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  1. A lot better! It's amazing how time heals most things 💜 

    I'm also being creative again, for the past month or so! That is something I've stopped doing for years, when my troubles started! Something I thought I'd never do again 😊 I spent most of my time being creative when I was a kid! It's always amazing to go back to your old passions 💜 

  2. On 5/1/2019 at 2:54 PM, JD4010 said:

    Excellent! I'm happy you are feeling great.

    If I may ask, which med was that?

    I'm very afraid of coming off of my two "mind benders" (citalopram and bupropion) because of the nasty withdrawal symptoms. I've experienced them from both of these meds and they are highly unpleasant.

    Awww! Thank you 😊

    The meds I took weren't for mental illness. It was for something completely different, I can't really discuss it here! They turned me into a monster 😞 

    If you think the meds are making you feel worse, it would be best if you came off them. I know that fear. I really do! Maybe you can try discussing it with a good doctor, who are there to make you better, to help ease those horrible withdrawal symptoms for you :console:

  3. On 5/1/2019 at 4:42 PM, sober4life said:

    They did the same thing with me.  They were keeping me sick and making me worse.  They just wanted a patient forever.  They never had any intentions in helping me in any way.

    Awww 😞 So sorry to hear they were doing that to you too. Yes, most doctors seem to profit off us being sick. It's not right! They truly do want a patient forever 😞 They are in complete denial if they say they aren't.

  4. I'm not trying to trigger anyone but I feel great! I've recently stopped taking this medication; that I started at a young age, in 2016. I started wondering last year if these meds were playing with my emotions. They were also causing other horrific side effects like high blood pressure, which the Doctors kept denying. All for money 😞 

    I kept brushing it off because I was afraid of the withdrawal symptoms. I prolonged the use until, last week, I had enough. Since coming off these meds, I feel less irritable, anxious, depressed, etc. My mind is clearer, stronger and more focused! My blood pressure is back to normal as well. Why didn't I do this sooner? 💜

  5. Thanks for the support guys ❤️ You are like a family to me :hugs: 

    Yes, group therapy doesn't seem like a good idea at all... First of all, my anxiety wouldn't let me go and secondly, I had no clue that they let the more extroverted ones speak the most! That's unfair... They should let everyone talk as much as they want, or can! That doesn't help the anxious people looking for help! If anything, it would belittle them 💔  

  6. I spoke to a Doctor yesterday to test for a mental illness (or disability) everyone thinks I have. The doctor wondered why people ask if I have this mental illness because she says I don't show any signs of it.

    She mentioned that I have possible OCD 😞 When she said OCD, it made sense. A lot of the symptoms describe me (including BPD but she didn't mention that yet) and I have it bad. I'm not trying to self-diagnose but it's true. I will try to get help for it soon ❤️ 

  7. On 12/29/2018 at 12:22 PM, Floor2017 said:

    You are so right and it’s so hard to try to understand why is this happening to me.  Nobody, wants to be like that and so many people don’t understand or care about you as you are go through this suffering  

    Yes it's so confusing when one day, you can socialise and the other day, you can't 😞 I know your pain. I had many friends ditch me and ignore me because of my suffering. If they were true friends, they wouldn't leave!

  8. 17 hours ago, Floor2017 said:

    I do understand my friend. Something happen to me probably when I was about twenty four years old

    a transformation took place in my spirit or heart and I became a more sociable person.  However, I

    do have my moments

    That's incredible! So glad that you are doing much better now but those moments that you can't socialise are really hard :console: 

  9. 11 minutes ago, Floor2017 said:

    Well, believe it or not my life right now is way better than anything my childhood life resembles.   I was so terrified of people and I was so antisocial that I wouldn’t say anything to anyone.  At least now I can at least talk to people and try to say something encouraging to others instead of running from from a conversation and not knowing how to communicate with people.

    So sorry to hear about your childhood 😞 So happy to hear that you are doing better now 🙂 Wish I was like you! I was never good at talking to people, childhood or now.

    My life seemed better as a child in general... Less depression, more curiosity, less fear, more fun....  Life seemed more safe then 😞 

  10. 3 hours ago, sober4life said:

    My problem is there are no enjoyable things anymore.  I used to enjoy life I guess but one day that was all turned off like a light.  It's not just depression.  It's 40 years of this and I'm sick of everything.  It's that simple.  By now I've done everything I've wanted to do in this world and for the most part I'm sick of it all.  As a child we love lots of things.

    Same 😞 I wish I was a child again just so I could enjoy the simple things in life. It seems like childhood really is the best time of your life :console: 

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