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BBNo1

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  1. Hello, long time since I came here. I have to share this but I am so scared someone is gonna see my post and recognizes me. I met my CO a couple of weeks ago (I already met him some years ago). I spent a lot of money (in my terms) to see him. Book a flight, hotel, and so on. He knew who I am... he recognized me. I have never been so excited in my life, I literally had the feeling my heart is going to jump out my chest. We had a couple of minutes to talk. He is just the sweetest person. I love his eyes so much, I kept on staring. i love his nose and mouth also..We were standing very close, I know it sounds pathetic but I tried to find out if he has a bad breath...nothing! It seems like he is the imperfection of being perfect (even if he is not perfect, to me he is)! I got a couple of photos with him, I wish I could share them with you.. show you how happy I look, show you how adorable he is. I also feel very guilty towards my husband. But I swear I can not help it. I am so much in love. I suffer since the moment I saw him the first time but I can‘t and won‘t let him go. To be clear, I love my husband but I also love my CO.. Maybe someone can send me a private message? I wish I could tell all of it...
  2. First of all, welcome sweetrubyroo! Glad you found us, your secrets are safe here. I wish I could give you any advice but I do not have any solution for this. I am married with 1 child and still suffer the way you do. Do you really want to get him out of your mind completely or do you want to lose your obsessive behavior?
  3. Hello and welcome! Feel free to share anything you want, the girls (are there also boys...?? )on here will not judge you! I was just daydreaming aswell, I am caught in my thoughts every day. I love it and I hate it at the same time!
  4. Not over it... But nothing new to tell. Well nothing new I am ready to share personally. Actually there is some news but I can not share it. I am scared it will expose me...lets just say I got a personal gift from my CO 2 weeks ago..! How was it to meet him? I met mine 3 years ago.
  5. I am sorry to hear you feel terrible again starbucksjunkee..! I can relate to that. Since my CO‘s new series got launchedI feel even worse. I felt bad bofore, searching for him on the net for hours every day. But now I just want to jump out of a ****ing high building (I am not gonna do it off course but I feel so damn hopeless) I know he knows me, it comforts me a little actually. When I met him I said my name and he was like „oh is this you? How are you girl?“ Anyway I am drifting away in my thoughts again.. I hope you feel better soon starbucksjunkee! You are not alone
  6. I wish I could do that too! But I am not ready yet! I was just thinking of him again. I am very unhappy with my life and I can not get out of this so I think about him all the time
  7. Very sorry to hear you feel bad! I really hope you have the strength and the willpower to stop this!
  8. For me I can say, I do not care about the celeb lifestyle. It has nothing to do with that. I do not even see a ‚celeb‘ when I see him. I know he is just a man, very down to earth and humble. Working hard to provide for his kids and...his wife of course. I also do not care how many cars he has. It‘s just not about lifestyle, it‘s about him. That knucklehead who fought hard to get where he is now. That loving father. That loyal friend. That animal lover. I could go on for hours of course...
  9. I tried to hide myself because I felt so bad. Did not have the energy to come here and write about him. But he was in my mind every second of the day. I am exhausted. Tired of myself and the situation. I had days I almost could not bare it anymore. Weird thoughts are crossing my mind every now and then. It scares me..
  10. So I am watching this series again... He is kissing a woman, I wish I could be her. I started to cry, I know it‘s pathetic. I just need him so bad
  11. Would like to know too. He makes me feel hopeless and lonely most of the time.
  12. You are not a freak! I think you are strong because you blocked them. I could never do that... He follows me in twitter and retweets or likes my tweets every now and then. I love the feeling, I get excited and feel like nothing can stop me
  13. I know it‘s stupid to react the way I do.. I have a couple of online friends too who love him. Or maybe they just like him a lot. Idk. This one girl loves him too, but it‘s fine with me because she seems like she is the only one who gets me.
  14. I see. I can relate with you. Sometimes I wish this of ours would have never recommendet this one show. I was curious and started to watch it. It was a big mistake. On the other hand I do NOT want to miss one second looking at him. By the way, I like Josh and his show too
  15. Josh... my CO had a small role in HIMYM a couple of years ago... You managed to avoid Josh until 1 month ago? How did you do that?
  16. Sounds like an intense story! Meeting celebs has becom easy.. I do not know if that‘s a good thing. All the conventions... even on a cruiseship where you are with them for days! The first feeling I got when you said you want to see him at the event was: omg I hope she does not mean my CO... This is sick right? But my heart stopped for a second.
  17. I want to and I do not want to... It‘s difficult, I am married and have a kid. I should fight my obsession but.....
  18. You know, it‘s like I do no see he is a celeb. Of course I know but I do not like it. He got way more popular in the last year. I hate it. I really hate it. Because of it he is busy all the time. He gets so many tweets. I am always scared he is gonna forget me. I do that too btw. Watching movies and series again and again and again... I started reading fanfiction aswell. I know its bad for me cause I get caught deeper in my feelings. But I need it so much. i wish I could post pics of him here right now! But I am to embarrased. Lol
  19. I am so happy I found this forum. First of all, sorry for my poor English! Tonight... I could not stand it anymore. I googled celeb obsession and found you. People who feel like me. It started in 2011. I have to say I struggle with dystymia as long as I can think and I always had a crush on someone. But it was just a crush. This thing is different, a whole new level. The very first time I saw him sitting in that car in this series...it hit me. I felt it right away! He is not a Brad Pitt kind of guy, not at all, but his smile, his eyes, his voice, the way he moves, eats...just everything. I felt butterflies. Wow this felt good and confusing at the same time... I kept watching, the series was good tho. He got killed off, I started looking into his acting career. I wanted to watch more stuff of him and begged my husband to get me movies. His response „ you like that cocky a******?“ But he got me things to watch anyway. One day I searched for him on twitter. I did not do twitter until this point tho. Found him! Official twitter of...... I messaged him. 30 minutes later...my heart stopped... he replied..just like that. Again a couple of minutes later I get a notification...... is following you on twitter. I freak out. Till this day he likes my tweets every now and then. He retweets me every now and then. I even met him one time. No need to tell you how that felt! I even facebook called one time because I „know“ a friend of his and he was so crazy to ask me if I wanted to say hi to him. Of course I ****ing wanted! All I said was „oh my god I I love you“ he responded „I love you too sweetheart“ .... oh wow! Just wow! Of course I know he does not love me. He has a family of his own. But I am so obsessed. I feel sick about it. I can not sleep. I am weak. And the worst thing: I do not want to give up on that love. It fullfills me but destroys me at the same time. But it‘s in my head. It‘s in my heart. Every day. Every minute. Thanks for reading. I hope all of you who struggle this can get on and leave this behind. I am not ready...yet
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