I'm sorry to hear you are feeling this way. Please know you are worthy and more important than you will ever know. Have you try talking with a therapist? I am naturally a shy person and also find it hard to meet new people but since attending my local church and joining a women's group have made it so much easier to meet others without even trying. Here's the suicide hotline if you feel the need to talk with someone, 1-800-SUICIDE or 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255). Praying things get better for you.