on my next night out
  12. Just wanted to say well done, how do you feel after a few weeks into the programme?
  13. Ratvan

    Welcome sober life

    I really hope that you do well on your Journey of Sobriety. I'm not going to lie, some days are ridiculously tough. I've had days where for the whole day at work I have fantasised about that first pint. I had to take myself somewhere else until that feeling went away (couple of hours on a punch bag) What has worked for me so far is to set small achievable goals, take it one day at a time. At the start I found AA meetings helped, for me at least. I feel less stressed and therefor do not want that oblivion so bad when i can explain feelings. If you have a drink, it's not a problem. It's a slip up, they happen. Just try and not let it overcloud your victories.
  14. Is there anything active that any of your friends do that you'd be interested in doing? In my own experience undertaking exercise has helped me restrict the amount of emotional eating that i allow
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