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I'm sorry that you had to deal with such an obnoxious, toxic person. Have you tried teaming up with your sister and telling your parents your sides of the story together? 2 vs 1 is always better than 1 vs 1.

I have been talking to my guidance counselor, but it's winter break now. But a lot of these replies are saying that my parents are in denial, is this a common occurrence?

Thank you! I will try this tonight

It's fine, I'm 17

It makes me feel like a stranger in my own house. I want to **** myself but i know that it would ruin them. Even though they tell me that I couldn’t possibly **** my self because I’m not homeless or poor. They even go as far as to trivialize my feelings. Sorry for going on a tangent, but the huge reason why this is such a burden is because I am not able to see a doctor because my reasons aren’t valid to them. Even though they’ve witnessed me have mini meltdowns and I’ve even expressed my suicidal feelings to them. They always act like it never happened. What should I do?

Just a little question to all of you depression experts. If you are or have struggled with these feelings of complete calm emptiness, I’m very interested in hearing your dealings with it. I myself have tried self harm, but I find that it’s more of a 50/50 chance of it working. By working I mean kind of connecting me back to the “real world”. If it doesn’t work, I tend to disconnect more. Why is that? Just in case you’re wondering, I haven’t been diagnosed with depression, but I’ve become so hopeless that this website is where I ran to in hopes of learning some things about myself and others.

Sorry I know I look so silly, I’ve never been part of a forum before so I’m not sure how replying works! Thank you for spending some time to read and reply to my little ramble :) Your response gives me hope and makes me feel less like an alien. I have actually wanted to talk to my parents about seeing a doctor for years but whenever I try to allude depression I either get a response like “get over it”, “what do you have to feel upset over” or “you’re just a little crazy”. So I don’t feel comfortable at all with talking to them about it, because I know that I will just be mocked. But thank you for the warm welcome! I hope that I will be able to form some relationships here too :)

Thank you for spending some time to read and reply to my little ramble :) Your response gives me hope and makes me feel less like an alien. I have actually wanted to talk to my parents about seeing a doctor for years but whenever I try to allude depression I either get a response like “get over it”, “what do you have to feel upset over” or “you’re just a little crazy”. So I don’t feel comfortable at all with talking to them about it, because I know that I will just be mocked. But thank you for the warm welcome! I hope that I will be able to form some relationships here too :)

This is going to be very scattered because I’m pretty absent minded but I feel like I’m a bit out of options so I’m kind of on my last leg here. To start, I feel so down most of the time, and it’s been affecting my life more and more. It started at a pretty young age I think (14), now I’m 17 and it’s only gotten worse. I feel hopeless, even though I could see myself pursuing a decent future I just have no interest? I have a pretty nice life too, I’m pretty sure my family loves me and it makes me feel so guilty for being upset. I feel guilty about so many things that don’t make sense but I can’t control it. I feel guilty whenever I get angry or irritable, so I just keep my distance because I’m probably just a burden anyway. I want to die but I’d hate to do that to my family. I feel hated amongst my friends and get so paranoid around them. I don’t do anything with them anymore. I’m terrible at socializing and always overthink and isolate myself because I feel insecure. I’ve turned to substances to feel better, but I always end up crying profusely or just feeling guilty. I’ve currently turned to cutting, even though it still makes me feel horrible I feel like I deserve it. I’ve tried talking to guidance counselors but I just feel like a whiny privileged problem child. Whenever I try to talk about it to my parents I’m accused of wanting attention or being too emotional. It makes me feel awful for feeling bad and I just want to end it all. I’m currently taking St. John’s Wort (day and night), samE (day), and melatonin (night) to help myself and they seem to work better for nervousness than sad feelings. I’ve convinced myself to hate everything and I know it just me. My dad struggles with emotional intensity too (according to my mom) but he has been holding it in so long that it’s almost like he’s forgotten about them, making him kind of robotic…Please help, I don’t know what to do, I want to be normal.