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Logan Sims

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About Logan Sims

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  • Birthday 02/05/2003

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    I don't belong anywhere.
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    Video games and hopefully surviving long enough to beat my emotional disease.

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  1. Today was my second day. I'm just worried this will be yet another place where I don't fit in and social interaction will suck. And I can throw getting a girlfriend out the window too while I'm at it.
  2. It's been a mixed bag. The teachers seem nice, but I'm a loser and don't have friends to sit with at lunch. I almost cried in geometry today because we filled out intro sheets and the teacher said not to leave any boxes blank. There was a box that said new friends I made and a box that said things i learnt about my new friends. I sadly had to write that I hadn't really made any friends yet. I've tried to open up, but most people just seem to ignore me. Just like my last school. I look at people and give them a friendly smile, but I don't get the same thing back...
  3. That's not nearly as easy as you think. I'll try. But I doubt it will help. Because I tried last year and failed. And everyone hated me. I know I'm going to off myself eventually. It will most likely be this year if it doesn't go well. Don't give me the hotline number. I'll never use it again. I used it once and it didn't really help. It just made me feel embarrassed like I was wasting that person's time. So this might be the year that my depression takes me.
  4. Well.. I have school tomorrow. Talked to a girl online for a couple days. got my hopes up. then i got dumped. (shocker). I'm too big of a loser to get and keep a girl. they realize in no time that im a waste of space and a piece of shit. i honestly wonder why i even try anymore. im fighting a losing battle ive always fought a losing battle and im tired of it. if im going to lose i should just forfeit and give up already. just end it all so its over and done with. nobody needs me or wants me. i get to start at a new school where nobody knows me and even more people can know me as the depressed nutcase who is also a single loser. i just give up. im so freaking done with being on my own no matter what. tired of being a nobody. tired of not being important to anybody in my life.
  5. Just really worried that this school will be more of the same. I already hate myself and who my father is because he passed his mental problems onto me. So my mind just tears my emotions to shred. Something as simple as a love song to remind me that I'm single has me looking down at the floor in shame. My brain can connect things easily so I can be thinking about something that isn't even related to my woes and my mind goes out of it's way just to connect my woes with something that should be all good and well. My brain can basically just turn my world into hell on earth at any given moment and then people around me wonder why I'm so sad and depressing all the time. Everyday I wonder if I shouldn't just put myself out of my misery. I probably shouldn't have kids because I would be putting them through the same hell my Dad is putting me through thanks to his mental issues that he passed onto me. So I would just pass it onto them. That hurts. A part of me feels like less and less people want to live on Earth everyday though. Our world is either getting worse or the planet as a whole is just getting more and more depressed. Probably both. Either way most days I want to die. Most people I meet don't really seem to want an actual relationship with me. Finding a girlfriend is pretty much out of the question. Any girl can tell just by a glance that I'm far from an ideal guy to date and that I'll just cause everybody grief. That conclusion isn't too far off.
  6. Thank you for your words. I can wholeheartedly say that I don't find comfort in the hopelessness. If I did I think I would know at least. I'm going to be in a computer networking class this year where I might excel.
  7. I won't find a reason to keep going. Life has sucked for almost 8 years. First my grandpa died, then since I started middleschool I haven't been able to make and keep friends or girlfriends. I just want to give up. Nothing I do seems to matter. I just suck since most people want nothing to do with me.
  8. Really struggling right now. Going to a new school starting August 14th where I'm already sure that nobody there will like me. Worried no girl will ever like me. Worried I'm going to be alone forever. Tired of being told that I'm only 16 and that I have my whole life. Being told that doesn't purge the loneliness from my heart. It doesn't remove all the pain that has piled up throughout my entire life. I'm not ready for another awful school year. But I don't have a choice. Two more years of this and then I can work until I die. Really wondering why I even try to live anymore. It doesn't get any easier. Girl's don't like me and I don't really have a solid friend group. My family isn't a good place to find solace either. It's all bad these days. I feel like if I at least had a girlfriend I could be happy at least a little bit. That might begin to makeup for all the years of bad my parents have brought upon me. But I'm not attractive and I'm not always funny. So girls really have no reason to like me. So I might as well go shoot myself because I'm not really needed or wanted and I don't want to go to a new school with new people who will all probably hate me just like the people at my last school. I'm so done. I feel like crying but the tears won't come anymore. I think I'm going to give up soon. I'm sick of feeling like nobody gives a damn about me. I'm tired of crying over all the people who leave me to rot or die on me. I can't take it anymore..
