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  1. Weekend train trips...I might have to try this or something similar!
  2. Does anyone ever get really depressed on Sundays/Sunday nights? I haven't had a good one lately. I think it has to do with the fact that I must face yet another week again after a not-so-great one. Luckily I don't have work/classes tomorrow because it's labor day here in the U.S, but I still feel extremely empty and sad. I wish I didn't have to end my night like this 😕
  3. Thank you, you kind soul ❤️ it's good to be seen
  4. Water, got to stay hydrated in this heat!
  5. Hi, I've been on fluoxetine for over a year now, and I struggle with the same thing. It's actually a bit comforting to know that I'm not the only once who goes through this; I often feel guilty about it. Do you think that maybe the meds just don't do it for you? I had to adjust my dosage a couple of times and I'm now thinking about switching to something else. I'm hoping that if I run into something that really, really works, then I'll be more encouraged to take it often to feel more "alive" if that makes sense. I hope you find a way that helps!!
  6. One of the hardest things about being with my boyfriend is the fact that we both have depression. We are both aware of that, and so we try our best to be there for one another. In a way, it's easier because when one of us is having "one of those days," we get it. However, we recently hit a rock in our relationship. I "found out" something about him and he denies it, and tells me that, by continuing to talk about it, I'm bringing back some old demons that he tried to bury in the past. Our relationship is so important to me and I love him very much, so I just wanted him to address it more with me in order to reassure me that the situation was all a misunderstanding. However, I feel like he didn't make much effort and wanted to avoid conversations about it all together; he wouldn't even take the time to see me in person to talk about it when I asked him countless times. I understand if it's something that makes him uncomfortable to talk about, but not talking about it could paint him in a wrong way and leave me with some doubts about our relationship - which I do not want at all. Anyway, he began to ignore my messages since last Wednesday. Declined my calls (that one hurt). Basically, my own boyfriend ghosted me. I can't tell you guys how much it hurts; this is someone who I admire and love with all my heart, and I never would've thought he would do something like this. However, he texted me a couple of times since yesterday, but he never really apologized or acknowledged what he did to me. My girlfriends are telling me to ignore him until he's realized what he's done, and that he needs to put more effort in because I've done more than enough. I kind of agree with them, but I can't help but want to talk to him. I miss him; this isn't us at all. I just don't want to reach out and try my best to make things better only for him to ignore and hurt me again. Should I text him, or wait for a "proper" word from him? I'm just afraid that he'll just give up and the relationship will fall into pieces 😞
  7. Thank you for the kind words! Since I posted this, I've been doing much better. I'm looking into the counseling resources on campus to give me extra support as well. I have hope for myself now!! :)
  8. I don't know what to do guys. I used to be one of the smartest kids in high school. I graduated within the top 5% in my class. Now I'm in college and the energy isn't the same. My GPA is currently a 3.1, and with the scholarship I have, the minimum I'm supposed to keep is a 3.2. I'm trying to be positive but if I lose this scholarship I don't know what'll happen. I can't be a failure.
  9. I was doing pretty good for a week...I guess you could say that I was sort of happy for once. But it never lasts, and I had a rough night last night. I'm in school right now, and I'm trying to get work done in the library but I can't focus no matter how hard I try. I feel so empty inside. At least it's Friday.
  10. Hi! I used to struggle A LOT with this. One thing you can do is to have someone you're comfortable with sort of "practice" interviewing you. You can also look into typical interview questions so that you have a good idea on what to say beforehand. I know it's easier said than done, but job interviews aren't that bad - interviewers are generally kind and very patient. Use this as an opportunity to show off your best qualities and your worth! With a little practice and positivity, it'll be a breeze. Good luck and I hope everything works in your favor!
  11. It's Sunday night, and I'm usually quite depressed on Sunday nights. I interacted with a lot of people today, but I still felt invisible. I always feel lonely no matter who's around and I hate it. I honestly don't want to wake up and go to class and then work tomorrow, but I guess there's really no choice huh? Lately, I've been thinking about asking my Dr to up my dose for my medications cause it's just not the same anymore. I don't care if it doesn't let me sleep, I just don't want to feel like this anymore 😕
  12. I met someone amazing. We actually knew each other for quite a long time, but we never really got close until last spring. In the beginning, I only viewed him as a friend - I didn't want to get way too invested and develop feelings, as in the past I was quite sensitive to stuff like that and would often get hurt. Yet unfortunately, I fell for him...hard. I never had someone be so kind and caring to me as he was. He showed me a better side of life and made me want to become a better person. I've even become quite close with his family and other wonderful friends. Despite his flaws, I adored him dearly. I still do, but although I never directly expressed my feelings for him out of fear of ruining our friendship, it's obvious that he has feelings for someone else (he has talked to me about other girls). He tells me that he loves me, but I know he only does as a friend. Now, his kindness makes me so sad. I'm thinking about maybe distancing myself from him, but I don't want to hurt him because he enjoys having me around. He didn't do anything wrong, and I can't be angry with him for not feeling the same. Should I distance myself? I don't think I should tell him my feelings and risk ruining anything...
  13. Epictetus, I'm so sorry about that! Depression is so cruel, isn't it? I've been looking into therapy for some time as I'm on medication right now. I think I'm going to reach out to the campus counseling center at my school and see if they can offer some help. Thank you for your help!
  14. Ignore this, I haven't quite figured out how to delete replies lol.
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