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    Jumping got a reaction from Depressedgurl007 in I hate myself   
    To me these negative voices, feelings are like drugs. Especially to depressed people. You know they are bad for you and want to stay away from them. But one little wrong step made, you are engulfed by them and back to full addiction. 
    It takes lots of dedication and commitment to keep yourself “sober.”
    It May never go away and unconscious craving will be there. The trick is to stay alert and keeping yourself from relapsing. 
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    Jumping got a reaction from Depressedgurl007 in Be wrong. Be foolish. Make mistakes.   
    And don’t forget, we do a lot of goods and right too. 🙂 
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    Jumping reacted to Soarsie18 in Just a little pick me up   
    Me too !! my therapist told me to make a list every day when I wake up. Since then i’ve become so much more content in myself. It’s such a good feeling being able to appreciate the little things.
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    Jumping got a reaction from Soarsie18 in Just a little pick me up   
    I’ve been doing this exercise daily for a couple of weeks. I’d take 5 minutes to either write them down or do it in my head. 
    Along with forgiveness practice, it’s been pretty effective so far. 
     
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    Jumping got a reaction from Jamark8 in My Ginko Biloba Experiment   
    I think my experience was similar. It didn’t do much but got me more irritated. That’s why I decided to leave it on the shelf. 
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    Jumping got a reaction from Jamark8 in A Big Sleep; Universe Enlightens me; Siddhartha; Books; Dreams and Memory   
    I read Siddhartha when I was in high school and it was my favorite book of all then. I somewhat modeled how I live my life based on that book. 
    Tell us how ginkgo Biloba goes. I’ve tried it before but I didn’t notice much difference. 
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    Jumping got a reaction from Floor2017 in CROSSING OVER TO THE OTHER SIDE   
    Thank you.
    I think this had been my challenge all my life. I know storms are a part of the process whatever my destination is and I know for sure I can get to the place I desire as I keep going but whenever storm comes I tend to freak out and go 🦇 poop crazy. 
    Ever since I started getting more into reading bibles, it’s been a bit easier to manage my temper. Something seems to stop me before I lose my sanity and become a 🦍 and start smashing things. 
    Its still work in progress, and I hope I continue to stay on the path and make further progress. 
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    Jumping got a reaction from allalone6 in lost   
    @lonelyforeginer and @allalone6 
    I've read a couple of posts and blogs of you guys and I can relate to some of your stories especially when it comes to being lonely. I became more lonely around this year when most of people in my life drifted off and I became more isolated. I mean I guess it still helps since I have a child but when he's not around, I don't have anyone to talk to. I feel like I've became an invisible ghost over the years. So if you guys don't mind, feel free to message me. Just to chat. Talk about daily stuff or whatever. Thank you. 
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    Jumping got a reaction from JD4010 in lost   
    @lonelyforeginer and @allalone6 
    I've read a couple of posts and blogs of you guys and I can relate to some of your stories especially when it comes to being lonely. I became more lonely around this year when most of people in my life drifted off and I became more isolated. I mean I guess it still helps since I have a child but when he's not around, I don't have anyone to talk to. I feel like I've became an invisible ghost over the years. So if you guys don't mind, feel free to message me. Just to chat. Talk about daily stuff or whatever. Thank you. 
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    Jumping got a reaction from 20YearsandCounting in How Am I Doing This?   
    Feels like several others including myself had been struggling last night. I also had similar question yesterday. How did I even manage to make it through this far and keep going? It seems a total insanity at times. Sometimes it doesn’t even seem like it was really me but some other entity and I was just observing that was going through this craziness. 
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    Jumping got a reaction from Jamark8 in Dreading Blood Test; Ghosts; Mikael; Zombies; Scared Lonely; Orders; Niece and Nephew; Being Sick   
    I know I’m repeating myself but several others seemed to have been going through tough times last night. I posted a several blogs because I was ridden with a lot of anxiety last night as well but I’ve taken them down just because of fear that if I keep getting on the negative wagon maybe I’ll fall deeper. 
    I myself is dealing with some issues and it’s been very tough for me and I’m hoping that things will turn out for the better and will give me some sense of relief and peace. I woke up several times last night and couldn’t feel at ease. Felt like some dark spirit was hovering over me through out.
    i hope all goes well for you and others in this forum that’s struggling at the moment and give you a little bit of peace and relief. If the result doesn’t turn out as well as we hoped for, I hope we are granted a bit of peace and strength to deal with it. 
    God bless you.
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    Jumping got a reaction from Jamark8 in A Struggle; Depression   
    When I was buying them I wouldn’t buy flowers but either edibles(gummies) or oils(vape) because they are more convenient for me. I didn’t want myself or my place to reek like marijuana. Plus oil concentrates you only need a hit or two to get high and doesn’t reek as much. With a vape cartridge and 2 grams of oil usually cost me around 100 and would last me pretty long time and they’ll add some extra bonuses(edibles or a joint) if I purchase around 100 at the dispensary that I used to go.
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    Jumping got a reaction from MollieMcdoodlesMom in Dreading Blood Test; Ghosts; Mikael; Zombies; Scared Lonely; Orders; Niece and Nephew; Being Sick   
    I know I’m repeating myself but several others seemed to have been going through tough times last night. I posted a several blogs because I was ridden with a lot of anxiety last night as well but I’ve taken them down just because of fear that if I keep getting on the negative wagon maybe I’ll fall deeper. 
    I myself is dealing with some issues and it’s been very tough for me and I’m hoping that things will turn out for the better and will give me some sense of relief and peace. I woke up several times last night and couldn’t feel at ease. Felt like some dark spirit was hovering over me through out.
    i hope all goes well for you and others in this forum that’s struggling at the moment and give you a little bit of peace and relief. If the result doesn’t turn out as well as we hoped for, I hope we are granted a bit of peace and strength to deal with it. 
    God bless you.
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    Jumping got a reaction from Jamark8 in A Struggle; Depression   
    Also I think I enjoyed it more when I was in middle school and high school because it was illegal and being a kid just doing bad things seemed more exciting. Once it’s legalized and you became a grown up, i sort of lost interest. So I was just medicating myself mainly for my anger issue for awhile, but it really bothered me that I was getting lazy. 
    And ever since I started reading more gospels, I don’t even crave it when I get so stressed. And it’s only been about 3 weeks into reading gospels and being sober( no weed and no caffeine), despite of heavy stressors, I haven’t yet to explode in anger. So I’m pretty content with how things been going so far. 
    Also I just googled and it says in Kentucky CBD is legal as long as it has less than 0.3 percentage of THC. 
    I believe isolates have 0 percent of THC, if I’m not mistaken. 
    I’ve heard good things about green mountain CBD (they have a website), not sure if they send it to Kentucky as well but that’s where I have purchased before. 
     
