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  1. Hi guys I'm new to the dite and pretty much depression as a whole! I am a 31 year old married male with no children. I have always been a happy go lucky person up until 2 months ago. In February of this year, I experienced an event which was partially not my fault (80/20 blame ratio). The thing that happened goes against my core and moral believes. Immediately after this event I instantly regretted being in the situation but somehow managed to get over it for almost 5 months, barely having the thought cross my mind. Then around 2 months ago I had a huge panic attack due to the realization that I will have to live with the personal shame from this regret/episode for the rest of my life. I have since experienced symptoms of insomnia, loss of appetite, anxiety, loss of concentration, interest etc. i have been seeing a cbt therapist ( 6 sessions in) and been taking paroxetine for 2 weeks and have seen gradual improvement in most of my symptoms. However I cannot seem to forgive myself for this event and can't get over it. I constantly get this strong dread that it will live with me forever, making me down and miserable. Whenever I have a bad sleep I start relapsing on my progress. Can anyone relate or offer any advice on how to forgive yourself and move on from your past regrets/mistakes? Thank you