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SpiralingMind

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    SpiralingMind got a reaction from 20YearsandCounting in Dedications....   
    Beautiful - Christina Aguilera
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    SpiralingMind reacted to Depressedgurl007 in Week of Wednesday, July 3rd   
    Ur awesome n ur my source of motivation!
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    SpiralingMind reacted to 20YearsandCounting in Uh oh   
    This describes an alarming amount of my life.  Sort of LOL. Thank you for posting!
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    SpiralingMind reacted to Tearz in Been Awhile, Weather, Oh & a Small Rant   
    I can't speak for others, but I appreciate that you spend your personal time to help people here, so thank you. 
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    SpiralingMind reacted to 20YearsandCounting in "In My Garden"   
    I hear you.   😫 
    I think about things like that and I totally get why people turn away from God.  I do.  Sometimes I"m not sure I have a coherent answer about why I haven't.
    Sorry, don't know where that came from.
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    SpiralingMind got a reaction from 20YearsandCounting in I'm Trying to Hang On.....   
    I understand, too.  I spend a lot of sleepless nights thinking of the moment my mom would learn of my death.  And I just can't do that to her.  But it's tough hanging on.
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    SpiralingMind reacted to JD4010 in Another one for my angels...   
    I'm a storm-chasing idjit too. I grew up in NW Iowa where we had our share of tornadoes. I like weather when it's interesting, though the recent floods here were a little too interesting.
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    SpiralingMind got a reaction from 20YearsandCounting in No Words.... No Wait, I Got Something   
    Don't ever forget that you are enough.  Regardless of all the stresses in life, you are always enough.
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    SpiralingMind reacted to LonelyHiker in I hate summer   
    I hate summer too...and climate change will only keep making them worse..
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    SpiralingMind got a reaction from 20YearsandCounting in I'm Ready to Go Home   
    (((20YAC)))
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    SpiralingMind got a reaction from samadhiSheol in A failure at life   
    (((allalone)))
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    SpiralingMind got a reaction from allalone6 in A failure at life   
    (((allalone)))
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    SpiralingMind got a reaction from 20YearsandCounting in Going Down In Flames....   
    No one can pick a fight like an atheist.  I know this because I am one !   :-)
    Thank you for your efforts in making DF welcoming.  What others do with that welcome is up to them.....
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    SpiralingMind got a reaction from 20YearsandCounting in More animal humor...   
    "I was chasing a bunny through the flower garden, and then...and then I...I don't remember what happened next."

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    SpiralingMind got a reaction from lex333 in Absorbed in Self hate   
    (((JALEN)))
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    SpiralingMind got a reaction from Jalen in Absorbed in Self hate   
    (((JALEN)))
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    SpiralingMind got a reaction from samadhiSheol in Absorbed in Self hate   
    (((JALEN)))
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    SpiralingMind reacted to Gisele in Official Irony   
    @Mmoose,
    Silly, foreign me. I did not know it had to be a pipe dream and I don't know that knowing that now makes it any better. I shouldn't care of course, and I don't, sort of, except that:
    a. America is a superpower with an acute pi**y-streak. This can only end one way.
    b. He is the dumbest, most hypersensitive and dangerous ____ alive
    c. He is the dumbest, most hypersensitive and dangerous ____ alive
    d. e. f. g. h. i...etc. He is the dumbest, most hypersensitive and dangerous ____ alive
     
     
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    SpiralingMind reacted to mmoose in Official Irony   
    Isn't there a rule?  The pet cause of the American first lady has to sound good, but be completely unobtainable?  The Nancy 'War on Drugs" has been such a failure.  I would not mind a simple failure.  But it cost a lot. Not just money, but incarceration or minorities etc.
     
    Well, one could probably say the same about  most american pet causes.
     
    It seems that the first rule of that family is to embrace hypocrisy while denying it.   The age of Post-Truth  has begun.  But let's not talk politics.
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    SpiralingMind got a reaction from Natasha1 in For All My DF Friends   
    You are awesome, 20Years!
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    SpiralingMind reacted to NHZ in Just a question.   
    And to add, it would help to try to understand your causes for wanting to self-harm. I think that once you understand why you feel this way, then it will be easier to find ways to avoid it.
    i hope this helps. i am always afraid to post something because i fear that i may end up causing more harm than good.
    take care of yourself!
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    SpiralingMind reacted to NHZ in Just a question.   
    Hi Jalen,
    I also have similar thoughts, although i can distract myself enough to let the urge pass. ]
    You are asking about the reasoning as to why you feel the urge to do so... i can only tell you my reasoning:
    1. I want to punish myself. I blame myself for so much that is beyond my control, to even the smallest mistakes, i blame myself for everything and for not being able to get myself out of my depression, for not being able to reach my own expectations... and because of all this, i end up not liking myself --- thus i end up wanting to punish myself. This said, when i am able to distract myself, i end up understanding that ... no it is not my fault and thus i should not be punishing myself for something that is not my fault. Try distracting yourself, if it works for you!!
    2. I want to make myself feel something ... an actual physical pain compared to the non-stop emotional pain .. i want to shock myself .. to force myself to react to my situation so that i can get out this lethargy type of situation.
    3. because i have trouble accepting that my problem is a legitimate problem ... i.e an illness ... and not just me being weak and stupid ... causing self-harm validates my illness ... its hard to explain. it would justify and validate to the world (and to myself) that yes i have a problem ... an actual problem ... it would be like a physical manifestation or proof of an "invisible" illness.
    4. its a cry for help ... as simple as that. its somewhere between wanting to end all and asking for help to others without telling them ... which is non-nonsensical.
    I feel you and hope and pray that you find a way to let these urges pass.
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    SpiralingMind reacted to DeeBear in That Person   
    Thanks, SpiralingMind.  I wish I could forget a lot of things, especially that person. 
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    SpiralingMind got a reaction from DeeBear in That Person   
    DeeBear
    I know those feelings well.
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    SpiralingMind got a reaction from Jalen in Do you hear me?   
    I'm sorry, allalone, that no one reached back.  No one deserves this.
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