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  1. SpeSalvi

    Could I be Depressed?

    Hi, I am sorry your are feeling like this. Like you just said this isn't a diagnose nor anything like that but it sounds like Anhedonia to me. Anhedonia is a symptom of depression, and that feeling of being disconnected might be depersonalization which also occurs during depression. You say that you feel ok when shocking and unpleasant things happened, I can relate to that. When I am depressed and going thru similar phase of not feeling or caring about anything, when shocking things happen, like jump scares, I feel alive again. So it does sound like depression to me, I suggest visiting a therapist or a doctor so you can get a diagnose. There are ways to make you feel better I hope you find them.
  2. Hi, I am sorry you are suffering from this thoughts. It sounds like body dysmorphic disorder (BDD) but in no way I am a mental health professional nor this is a diagnose. I suggest getting checked by a psychiatrist o therapist with experience on OCD because BDD falls into the spectrum. I don't know it helps but the way I battle my intrusive thought OCD, that may be the same way to battle BDD, is to let those thoughts flow, don't battle them, hear them and don't resist. Then label those thoughts as irrational/noise/trash any way you like it. Resist checking on the mirror and when you do let the thoughts flow. I hope it helps in some way.
  3. SpeSalvi

    How Do You Feel Right Now #6

    Same here, times keeps on but it never waits for me. I feel so alone.
  4. I am thankful for my parents and siblings, they are always there for me despite my constant bad mood. Also thankful for my friends (sometimes they bug me) and my therapist. And of course I am thankful for this forum, I appreciate the fact that people in here, total strangers, have the courage and good heart to face their own terrible problems and at the same time take their energy to help others. That is truly remarkable and I am grateful for that.
  5. SpeSalvi

    Destined to be single forever

    Nobody borns happy, moreover the act of birth is painful, our lives begin with a pain. But in no way your past determines your future. "Where there is a will there is a way" an old English saying.
  6. SpeSalvi

    Rock Bottom

    Thank you for your responses, I am a little better today, it is just the shock of hearing a diagnose and the feeling of helplessness that comes with it. I will check the subreddit to see what advices may come handy. Thanks again
  7. SpeSalvi

    Rock Bottom

    Hi everybody, currently I am having a really bad time. I have been diagnosed with avoidant personality disorder. This is new for me, I never imagined I had a personality disorder and I am very scared that I could never find a way to cope with it. I feel that this is it, my demise, I won't find a way to beat it and the only way now is to resign all my hopes and dreams and accept my fate. I don't know how is it possible to change my destructive behaviors, I just can't. If anybody has any advice it will be greatly appreciated.
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    Please Read

    Thanks for those kind words it helps a lot. Cheers
  9. They will come back, I tell you from experience. Now remember to let the thoughts flow don't resist, let them be
  10. Yea absolutely, maybe mornings where the worse for me, the intrusive thoughts came rushing during that the time.
  11. SpeSalvi

    What Is Behind Your Username?

    Saving Hope, I believe hope is what is left when we are in our darkest and it is hope that saves us in our worst times.
  12. Yea any SSRI does the trick with OCD. I was on Luvox, Fluvoxamine, also an SSRI. Please update us when you talk with the therapist.
  13. I am glad you have an appointment with a therapist. For your question no, I remember I had no libido at all, not even random ones because I was so depressed. Your obsessions can mess up with your libido and I suppose your anxiety is so high right now that any "symptom" will freak you out. Don't worry with proper care you will get it back.
  14. Remember label those doubts as OCD not as your own, let them get thru and do not repress them, in time everything will get clearer and you will regain your "sanity".
  15. Like I said before OCD makes us doubt everything, it is a terrible condition and feels like hell. But I assure you those doubts won't last forever there is way to make you feel normal again. I know that right now everything is chaotic and hopeless, I know that feeling very much but I also know that it will get better.