Hello @crewneck! So glad to see you reaching out 🙂
Im so sorry to hear this. I know how it feels, seeing everyone move on or go up higher in their position while you remain below.
While I’m doing much better now, some things that really helped was not being so hard on myself and putting my thoughts into other things and not keep them bottled in. Journaling has really helped with this, especially if you’re struggling with your thoughts and can’t seem to vent to someone or take them out on something.
Crafts really help keeping my mind busy. New hobbies and picking up on new skills might help keep those thoughts at bay.
As for future, I at least have a long term plan sorted out. Something I want to do, and I’ll reach there when I reach there. Remember you are still young and you have time left to find your career path or what you want to do.
Maybe start out with what you enjoy doing. Do you like crafts? Working with animals? Do you like dogs? Or do you have a history of assisting the elderly?
Id say start with that and see what appears most appealing/fitting to you, and something you’d still see yourself enjoying or at least not mind doing 5-10 years from now.
I really hope this helps. Please never hesitate to reach out or update us here in the forums 🙂