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  1. 1 hour ago, DialAForAlan said:

    Sleepy but also really emotional over Jane. There's so many things I wish she knew and even more of them that I wish I could tell her. TLDR; I love her so much and my heart can't hold it all sometimes.

    I can relate but with someone else. Thought I was the only one :hugs:

  2. 14 hours ago, watalife said:

    @babyxgothxx these flat cell phones have really only been around 10 years. There for spying on the people and advertising for sales. It's almost impossible not to need one because they want us to pay our bills, order stuff not in the stores, and to stare into the camera while they stare back.😵😵😵😆😆😆🙊🙊🙊

    That's scary! I'm glad I don't own a smartphone 😞

  3. 4 hours ago, sober4life said:

    I don't have a smart phone.  I'm using a computer that's probably 12 years old.  I have the cheapest flip phone I could find mainly so I can point out to people I'm refusing to conform.  I would have this same phone if I was a millionaire.

    That's the spirit! I love people who are comfortable being themselves ❤️

  4. On 10/10/2020 at 12:31 PM, anon22ae said:

    Yes, somehow the 90's seemed so full of promise for the future. It's amazing how great life was without smartphones or the Internet. The Internet came during this time for those in college (well, it had been around for decades, just not available to most). Even with just plain text (not even real graphics, much less multimedia), somehow it was so much more fascinating than today.

    What to buy? A time machine to go back there. 🙂

    It seemed like a carefree time! I think life would be simpler without all the technology we have today to be honest. I prefer the graphics of those times to now. No social media or smartphones! They had those simple phones with that fun snake game, I think? 😊 The games and music were creative and fascinating! I wish we had a time machine to go back there. Well, I wish I was my current age back then, so I can remember every bit haha 😄

  5. 15 hours ago, anon22ae said:

    Those were the good old days. If you could get your hands on it, the latest Megadeth, Metallica, or Iron Maiden tape made you both the most wanted and hated kid in school. Strangely enough, the competing crowd was blasting Ice-T's second tape all the time. And LL Cool J was not cool in those circles.

    I love the music and fashion from the 90s! 💕 They were more creative and upbeat, including some of the pop music. I was even happy when they brought back the choker trend a few years ago, despite some not liking it. Wish they can bring back most of the 90s fashion, actually. They may borrow influences from the 2000s throughout this decade though, since it started 20 years ago now. I don't mean to sound like one of "those" people but sometimes I wish I was born 10 years earlier. Everything seemed more simple then. Actually, even last year seems more simple than this year, you know what I mean 🤭

  6. 1 hour ago, sober4life said:

    The Megadeth fan cruises are real look them up.  It used to be you could hear Megadeth on the radio.  Megadeth was one of the first cassette tapes mom took from me as a kid.  Now it's a world where people say what's a cassette and what's the radio?  I like coloring books too but at the same time I enjoy heavy metal music but can't imagine them being combined.

    Yes I don't think they fit well either. Colouring books are better when they have a relaxing theme. I would love to go back to the days when Megadeth were at their peak! Those times seemed fun 👍 Downloading music is not the same as buying a physical copy ❤️ Cassettes, radio and vinyl were cool and need to come back full force

  7. 19 hours ago, sober4life said:

    I heard about it on the radio.  I also heard about Megadeth cruises.  "Surprisingly" all these people are fakes that only care about money.  I even saw a Metallica coloring book.🤭

    Aww it would be nice if the cruises were real. I don't listen to Megadeth all the time but they're one of my favourite metal bands ☺️  I'm pretty sure I saw a Metallica colouring book ages ago. They seem to have a colouring book for everything, which is kind of a good thing!

  8. I'm sorry to hear that you're struggling, ladysmurf :hugs: I hope I can help in someway. I think we're all different and have a variety of things that help us. What works for one person, may not work for another. I'm just going to list some of the things that worked for me. I'm sorry if it's a bit long. I'm going to try to help as much as I can ❤️ 

    1) First of all, I sat down to reflect to notice what emotions I was actually feeling. Was it anger? Sadness? Worry? Believe it or not, at one time, all my emotions were all bundled up together and I had extreme difficulty in even naming those emotions one by one.

    2) Then, I had a conversation with myself. When did these thoughts first appear? What or who first triggered it? What was my first memory of those thoughts? Are they really true? Can you prove they're true? For example, if it was a person who triggered my thoughts, I noticed their history, realising a lot (not all) of them had bad pasts, upbringings, etc and seek validation in bringing me and everyone down, knowingly or unknowingly. Their behaviours were also learnt by the wrong crowds and sources. Even the behaviours and actions of bullies and how they expect everyone to behave is completely learnt by peers, media, etc.

    3) To cope, I look for anxiety triggers and try to avoid them. For example, I used to have bad health anxiety by stuff I read online. I avoid them now and the health anxiety has improved dramatically. The media is very toxic. I avoid it as much as possible. Social media is also toxic.

    4) When I am panicking, I try to deep breathe and distract my thoughts onto something more calming. I tell myself everything is going to be okay. "I am doing a good job." "They appreciate the work I am putting in." "I am beautiful." "Nobody is noticing my flaws as I see them." "They see me as one of them." "I belong with my peers." "I am not going to d-e."

    5) I think exercise also helps in calming down the voices in your head. Gentle, slow exercises to increase motivation are great to start. You can even do them at home during this pandemic. Yoga, meditations are the best. Then, you can try walking or dancing. Any exercise you think is best for you. Don't overdo the exercise if you think it makes you feel worse.

    6) Vitamins? I heard B12 and Vitamin D helps. I'm not sure though. Certain teas, like chamomile are calming. Any hot drink are soothing. Caffeine sometimes make anxiety worse, though. It's a stimulant. It's best to look after yourself. Try to limit "drink" and sugar. You don't have to, only if it helps.

    7) I do more of what I used to enjoy in the past. I stopped being creative when these thoughts started. I'm now being creative again. It's hard to find the motivation, I know. I'm playing the games I used to love. I'm watching the movies I loved, etc. This gives me a nostalgia boost as well, which is an added bonus! Like I said, there's a variety of things that help.

    I understand the thoughts come on automatically and feel so real. Most of these thoughts are not real, they just feel real. They are probably learnt. You are a lovely person and you are doing your best. You deserve all the happiness in the world. You will get there, I believe in you. If you have any questions or want to talk, you can PM me :hugs: ❤️ 

  9. 2 hours ago, anxiousE said:

    Hey!! I was actually wondering about you for some time! Nice to see you back! I know we didn't really get to know each other well, because I was new and shy at the time, but I always was rooting for you! Hope you're doing alright these days! ❤️

    Aww you're so sweet! I'm happy to hear from you again! I'm doing alright, thanks! I hope everything is well with you, too ❤️ 

  10. 6 hours ago, samadhiSheol said:

    No you emphatically are not. 

    Half the time I want to take my posts down the day after, let alone the ones I posted before.. 

    We are our worst enemies unto ourselves, I think. The inner critic etc.

    Other people (thankfully) don't see us the way we see ourselves. At least I hope they don't! 

    Yes, that's right! I think we are our worst critics. We don't judge anyone else for pouring their hearts out in a post. In fact, we think it's brave of them. Why should we judge ourselves?

    Also, I don't want to discourage anyone from posting their feelings on here. Actually, it's better if they do, as it's far worse to bottle it all inside. It's just how I feel about myself.

    That said, I think you are very brave to open up here, samadhiSheol! It is an amazing thing to share your thoughts with others, especially those who understand and have been through similar situations, like many on here 👍

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