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  1. Well, I'm feeling extremely upset right now, but i can't even talk about it. all I can do is make this face or cry. 😠 or 😢 basically, i'm being kicked when i'm already down and told that I AM THE ONE who's causing distress. 😢 edit: sorry, I'm too depressed to get caught up right now. maybe in a bit, but don't hold your breath. goodnight DF
  2. Hi! Welcome again! 😄 I hope you feel at home here. From the response I've seen, I'm even more impressed with this great community! ❤️
  3. No, I'm plenty old enough, but I've not really had a serious job that I had to make a living from. Guess im lucky...but I'm also useless, so I don't always have confidence. 😕 Hey! Nice to see you! Welcome! ❤️ sorry about Tigger. I hope you can get her feeling better soon! Did I read you were going back to the vet? Seems they should be able to help, I hope.
  4. Hey!! I was actually wondering about you for some time! Nice to see you back! I know we didn't really get to know each other well, because I was new and shy at the time, but I always was rooting for you! Hope you're doing alright these days! ❤️
  5. yea... well, in my case (or tom's) he kinda set himself up for some of the comments he gets. lol I mean, I'm finding out more and more just how "dirty" he was (ok, yes, kinda innocent dirty, you know, jokes, but definitely ?colorful? (yea colorful). So, he brought it on himself, but I feel he's been growing up too, and it's so hard for some of us fans to really recognize that...because he is still so dreamy!! So, I'm stuck. Like, I want the fantasy, but I also want to be respectful. So... I mean, I respect him when talking to him or around him/in public, but i kinda freak out with some of my friends. eh hem. But, to kinda help distract me a bit, I've kinda gotten a new CO. It's actually Tom's former bandmate...let's just call him W. I'm afraid of things getting too easy for folks to search what I say lol So W, well, basically he's set up a way to communicate more directly with the fans, so...like, that's insane and awesome and totally has me swept up in all that. He's so sweet to do this for all of us!! But, it's obvious that he enjoys it too. So yea, I've actually gotten to ask questions and make comments and even answer questions that he replies to or asks. (oh my God! It never ceases to amaze me when I type it all out). It's actually been really cool though, because we are all a community that just feels comfortable with each other now. Yes, of course I'm still amazed and excited, but not ALL the time anymore. It's just another community of cool people. I never would have imagined I'd feel comfortable with a famous person!! ❤️
  6. life is precious, including yours. yes, it's not easy, but in difficulty we must muster strength. what keeps me going is that i'm not exactly sure what's on the other side. if we are meant to die (if it comes naturally) then it has to be ok, right? i mean, it's how it's meant to be. but if we force it...well, i don't know! seems that usually when something is forced, it's not a good thing. 😕 I'm not sure if this is helpful to you or anyone here, and I'm kinda going out on a limb saying this, but i really want people to stick around. ❤️
  7. Hey all! Long time, no speak! Hope you're all doing ok. ❤️ I'll have to catch up with myself soon, but right now I'd like to speak on behalf of a friend interested in joining the community. I try to reassure her that she'd be welcome here, but she's had some struggles in the past and is very nervous. Particularly nervous due to these issues- borderline personality disorder and learning difficulties. She fears upsetting people or annoying them with her issues. I also let her know that several folks here struggle with these or similar issues... Can y'all just help me bring her over here?? She really needs the support, and I can attest that she's a good person, even if very anxious sometimes (hey, we all get that right??) ❤️ Thanks! And just quickly for me, I'm doing okay. Will tell more next time. Hugs!
  8. Hey folks! Just dropping by with some love for you all! I'm going through "something" at the moment, but I'm safe. But I've more reason to consider bipolar2 again...and yet, I don't think my highs are high enough to be seriously dangerous...or is the mixed that we worry about, because those are mentally rough for me...but still seem to be handling things ok. I just have to step away from certain environments at the time, and sadly, I have to slow down or cancel certain responsibilities...but that's no different than a physical sick day off, right?? Ugh! I'm just kinda feeling stupid and circling thoughts around, because apparently my vivid dreaming means I'm not sleeping well, and well, I was happy and enjoying my dreams before that reality hit me. 😕 I really wish i could be more active in the community, but I just have extended myself too much over the past few years and can't always be everywhere at once (though I sometimes stupidly try! :P) ok, this is plenty long. Did not mean to write so much! Lol ❤️
  9. Oh, this is heartbreaking!! I hope you'll be alright! You will surely be missed, dear! So sorry you went through all of that too. I hope I didn't trigger anything. Yes, I'm struggling, but I'm still hanging on...and it comes and goes. It's a little less painful now, but I also fear I'm not being the wisest with how im dealing with things. 😕 @Smophie it's not really so much an issue of can't have kids (I mean, as far as I know), it's more that I shouldn't. It's complicated. I don't want to go into it either. I know I said I'd update, but now isn't the best time either. Plus I don't even know what to say...oh wait! But things changed. Last night, Tom was on a tweeting spree to promote his show. He hasn't really acknowledged fans in some time, but my hope is still there, so I'd comment (I was not the only one, I promise), and he even did acknowledge one person, a person I happen to follow too, last night. That's damn exciting!! All in all, a good night, but I fear that person got recognition for 2 reasons, 1 I prefer not to do, and 2 I absolutely will not do...so that's kinda discouraging. But...i mean, I still had fun and maybe he still sees the comments... i just hope he is or can be proud of me. Like I really don't want to be a disappointment, particularly if it gets me blocked. (Eek!) So...i mean, am I super dumb and crazy??! Well, yeah probably...but I don't want to stop!!! 😞 I really try to say clever and/or nice things, but still, who really knows how text is perceived?? I dunno! But besides all of that, I probably did myself a disservice by following some fellow fans...While they certainly can relate to my crush, they can and do sometimes feed the obsession and tempt me to behave in similar disgusting fashion. I mean, I haven't exactly done that, but I'm not always in the best of control, especially when it comes to the subject of Tom, who just makes me want to lose control completely! Oh God, help me! Oh, and hi hi @HopelessRomantic2011 ! Nice to see you again! Glad you're doing well (I think and hope)! 🙂 Good luck choosing your "bachelor"! Haha 😉
  10. I'm gonna keep this short since I don't have a lot of time. I'm REALLY suffering right now! The desires are too strong and I'm just left in complete sadness that I can't have...things. A new component is here-children. I don't have them, but I always wanted them...he has them... sigh! anyway, I've gotta run. Will check back later.
