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  1. sad in grand Rapids

    Health anxiety out of control

    i took a vistaril my doc prescribed me it but i have been afraid to take it. i was worried about taking it with muscle relaxer i was given. the muscle relaxer didn't work at all. the visteral is helping a little. a lot of my problems with anxiety is fear of a panic attack where i can't catch my breath and everything else that occurs. I am always checking my pulse and blood pressure. i just can't keep myself from checking it all i can think of at times. im seeing a therapist but only two times so far. i feel so out of control. the visteral is helping but i was afraid to take it and still am. I'm afraid to take any new pills. david
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    Health anxiety out of control

    okay I'm so miserable im worrying about everything. i went to urgent care because of pain and i was obsessed that i was having neuro malgment syndrome , from seroquel . i was also in terrible pain back and neck. now I'm terrified that the shot is causing me a heart attack because my upper arms have burning sensation on the surface. every sensation is always a sign and it bad. I'm terrified. david
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    everything hurts bad

    thanks for the information and will call doctors office monday. the eye movements hurt a lot. my eyes roll up in my head and its getting worse every day y. i also have terrible neck and back pain. this is really adding to my depression. I get muscle spasms and feel jittery after taking my dose of serquell. I'm at work and working is aposolte torture because of all the pain I'm in. i was told by back doctor he doesn't want to give pain meds because of interaction risks so all i can take is muscle relaxers and nsaieds which don't work. i in so much pain i and Monday seems like so far away. i already went to urgent care two days agoto get a shot for pain but that only lasts 8 hours. david
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    everything hurts bad

    yes I'm on seroquel 800 mg daily,depakote1500 mg daily,zoloft,blood pressure meds, beta blockers. i have been on seroquel for years but had it increased from 600 to 800. my provider said that seroquel was the least likely to cause these things. eI'm going to call her on monday and say the involentaty movements are getting worse. im rolling my eyes like a Seizure. also i quit since i quit marijuan my pain and uncontrolled movements have gotten worse. i think cannabis might have been controlling it. david
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    anxious over med side effects.

    today I'm on my third straight day without valium and im feel super anxious this is the longest ive gone without it. i was only taking 2.5 mg every other day then had had panic attack and took whole pill which set me back. i want to take a pill because i feel really bad. i must be super sensitive to the withdrawal. i feel more hopeful about back and neck pain as doc said he will do mri if physical therapy doesn't help. I'm in so much pain i can't work on anything as i can't focus. at least I'm helping myself. work is hard because it really aggravates my pain as it s very physical. i dont know how much longer i can keep working. going back to work has made my pain much worse. cannabis and t beer helps but is bad idea. to be honest i have lost my lust for intoxication which i a good thing. i enjoy being sober more. i do still have the odd drink and smoke but its a rare occurance these days for me. i can truly take it or leave it and that's a maricle. actually i just don't like it anymore sure have a stiff one and a fee puffs feels good but when it wears off i feel terrible so i just don't want to do it anymore. david
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    anxious over med side effects.

    your right and i am totally powerless over my emotions and my life is unmanagble. i been attending emotions anonymous. i need to start working the program. i know i need a higher power. im so scared. david
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    anxious over med side effects.

    okay im Really Anxious over meds side effects. any time i take a new med i get obsessed over my bodily sensations. i went to urgent care to get a shot to help with neck pain as lm in real pain. i left and blood pressure was low 100 over 70 and now i obsessed. i feel weird tired but it goning to make me tired they asked me id i was driving So of course it's going to make you tired. I think I imagine side effects and then I get them I think it's going to raise my heart rate and so of course it does. I'm so tired of this crap. of the pain and mental illness. anxiety is the worse because it makes me afriad im going to you know what. I don't even want to say it because I'm paranoid if I say it will happen. Just want to get better But it's not happening. My psychologist gave me progressive relaxation exercises to do and I'm going to do them. The worst thing is being scared Constantly. The shot help a lot with my pain. The problem is I'm afraid to take medicine that will help my pain because it could be dangerous. I'm afraid to take my muscle relax er's. I am even afraid to take my Anti-depressants which I take over day. I worry about side effects constantly. In addition because of all this my Room is a disaster area looks like a trash can. I'm tired of living in filth. My Room looks like the inside of my mind. david
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    everything hurts bad

    well i asked my docs nurse if i can take a muscle relaxers. I'm worried about drug interaction. i do start physical therapy on monday. i get the the back pain doc wants do the therapy one more time before he trys injections or other means of pain relief. it just so hard to wait. i can't take any meds other an ibprofin or naproxen and they don't work. work just makes it worse i have no help at work and have to do the hard work my self. I'm not good at speaking up and let other workers lasiness slid without saying anything. david
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    everything hurts bad

    my head hurts, neck,back l,face. my face twitches and rolling my eyes. Im going to be seeing a neurologist. I'm worried what's wrong with me. I'm in agony and i have to go to work in terrible pain. I'm not going get any relief for a while. also anxiety is really bad as well. I still having trouble getting off valium. i was doing well every other day 2.5 mg then had panic attack and took whole pill and had to start tapper all over again as my heart started to race. so I'm back to original tapper dose. if i feel anxious i can't stop my self from taking a valium. i can't take this anymore. david
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    frustrated with back pain

    well i talked to his nurse and she said they treat on area at a time because the neck could be causing the back pain, but that the physical therapist will evaluate my neck and back to see if they need to addreses both at same time. that makes me feel a little better. I've been to chiro and it doesn't help. in fact it made it worse. i haven't tried accuputure but isn't covered by insurance. i would like to try message but its to expensive since insurance won't cover it. david d
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    frustrated with back pain

    i had app today with back and neck doc and he wants to try physical therpay again . also sending me to nero doc because of muscle ticks. he said the ticks may be causing head aches and wants me evaluated by a neuro doc. he didn't deal with back and won't start therapy on back until i complete neck pt. I'm in so much pain i can't wait a month. i called ey his nurse for clariication. i thought i would get answers not lets do more pt. i also can't take muscle relaxers because of the meds im on. david
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    panic attacks at night

    i have been getting increased anxiety at night. i feel fine in the day but at night i feel really anxious and have palpalptions. it keeps me from sleeping. david
  13. sad in grand Rapids

    having cat scan monday

    its probably related to my neck. the doc also ordered a blood test for inflammation. I'm also in a lot of pain in neck and from degeneration in my spine. I'm going skiing tomorrow that's a distraction. my mind loves to obsess. i googled my symptoms and actually i found out headaches aren't usually signs of serious illness. i am still worried though. at least I'm getting it checked out. it could be migraines. i need to stay distracted. the pain makes me worry more. david
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    having cat scan monday

    i have been having head aches eye pain and my doctor had me schedule a cat scan. I'm having it done monday at 7.45 am. I'm obsessing and worrying i have a brain tumor or something else really serious. i do have a bad neck and my head hurts when i touch the out side of it so it could be caused my spasms. my eye though its hurts inside I'm so worried about this. david
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    feel terrible physically

    well i was hopeful that the tapering off valium wouldn't be to bad i was wrong. right now my skin feels like its burning .so now I'm worried about catching fire . i feel all sorts of irrational fears. i feel so hot. i wish i never started it. my anxiety is through the roof. david
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