  9. i dont even know why im here. my life sucks. i live in a dump. i dont have any friends. no way in hell i would ever get a girlfriend. my mom is working so hard lately that she'll wind up in a hospital. my dad wont get a job and help. i cant take it much more. im tired of thinking i deserve anything better than the endless hell ive been given. i will lose everything. ive already lost all my friends. family comes next. my childhood is almost gone. everyone expects me to just grow up and deal with it all. im ready to stab myself. im ready to end it all because i dont want to be around to see anymore of this. i dont want to be around to see who leaves me behind next. i dont want to be around to emotionally and physically beat myself up anymore. i dont want to be around any longer to become any worse than i already am. its been an awful life. i am eager for it to end.im tired of seeing happier people around me who rise so much farther above me while i sink more and more everyday. its hard to have nothing to look forward to. no friends. family is going to dwindle or won't be able to deal with me anymore. the golden days of my childhood have long since ended. since i was 8 it has just been a living hell. all of it. ive only gotten worse and i will only get worse as the days, weeks, months, years, and decades go on. i can already tell that within the next couple years my family will probably abandon me just like everyone else. because more and more people begin to see that i cant be dealt with anymore. the hopelessness, despair, and anger will consume me until i completely become them. it is most likely coming sooner than i think. the world continues without me even if im still there. im not destined for greatness. i am condemned to tragedy. nobody has been able to save me thus far. no one ever will. hopefully ill get shot or something so i wont live to get worse. nuclear war is another thought that never leaves my mind. i wonder how long it will be until i hear the sirens and my family melt before my eyes. i wonder how long it will be before we all become ashes. it scares me. it may be for the best though. so many people are miserable. i don't feel like my life has really been worth living in the last 8 years. i would be terrified if nuclear war begun. but all things must come to an end. the earth too. maybe it would be best with how many evil, crooked, and miserable people there are. i would much rather just take a bullet if it would make earth a paradise instead of trying to save my lost cause of a self. its too late for me. has been for a while. the point of contamination has long since been passed. i just hope that when the day comes that i decide to end my life that the people who abandoned me are happy with themselves when they find out that im dead. they should be. they would have contributed to the greater good in putting down a pitiful creature...
  10. i cant take it anymore. i live without purpose. i dont belong anywhere. going to counseling tomorrow but i know it wont fix me. i wasnt broken. i was burnt into ashes that were scattered in the wind. nobody can help me. this hopelessness is a fire that can never be extinguished. water evaporates. no temperature is cold enough. this fire cannot be put out. my hopeless is an endless void. i feel no love. this will consume me. i am not strong enough to beat this. i can scream for help all i want. but i will never be able to use the help people offer. this hopelessness is a monster that has bit all of my limbs to their nubs. nobody can enter the arena. they can throw me swords. what good is a sword without a single limb to wield such a weapon? i pray to god that i die soon. if god is merciful he will end this. i can already guarantee that he will just turn his back on me for the millionth time. i cant stay much longer. i feel no love from my family. friends are gone. no girls on earth who would be naive enough to think im a good boy to date. no more. no more. no more. make it end. please god. make it end. please. please.
  11. i just dont really belong anywhere. anybody who knows me in real life knows that im a thorn in everybody's side. i honestly just want to disappear and have everyone just forget that i was ever even born. it would be better for everyone in this world. so few people know me. even fewer care that i exist in the first place. im just not important. most people who know me in real life hate my guts after a few months. im too far gone. i want to die. i want it to end because i dont want to keep living in a world where i dont belong until i die. i just want it all to end.
  12. I don't know. I used to go to counseling and it didn't help that much. I feel like I need medicated because I'm such a mental case. But my counselor said that medicine effects my developing brain so I shouldn't take medicine until I'm 25. The somewhat good news I guess is that I'm going to start going to counseling again biweekly. It won't help me as much as other people. But I guess it's a start. It will probably take decades before im anywhere near good.
  13. i dont think i count. i used to go to counseling. but i dont have insurance to go now. just another middlefinger from life. among the millions i have already received
  14. im terrible at drawing and i wouldnt be really good at writing. walking is just a waste of getting dressed because i feel the same when i get back. hiking isnt really an option either. i live in the country. but im basically restricted to this shitty neighborhood.
  15. im basically stuck in this trailer park until i cant take anymore and wind up ******* mysdelf
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