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    Jumping got a reaction from Jamark8 in A Struggle; Depression   
    It may change soon I believe. Here in California it’s like going to a liquor store and buying a beer. It has helped a lot of people. Personally, I like that it eliminates my anxiety and anger and I enjoy music, movies and food more. But I just get too unproductive and I still prefer being productive and having more clarity. 
    But how marijuana is being legalized more and more, other states may adopt in soon as well.
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    Jumping got a reaction from Jamark8 in A Struggle; Depression   
    I was never a chronic smoker besides in high school days I was smoking a lot. After that maybe here and there when I got really stressed out. But the last time I was extremely stressed i tried one and I was really grossed out I just took a few drag and threw it away. 
    For me, even when I used to enjoy it what prevented me to keep going was cardio. I hated that how it affected my cardio when I am exercising. I was gasping for air more when I tried to run or do any type of cardio when I started smoking again.
    but then I see some dudes that can run like a gazelle right after smoking a cigarette and finish off another cigarette during the cool down after the run lol. I just couldn’t fathom how these guys do that. 
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    Jumping reacted to Ratvan in A Struggle; Depression   
    I'm currently trying out 300MG Cannibidol in my Vape pen, not sure with the isolates.
    Using it when I feel jittery or can feel my usual anxiety levels starting to rise. It mellows me out without any of the side effects of smoking weed. I don't get the munchies (never really do tbh), no paranoia, no hiding (best part for me) and I don't want a cigarette which is the main thing for me, i hated smelling like a smoker
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    Jumping got a reaction from Ratvan in A Struggle; Depression   
    I was never a chronic smoker besides in high school days I was smoking a lot. After that maybe here and there when I got really stressed out. But the last time I was extremely stressed i tried one and I was really grossed out I just took a few drag and threw it away. 
    For me, even when I used to enjoy it what prevented me to keep going was cardio. I hated that how it affected my cardio when I am exercising. I was gasping for air more when I tried to run or do any type of cardio when I started smoking again.
    but then I see some dudes that can run like a gazelle right after smoking a cigarette and finish off another cigarette during the cool down after the run lol. I just couldn’t fathom how these guys do that. 
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    Jumping got a reaction from JD4010 in Society doesn't want me to **** myself. But society keeps giving me reasons why I should.   
    I had a similar question that ran through my mind yesterday. Seems like a several people were struggling last night. I posted a bunch of blogs which I took them down because I was ridden with anxiety, doubts, and hopelessness. I was toying with the idea of how true and free I’d feel if I can just let go and end everything. And I still can’t find what is so worthy about continuing to live on when I haven’t found a big spark that’ll make me feel shined and excited like it used to. But something still stops me and tells me to live on. Maybe it’s just my delusion. Or maybe I do have an important reason to continue on. I don’t know. I just hope you’ll feel a little better today. I myself is facing some tough issues at the moment.
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    Jumping got a reaction from JD4010 in How Am I Doing This?   
    Feels like several others including myself had been struggling last night. I also had similar question yesterday. How did I even manage to make it through this far and keep going? It seems a total insanity at times. Sometimes it doesn’t even seem like it was really me but some other entity and I was just observing that was going through this craziness. 
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    Jumping got a reaction from Floor2017 in How Am I Doing This?   
    Feels like several others including myself had been struggling last night. I also had similar question yesterday. How did I even manage to make it through this far and keep going? It seems a total insanity at times. Sometimes it doesn’t even seem like it was really me but some other entity and I was just observing that was going through this craziness. 
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    Jumping reacted to Jamark8 in Leaving a comment on my blog, Christmas, Flamingos, Signs from the Universe   
    OH I'm so sorry for the delay in response. I was taking a little break away from the computer.

