I wanted to ask your advice on my situation.
I'm 28 years old, and I have been struggling with depression on and off since my early teens. I have a very analytical mind which makes me overthink everything and I catch myself daydreaming more often than not. When I have a depressive episode, these daydreams turn into destructive nightmarish thoughts. Do you know any ways, psychotherapeutical or anecdotal, in which I can address this?
Another question is what's the best way of addressing insecurities. I'm generally quite insecure about my own value, even though I have a STEM masters degree, have average people skills, get out of the house regularly, work out, etc. I feel like all I've done in life is trying to prove my insecurities wrong, but they're really destroying me and talking me down on every turn. I can't land a job, can't commit to a relationship, keep pushing away friends. My thoughs have sabotaged most of my life, and in the past 3 months I have lost almost everything and ended up almost completely alone. I feel this has driven me to the brink of insanity and I really need some advice.
I hope you can help me address these issues.