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About DialAForAlan

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  • Birthday 12/15/1989

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    The Thinking Chair
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    Blue's Clues & You, Josh Dela Cruz, gaming, reading, writing fanfics and poetry, drawing, sleeping, fanboying, internet, and making photo edits.

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  1. I hate my brain so much right now. I'm already in the midst of a depressive episode and now I'm having an existential crisis on top of it. Great.
  2. I know getting out of a depressive spiral is a process but god...I'm so over it already. At this point, I'd settle for just one day where I don't feel like crying and my body doesn't feel so heavy.
  3. Conflicted. I'm not sure how to handle something and it's just eating at me,
  4. Even if I'm not the only autistic person who gets extremely territorial over their special interest(s), it's definitely become a ginormous problem in the last five years or so. I've honestly reported and/or blocked people in the past cause I'm so territorial over them; plus, I think I may have even scared a few people off in the past cause of it, online or otherwise. During this pandemic, I've had a lot of time for thinking cause, let's face it, there isn't much else to do, and I genuinely want to get better about it so that I don't end up with a restraining order or worse. How do I fix this? And how can I lessen the feelings of being threatened as I do?
  5. I'm so tired it's not funny. Honestly, I feel like I haven't slept in a month even though I have, and no matter how much sleep I get I still feel that way. ETA: At this point, I don't know what to do other than cry cause I'm just so exhausted all the time.
  6. ...so a friend got married and I'm not happy for her at all. Honestly, I keep thinking it should've been me despite not being into her that way at all. I...is that even a thing or am I just weird?
  7. Better than I have for the past two weeks, but I'm not holding my breath cause the last time I said that it got worse.
  8. Truthfully? Like absolute shit. This is the worst bout of depression I've had in a long, long time and I can't seem to escape from its grasp. 2020 is breaking me and I'm losing the fight no matter what I do. I don't want to die, but like...everything hurts and I don't know how to fix it.
  9. DialAForAlan


    Do you hear my broken soul Crying out to yours? Will you listen to my heart And feel it beat for you? Without your love and guidance, I would disappear like mist Or unwanted smudges on a page. For you calm the endless storms That rage inside my mind.
  10. I'm conflicted. All of the things I can think of writing right now are sad and/or dark in some way but I'd feel bad putting my readers through that so...idk what I'm going to do.
  11. I don't know how I feel. Sad? Lost? Alone? All of the above? Thanksgiving and Christmas are both coming up and it'll be the first holiday season without my grandpa.
  12. I know I should get out of bed but I really don't see the point.
  13. I'm...well, I've been better. I was fine until last night and then I broke. Whatever resolve I had shattered like glass and now I can't stop crying. And when I do stop, I end up in that weird limbo between feeling numb and crying like my life depends on it.
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