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    Atra got a reaction from jkd_sd in binge eating   
    It began with a call to my mom, she had texted me that her best friend died. She's heartbroken, I got anxious and worried about her mood. 
    That's when I grabbed a bag of cheese-flavored popcorn and promptly ate half the bag. Then I craved something sweet and completely devoured a fruit scone. After that, I ate about 1/4 pint of hummus with a handful of sugar snap peas and several handfuls of pita chips. This lasted less than 1 hour and I felt sick, bloated and ashamed afterwards. 
    Binge harm-reduction for me means having on hand snacking foods which don't carry an extremely high sugar and fat payload and offer a little nutrition.
    After-care is noticing (but not indulging or encouraging) my abusive self-talk which follows a setback. 
    I feel a little better after writing this because I traced the chain of events back to an emotional situation, when I first began to feel out of control. And I'll I try to remember next time I can try two different skills to click-down my distress before stuffing carbs into my face. 
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    Atra got a reaction from duck in How do You Feel Right Now? #12   
    Congrats on your discovery! Learning something new about one's sexuality or preferences, romantic feelings or expressions of it is something joyful, i think. 
    Also, I admire your courage in coming out to family and your partner. 
     
    Today I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed  emotionally. This year has already got me anxious, sad, worried, agitated due to the violence and in addition some recent sad personal news for a couple of people very close to me. So, I'm trying to take on life day by day for now. 
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    Atra got a reaction from Epictetus in How do You Feel Right Now? #12   
    Congrats on your discovery! Learning something new about one's sexuality or preferences, romantic feelings or expressions of it is something joyful, i think. 
    Also, I admire your courage in coming out to family and your partner. 
     
    Today I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed  emotionally. This year has already got me anxious, sad, worried, agitated due to the violence and in addition some recent sad personal news for a couple of people very close to me. So, I'm trying to take on life day by day for now. 
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    Atra got a reaction from womanofthelight in How do You Feel Right Now? #12   
    Congrats on your discovery! Learning something new about one's sexuality or preferences, romantic feelings or expressions of it is something joyful, i think. 
    Also, I admire your courage in coming out to family and your partner. 
     
    Today I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed  emotionally. This year has already got me anxious, sad, worried, agitated due to the violence and in addition some recent sad personal news for a couple of people very close to me. So, I'm trying to take on life day by day for now. 
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    Atra got a reaction from JD4010 in How do You Feel Right Now? #12   
    Congrats on your discovery! Learning something new about one's sexuality or preferences, romantic feelings or expressions of it is something joyful, i think. 
    Also, I admire your courage in coming out to family and your partner. 
     
    Today I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed  emotionally. This year has already got me anxious, sad, worried, agitated due to the violence and in addition some recent sad personal news for a couple of people very close to me. So, I'm trying to take on life day by day for now. 
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    Atra got a reaction from sober4life in How do You Feel Right Now? #12   
    Congrats on your discovery! Learning something new about one's sexuality or preferences, romantic feelings or expressions of it is something joyful, i think. 
    Also, I admire your courage in coming out to family and your partner. 
     
    Today I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed  emotionally. This year has already got me anxious, sad, worried, agitated due to the violence and in addition some recent sad personal news for a couple of people very close to me. So, I'm trying to take on life day by day for now. 
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    Atra got a reaction from Nightjar in How do You Feel Right Now? #12   
    Congrats on your discovery! Learning something new about one's sexuality or preferences, romantic feelings or expressions of it is something joyful, i think. 
    Also, I admire your courage in coming out to family and your partner. 
     
