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DarkRain last won the day on May 2 2013

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  • Birthday 02/09/1991

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    Lord of the Rings
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    marine biology
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    Kingdom Hearts
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  1. DarkRain

    The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" Topic (5)

    How to Fail at Making Friends:I was trying to be encouraging but came across as rude and selfish.
  2. DarkRain

    The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" Topic (5)

    Still p-----d off from today. i wanted to order a cake at the bakery and my mother decided to tag along and completely dominate the situation, talking to all the ladies/workers there and not even paying attention to me or allowing me to speak, ask questions, and place an order. I got so flippin' p---ed off that I just left. 27 year old adult and momma won't even let me order my own cake. It's like the reverse of clinging to mommy's apron strings. She made the excuse that 'well I was going to let you talk but then you walked off'....??? You were going to allow me? Like i didn't have permission to speak in the first place? What does that even mean? What were you even doing talking in the first place? This had nothing to do with you? What about this situation made you think you even had to say anything? Does she thing I'm actually that disabled or mentally ******** to the point where I can't ask a single question or perform basic communications? Even if I couldn't verbalize I could at least write them a clear note making my request. I'm sick of her. She just wants to dominate.
  3. DarkRain

    The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" Topic (5)

    Pre-birthday blues. The realization that I'm getting older and still have nothing to show for it. Fear of not being able to use my degree in animation and actually be a part of any kind of creative process. Fear of never getting a decent job and being unable to move out and my parents berating me over it. Fear of moving out because I've never lived anywhere else in my life and especially never alone, convinced by people that I'm unable to take care of myself. Beating myself up for the fact that I haven't been drawing because I have no motivation. I'm already over halfway done with my degree so there's no backing out, even so my drawing skills are still poor. I don't know how to do anything and I'll be 27 soon. I still don't have my license and I got yelled at today for not stopping soon enough to let a car go by. I break so easily.... I have so many things I want to do but either don't have the motivation, the resources, or the know-how to do them.
  4. DarkRain

    The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" Topic (5)

    Had a meltdown today. Went to buy a couple giftcards with the change I saved up, but the machine wouldn't read the change I put in and it came up five dollars short. Of course my mom was standing right by my elbow and had to call over one of the clerks who then called over another clerk and it ended up with her yapping a mile a minute with three people at my elbow all talking at once when I just want my giftcards and to get out of there. I can't stand having people that close to me. One is bad enough but three is a nightmare then they all start talking and I have a sensory overload and a meltdown. I hate her. She should know I can't handle stuff like this. She should know she's just making things worse. Every time I say something she just says 'don't get mad at me', 'don't be so nasty' She's so nosy and a control freak. I'm turning twenty-seven next month she needs to f-off and stop holding my hand like I'm a five year old baby who can't do anything.
  5. DarkRain

    The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" (4)

    I'm so tired. Everything is so exhausting. Please leave me alone.
  6. DarkRain

    How Do You Feel Today? #32

    Tired. Everyday problems are such a huge task for me to get through. They wear me out. When does it get better?
  7. DarkRain

    Random Thoughts 2

    People can be so nasty over petty things. Like...please go outside and pet a puppy, take a deep breath, and stop attacking people over things that don't matter in the end. These kind of people in fandoms make me go 'yikes'!
  8. DarkRain

    The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" (4)

    Pretty good all things considered. I took an extra long shower to get the tangles out of my super long hair. I'd been putting it off for a while and finally decided to tackle it. Brushed all my hair out and everything, major accomplishment of the day.
  9. DarkRain

    What Really Bugs You (7)

    Helicopter parents.
  10. DarkRain

    The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" (4)

    Furious. Parenting tip: If you can't let your 26 yo kid cook their own damn grilled cheese sandwich you have a problem. A very big problem. I do not need a helicopter parent standing at my elbow eating chips watching me like a hawk for the instant I make a mistake so they can swoop in and take my cooking away from me because apparently I'm making a mistake and burning the food (hint: I wasn't). This is why I don't cook despite loving to. I can't put up with a helicopter mom who is lying in wait every second, waiting for the instant she can pounce and shove me aside. You have to let people make mistakes. You have to. If you don't make mistakes you won't learn anything, in addition it takes away any sense of freedom, responsibility, and autonomy.
  11. DarkRain

    What's On Your Mind Right Now?

    There is nothing more irritating and stressful than vacuums and the fact that my mother does not seem to realize that it is extremely stressful for me and instead thinks my dislike of it is something funny or cute and tells me to use the vacuum myself for once. I can't even tolerate other people using it what makes you think I'm capable using it! And of course when I'm out of the house she can't bother to spare me the stress and vacuum while I'm away, of course you have to use it right there in the room right in front of my face and drive my stress levels through the roof and think it's a joke. Thanks mom. Isn't being autistic fun?
  12. DarkRain

    The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" (4)

    Feeling numb. Cried a little which was nice. But now I'm back to not feeling anything. I haven't done anything I want to do. No drawing, reading, or writing. I'm not even interested in investing myself in a video game.
  13. DarkRain

    The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" (4)

    Was doing okay to start with this morning, then I crashed and haven't stopped crying since lunch.
  14. DarkRain

    Random Thoughts 2

    People only like you, think you're cute, praise you, want to help you, and give you things when you're young. Once you start getting old you're no longer of any interest or value.
  15. DarkRain

    The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" (4)

    Feeling insecure about my weight. Even though I'm not in any way fat.