Just here to say it, for every time they asked me how I was, why I don't smile, why I sleep too much, why I don't go out, why I'm so silent, and for every time I answered I'm fine, I'm just tired. For every time I said the truth and felt guilty for days for making them share my burden. And even then they can't understan, they never could.
So I say it here, where nobody knows me, so I can't feel guilty, and everybody understand how does it feel, so I'll feel less alone: I'm not fine, I've felt like every day in the last three years, and yes, even if I lay in bed until my all body hurts, I'm tired in a way that a normal person can't even start to understand. "Take a walk, find the will, try to smile, you're just a sensible person, you decided to feel this way..." are s***ty advice.
They just don't know what it means.
I'm sorry for all this nonsense, it's 10 am here and I haven't slept last night, so I'm being a little delirious .
Sorry also for any grammatical or syntactic mistake, when I'm tired my english just goes to .