JustAnotherSufferer

Thanks for your comment, I appreciate it a lot. I wouldn’t like to give up with my life now, I know how it feels to loose a loved one and I know that he/she and my family wouldn’t like to see that.

Welcome, I hope you feel at home here.

If only I could be a bit more grateful. I’m never grateful or thankful. Nothing makes me feel proud of myself.

I can’t remove this god damn post. Well, this one is inactive, go to the other one.

I hate to live like this. I feel so alone. I have been all alone for four god damn years of my life without no one who can help. I’m stuck with the feelings of suicide, anger and loneliness every god damn day. I hate the panic attacks I get when I least suspect them like now, I wish I could scream, but I can’t. People around me probably think I’m some kind of lunatic, someone gave me the worst kind of look at me, if only he would understand what a I was going through. I’m just putting words on a screen, I’m loss for words, god damn it. Well, you have read my rant. I’m sick of the life I have been given. I can’t say anything more than this, my head is completely fried. thanks for reading, It means a lot!

I felt the same way at the first place we stayed at (an apartment) and then suddenly felt st home there. Then we went to a hotel and I suddenly felt discomfort again. I’m going back to the apartment tommorow and will stay there for a week until I get back home.

Thanks for your comment! i’m feeling A bit better now. I have been getting used to this place. It took a while though, I just want to get back to the other place though, I felt safe there, at home. I don’t know why though.

Thank you for your kindness!

I’m feeling so depressed. So lonely and anxious. So many feelings yet I still feel so emotionless. It’s a scary feeling, a mix of numbness and anxiety. I’m trying to listen to music to get my mind on something else, I’m listening to Jefferson Airplane, I do not usually listen to them, their music is very atmospheric though, just what I need. I wish you all a nice day. I have to go to sleep now. Goodnight!

Nothing seems to taste well in my mouth anymore. It’s like my tastebuds have become numb. I’m sorry you feel the same way. I got so bored from all the things I used to enjoy. I used to drink lots of sodas, the last time I drank a soda was a year ago except for a few rare occasions.

I don’t take any meds.

I have. She doesn’t have much else to say.

I used to love food, it was the highlight of the day. Now it’s just another boring objective. I have been extremely anxious lately which makes me eat way too fast and makes it hard for me to eat without drinking lots of water. My depression makes me unable to enjoy the food. It doesn’t matter what I eat, I’m always disappointed. I can’t even enjoy Pizza anymore, doesn’t matter if it’s fast food pizza or “authentic Italian” pizza. It all tastes so bland in my mouth anyway. Thanks for reading. Good luck to you all!

Same here! I haven’t been able to enjoy my 4 Christmases and Birthdays. Nothing has been enjoyable since 2014. I can’t even enjoy pizza for God’s sake. Swing people have fun doesn’t help.

I will, thank you for your comment!