  11. @smophie Hands are sore from typing/using the muse so much for fun stuff online as well as typing and editing my novel in progress. I have no elf control. Sigh I'm sad today. 😕 Here are my thoughts I don't know that my H would be as ok with this if he knew the full extent of my crush and how much time I spend with it. That's the only reason I feel I need to tone it down some. 😕 But I keep joining groups and meeting other fans...well, that's not the problem, but the fact that they share these old pics and vids...especially the ones from "his prime peak hotness" days, remind me of my deep crush back then and the heartbreak of knowing he was a tad too old for me (well, not to mention it would've been illegal as I was under 18 at the time) AND that he was married (Although teen me wouldn't have cared. 😕 ) for us to ever be. That's just such a sad thought. I dunno why! I dunno why I have to crush on someone so out of reach! It sucks! Well, it sucks to think of him then. Now he's Dad Tom and like he's still cute, but he's not as seducing as he once was in his 20s. It's more love than intense desire. Know what I mean?? But then that all still comes back when I see old pics/vids. I dunno!! Lol except the last vid/interview I watched (yes, last night after I said to myself I was going to bed :P), well, he seemed so young to me! I mean, he was in his 20s, but he looked and acted like he was 16 or something. So, I'm not at all surprised now why I was so into him back then! He LOOKED like a suitable mate. (Lol that last phrase sounds so silly, but it's true!) AND, i guess that was just another reminder of me feeling rejected by the guys i fancied. 😕 Ironic in that he used to write songs back then about having insecurities with girls. I highly doubted it was true though, or maybe he was just fancying models or something.
  12. @Smophie I want to write more, but my hands are quite aching right now. :( ButBut I'm thinking that the most effective way I've ever gotten over anyone or anything was oddly by submersing myself. After long enough, the like mystery wears off. When I block them out, I'm just depressed and still think of them. :/ But if it was a situation where they got spooked by me, that would totally suck. So i know what that might be like for you as a very similar thing happened to me with my non celeb "CO". But I try to avoid acting similarly as I did with that one, so I dunno. Ok, well, it's time to rest so ttfn!
  13. oh @Smophie I relate to that completely. My CO now took the place of the irl guy. But I'm like REALLY obsessed right now! And while I'm catching up on "newer" stuff, a lot is not actually very new and he looks amazingly beautiful in the music vids and live vids and of course I somehow find these or get recs for them and can't tear myself away. It's that frozen in time younger version, although he's still good looking now, but most so about 13 or 14 years ago. (he would have been slightly younger than I am now, so yeah, that's usually when men peak. ha!) Anyway, I meant to come on here and express my need to try to cool it with him...and well, I DID stop listening to the old stuff that was triggering me most. I stopped everything actually, until about an hour ago. I thought I was clicking on an album version (with no visual), but this was a live performance that sounded good and he was just memorizing in it. And so now I'm wondering, isn't it ok to find someone beautiful and just smile when they look so cute??!! But then I read your comment about the hopelessness that I'll never meet (and also be available) that frozen in time younger version...as if I'd ever even have a chance with someone like that. ha! ahh! As other fangirls I know say, celebs like this one set the bar too high. lol God he's beautiful!! I mean, he's beautiful, and then when he puts it on, he's sexy too (that's the troublesome part hehe). But, I mean, can't I just be happy and enjoy the beauty of the world?? ;) Maybe I need to schedule my viewing time though, since lately it's been getting into other areas of my life. That's the other problem. Sigh!
  14. Starbucks, I also meant to say this, but forgot. Im sure your fella would be flattered to know you liked him. Age or not, I don't think they care that much to not be flattered, and a younger girl at that! I mean, it's not like you're illegal or anything, right? :) And still, it'd be a compliment to them! :)
  15. oh, and for the record, my current CO is Tom Delonge, former singer/guitarist of Blink182 and currently in Angels and Airwaves...just had to say it! 😛
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