    Today I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed  emotionally. This year has already got me anxious, sad, worried, agitated due to the violence and in addition some recent sad personal news for a couple of people very close to me. So, I'm trying to take on life day by day for now. 
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    Atra reacted to AllisonM in How do You Feel Right Now? #12   
    Great.Met up with my good friends Jackie and Michelle whom are also pre op trans women too.Finally thanked them for the advice and help they gave me during my transition meeting them 2 years ago.Also discovering something about me lately,bisexual like pre op trans women only.plans are to come out tomorrow to my family.Boyfriend accepts it and is supportive,came out to him last night
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    Atra reacted to JD4010 in How do You Feel Right Now? #12   
    Thanks for the nice reply. Yeah, they are "forcing" me to retire...which is a step above being fired at least. Part of it is because I've been here for so long (31 years) and the other part is because people in this office and the others I am frequently in contact with like me. That's what the HR person said. I am grateful for the option to retire but it's going to upend my life. I fear I'll be moving back in with my ex in the same house where I felt suicidal for so long.
    Great advice, remaining who you are! I'll hopefully be able to do that.
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    Atra reacted to Sepiraji in Existensial/Death OCD   
    Hello there!
    I am new here but this seems like a good spot to make a question. Last year i had my first panic attack that led to some health issues and was afterwards bundled with lockdown in my country due to coronavirus(Greek lockdown, one of the worst). That was when I also stopped smoking weed cold turkey( I was a smoker for almost 2 years) I was really afraid due to the panic attack which led me to believe I was dead and trapped inside the confines of my house in a purgatory/hell style torture. I started getting better in time by myself but was overwhelmed and decided to try a psychologist. Turns out I have OCD but in the form of Ruminations and Intrusive thoughts only, basically meaning I get an idea even the smallest and it grows and grows until it gets out of proportions and I couldn't handle it. There were times where I was afraid to go to sleep thinking that losing my conscience- i.e. Sleeping - would cause me to die, or I would close my eyes and an image would pop in my brain of my wrists cut and would get tingly in my  wrists and be afraid to be around knives.That led to a bit of derealization as I understood it. After the psychologists and several doctors appointments to prove to myself that I am okay (I had headaches, heart pinches, and other stuff like that)I got better but instead of being afraid of diseases i started questioning existence. Recently I found that what I sometimes feel is solipsism(The notion that reality is real to me only and every other thing is a projection of it). That mixed with a thought that everything is a simulation and/or that I would die any moment led me to believe in symbolic things. For example two of my favourite games are gonna be released on march 30 for the PC. Instead of hyping about that day it seems weird and I half expect to die/stop existing that day just because it seems like a "final" thing/gift or something. It's really exhausting and doesn't let me enjoy the improvement I had since last year
    When I have other stuff to do or am well rested physicaly and psychologicaly i don't get these ideas but small things like a word said on TV or even my discord that lags for 2 seconds but then continues from where it left like there was no cut in the sound at all(trying to search if it is a feature actually) reinforce those ideas.
    So my question is, do you guys have anything simillar or have any idea what might help with these kinds of things?
    Sorry in advance if my text seems like it's jumbled, i tried to include only the most important stuff and I don't know about the cohesion it has.
     
    Thank you in advance!
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    Atra got a reaction from sober4life in binge eating   
    When I binge eat (which I've been doing a lot more since Covid) it is a temporary way to numb uncomfortable or intolerable feelings I'm experiencing. Also, when I feel physically full it then masks that emptiness feeling, which is a symptom of my depressive disorder. 
    Binge eating is just the best way I know how to cope with feelings I don’t think I can tolerate. 
    What I'm working on to replace binging is teaching myself that whatever I'm feeling will pass in time, whether I binge or I don't. Sitting with those feelings is excruciatingly difficult, I'm slowly expanding my window of tolerance. Therapy and support groups are supporting my efforts. 
    Wishing for you the same success with avoiding binges as you're having with sobriety. 
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    Atra got a reaction from jkd_sd in binge eating   
    When I binge eat (which I've been doing a lot more since Covid) it is a temporary way to numb uncomfortable or intolerable feelings I'm experiencing. Also, when I feel physically full it then masks that emptiness feeling, which is a symptom of my depressive disorder. 
    Binge eating is just the best way I know how to cope with feelings I don’t think I can tolerate. 
    What I'm working on to replace binging is teaching myself that whatever I'm feeling will pass in time, whether I binge or I don't. Sitting with those feelings is excruciatingly difficult, I'm slowly expanding my window of tolerance. Therapy and support groups are supporting my efforts. 
    Wishing for you the same success with avoiding binges as you're having with sobriety. 
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    Atra got a reaction from JD4010 in binge eating   
    When I binge eat (which I've been doing a lot more since Covid) it is a temporary way to numb uncomfortable or intolerable feelings I'm experiencing. Also, when I feel physically full it then masks that emptiness feeling, which is a symptom of my depressive disorder. 
    Binge eating is just the best way I know how to cope with feelings I don’t think I can tolerate. 
    What I'm working on to replace binging is teaching myself that whatever I'm feeling will pass in time, whether I binge or I don't. Sitting with those feelings is excruciatingly difficult, I'm slowly expanding my window of tolerance. Therapy and support groups are supporting my efforts. 
    Wishing for you the same success with avoiding binges as you're having with sobriety. 
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    Atra reacted to Twahir in Intro & current situation   
    Hi everyone.
    I'm 27 and going through hell lately.  Wife cheated on me while i was completely oblivious to everything. Found out about this by 'mistake'
     
    I'm now living solo trying to cope with life. Have a sweet kid as well. He'll turn 2 this 26th march. It's been a month and a half since i last saw him. she's not allowing me near the child like i was at fault here..  Plus we're in lockdown currently so I'm pretty much going down day by day. 
     
