SouthernSolitary

No.

Better than yesterday but tomorrow is my birthday. I hope I can force myself to get out the house, make plans, and stay sober right now the plans are to silence my cell phone. Not that I expect too many calls or texts. Nobody called on Valentine’s Day.

My chest hurts but I really don’t want to spend another night in the ER. They’re just going to do another pointless X-ray and ekg. I have anxiety, I’ve been cleared by a cardiologist, I have anxiety people!

Really hating Valentine’s Day. Mostly because my psychiatrist won’t help me. My birthday in two days is going to be even worse

So far I just drink the pain away. Dunno which is worse

Politely talked to coworker and manager despite wanting to hit them in their face

A little down and lonely

Don’t want to go to bed because it means I have to go to work tomorrow but goodnight all

It’s depressing how you try to be truthful and upfront about your issues, and people just disappear when they hear how messed up you are.

The first one

You gave great reasons to choose your job. You can keep in touch and find new places to socialize.

Actually...good. Adding abilify really helped me

I wish my doc would give me something other than trazodone

Minus my job, things have actually been going well my manager and I dislike each other equally

My meds are working. My sobriety isn’t. But I feel good and happy. Unfortunately, it’s back to work tomorrow