    The Spirit Life Coach (I just call him that because to me, that's what he is) I was talking about, his name is Ralph Smart, user Infinite Waters on YouTube. I have my YT on my xbox so I watch him on the t.v.

    Some of the others I watch are: Jake Ducey, Victor Oddo, Tony Robbins, and of course Wayne Dyer (he's passed on though). Aaron Doughty is another.

    For the Law Of Attraction, I watch "Awesome AJ", Dauchsy for meditation, and Eckhart Tolle is good as well. If you haven't seen Hans Wilhelm, it's awesome!

     
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    Jumping got a reaction from Jamark8 in Leaving a comment on my blog, Christmas, Flamingos, Signs from the Universe   
    If you don’t mind me asking, what is what is the spirit life coach that you mentioned? I think I saw you mention in it before too. 
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    Jumping reacted to RiverLight in Guidance from the Universe   
    that"s exactly how it all happened for me. Pm me if you like. I'd love to talk about it. 
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    Jumping reacted to Jamark8 in Guidance from the Universe   
    Cool! Yeah I have the Secret books and have only read a little of them, but I've watched the film on it and other things like 3 Magic Words.

    I'm discovering LOA now. I had heard of it years ago but never got into it until things started falling into place and it was like I was being guided by something outside of myself.

    How interesting! You're getting into Christianity, that's good! I'm actually leaving it.. too many things didn't seem right and I just don't think it's what I need in my life. But I am happy you are getting into it - there are GREAT life lessons in the Bible, especially the New Testament. I actually believe Jesus was a real person. I just think He was talking about more Spiritual things than physical, like 99% of Christians seem to take it nowadays. Jesus said His kingdom was not of this world. And that the Kingdom is within (you). He was a Great Teacher, and there's still a place in my heart for Him. I just personally don't … believe like I used to, about Christianity. I sincerely wish I did.

    I also believe that Jesus' second coming will be Christ Consciousness, not a literal coming where He, being flesh and bone, falls out of the sky. Not to make fun, but I just seriously think what Jesus was referring to, even His disciples didn't understand Him well enough to write what they did, supposedly.

    I could talk about this forever. I've read the New Testament 2-3 times, and read bits and pieces of the OT. I've studied a LOT about it. I'm by far no expert, but I'm no dumb bunny either. 🙂

    JJay, I hope you find Christianity to be what you were hoping to find. If you ever want to talk about it, just message me or we can talk on here. I would enjoy that. 🙂 
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