    Hope this all can get better. I have no one to express my thoughts and seek help from. :')
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    Atra reacted to sober4life in Feeling unsafe vs feeling uncomfortable?   
    I think it's impossible for me to tell someone else if they would be unsafe or uncomfortable in a situation.  I've been through a lot in life and fully believe I can get out of just about any type of situation no matter how bad it is.  A lot of it is life experience and the rest is I just don't care what happens.
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    Atra reacted to Svenetc in Feeling unsafe vs feeling uncomfortable?   
    Interesting question ..... However I asked myself how I decide .... I guess it is a complex - yet simple answer for me. I go with my guts. Uncomfortable situations I try to avoid and encounter against my guts. Unsafe situations I sense and avoid completely. This can be anywhere in my daily life. work, traffic, people. I follow my inner guide and especially right now it kept me safe but curious. But I am always on high alert for anything. Not in a bad way, but to make sure I do not miss anything good or bad.
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    Atra reacted to DragonBallZ1995 in what kind of mood swings are these   
    i have depression and anxiety but thts not the deal i want to ask about how i deal with mood sings thing is i have intrest in a hobby or skill or challenge then i switch to other one after few minutes, hour or day what should i do
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    Atra reacted to Nightjar in What Did You Do Today? #3   
    Great news! 🎉👏😊
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    Atra reacted to In2deep4me in What Did You Do Today? #3   
    Me too! I didn't even feel the stick when the nurse did it. Quick and easy. Like you, and many others, arm got sore and the next day it tones down. I knew from previous experience that right after the shot I rubbed that area several times that night and put small ice pack on it several times. It helps with the reaction and swelling. Also taking a small weight and doing some simple arm curls to make the muscle work helps. So far no bad reaction or other symptoms. I was told to see how I feel after 1-2 days. Beyond that there should be no other effects.
    I got signed up for shot #2 while I as in the wait to go home area. So 3 weeks from now I get that.
    It is a funny kind of euphoric thing that you feel like your body is fighting off the evil!
     
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    Atra got a reaction from nojoy in Panic attacks   
    This sounds very similar to how I was taught to manage my GAD, I like how your T explained it. First of several steps was learning how to personify my anxiety--it ain't me, it is its own thing. Then a bunch of other steps. 
    I've had the same symptoms as you described, and still do but less frequently. Crucial was learning how to detect early warning signs, that allowed me to stop whatever I'm doing and take a time out to release the tension, stress, or fear.
    My early warning signs are never in my head (thoughts), they always show up in my body. So I been learning ways to listen to my body. 
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    Atra got a reaction from JD4010 in Ketamine infusion experiences   
    I can't link to my blog on this forum. You can read about my experience with Ketamine for depression treatments by visiting my profile, and where you see "Activity" change that to "Blogs".
     
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    Atra got a reaction from In2deep4me in What Did You Do Today? #3   
    I got my first Covid vaccine injection. My arm was sore shortly after and now, a day later, it hurts a lot less. Got a boost to my mood from the notion that there's an actual date on the 📅 when I could feel relief from the anxiety and stress of catching or transmitting the virus. 
    In aware that there's a ways to go yet before we know about how effective each vaccine is and there's novel mutations to worry about, but I'm gonna enjoy this I-feel-invincible mood at least for a day or two. 
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    Atra got a reaction from watalife in What Did You Do Today? #3   
    I got my first Covid vaccine injection. My arm was sore shortly after and now, a day later, it hurts a lot less. Got a boost to my mood from the notion that there's an actual date on the 📅 when I could feel relief from the anxiety and stress of catching or transmitting the virus. 
    In aware that there's a ways to go yet before we know about how effective each vaccine is and there's novel mutations to worry about, but I'm gonna enjoy this I-feel-invincible mood at least for a day or two. 
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    Atra got a reaction from Nightjar in How do You Feel Right Now? #12   
    I've been feeling irritable lately. I manage it well right up until something goes wrong, no matter how insignificant. 
    Today a bag of sliced bread paid a price for falling off my counter top, I swiftly kicked it clear across the room. My outburst surprised me. I was vaguely aware of my simmering irritation just not how much I'd been suppressing it.
    So now I'm a bread-kicker 🍞💥🦵which is not an identity, it's a club. I'm recently initiated but for all I know you all been kicking bread around your house for years. If you have, you can confide in me.
    Bread reminded me that I can't control gravity which in turn reminded me of all the other things I have no control over and that thinking irritates me. 
    Or maybe I can blame my annoyance on daylight savings time? 🤔
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    Atra got a reaction from sober4life in What Did You Do Today? #3   
    I got my first Covid vaccine injection. My arm was sore shortly after and now, a day later, it hurts a lot less. Got a boost to my mood from the notion that there's an actual date on the 📅 when I could feel relief from the anxiety and stress of catching or transmitting the virus. 
    In aware that there's a ways to go yet before we know about how effective each vaccine is and there's novel mutations to worry about, but I'm gonna enjoy this I-feel-invincible mood at least for a day or two. 
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