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Ratvan last won the day on June 7 2019

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  • Birthday 11/28/1985

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    Leeds, UK
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    Football, Aquariums, Cats, Dogs, Aikido, Muay Thai, Boxing, Downhill BMX, Protesting, volunteering, mentoring

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  1. Trying to listen to a Rancid Album - All the Moon stompers Actually listening to jackhammer outside my window
  2. Hi Paige, welcome aboard. Hope things start to pick up for you soon
  3. Random girl in the bar last night was flirting with me, haven't had that attention in a long while
  4. I'm with you, I think it is part of the reason why i am so angry, well that and its not a good time of the year for me. I am lucky i still have my Mrs, I really want to make this a good time of the year for her, but at the moment I just can't do that I feel like i am nothing more than a weight around these people's necks at the moment I'm going to get our Tree in from outside today and might decorate it and try and get into the swing of things, even if I have to fake happiness for a few more days 100%, the only good thing is the sales, can get all my birthdays and Christmas shopping done in the Boxing Day Sales
  5. Feeling like I should leave this country now
  6. Made it down safely and glad I didnt give up yesterday. Had a great day on a couple of beaches in my hometown with my brother and his dog. Very tired now and found some cool sharks teeth and fossilised Urchins
  7. It's a hard day today (2 years since my Grandad Passed) I just cant seem to focus, I'm not down (i dont think) I just cannot summon the energy to do anything at work other than be here and the simplest tasks. Got to go to my brother's house tonight which is nice apart from the 6 hour drive...
  8. angry and explosive, like my fuse is the tiniest stub at the minute
  9. Glad to hear it, I am sore as anything this morning and feeling extremely run down. I feel this way everytime I get my bloods and marrow tested
  10. It's coming up to the 2nd anniversaries of my cluster and I find it so strange that I feel like my entire life has been exactly like this and all I've ever known is this strange hollowness that just sits in the middle of me and yet it's so very heavy for something so empty. And yet the pain feels like it happened today 🤷‍♂️
  11. I've been talking to the Mrs about something like this, i'm planning on a bit of travel next year (for 6 months or so) and would love to meet some people off here, more to put a face to the name than anything else. I have a few friends on other forums that i'd love to visit. Also thinking about doing something like this for the elderly in my community, not MMA obviously, maybe something tamer like Thai Chi
  12. I'll be fine, usually the second wind comes in during the sparring warm up sessions, its just persuading myself to go to the gym and not my bed. I have another Charity fight coming up around New Years, not going to train as much as I did for the last one though (45+ hours a week)
  13. Just feel tired, just need to make it to 5pm tomorrow and I can relax for a couple of days. I managed to book off the dates that I know will act as a trigger for me, also aware that my Wife (yeah married now) is likely to have booked something in for my Birthday (28th November) which is also the date that my Grandfather passed. Hope that I'm not too down to enjoy that, it's difficult but honestly it's so nice to know that Megan loves me regardless of how i act. Just have to try and not "protect by pushing away" thats pretty hard to stop doing after coping that way for years. I still do my MMA every Tuesday and Thursday so need to summon the energy for that tonight, other than that life is continuing it's monotonous dirge Oh I am now the proud keeper of two Dwarf Moray Eels, (Flotsam and Jetsam), great fish to get me out of bed. They are not diurnal or nocturnal like most marine fish so are very active during the day. Interesting to see two 2" eels begging for breakfast in the mornings. These two do keep me going at the minute (everyone else is scared of feeding them) as they require multiple feeds per day. I cannot afford to have a day where i do not get out of bed which is a pretty good motivator
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