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DarkRain last won the day on May 2 2013

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  1. DarkRain

    I'm so tired of them

    had another run-in with mom today. I'm out of contacts and needed to order more so I asked my mom how to order them since she always does it for me. I asked her for the phone number for the place and she wouldn't answer me. Just went on about how I hadn't had an exam in two years (untrue I had one last year) and how I'd need to schedule an appointment and how we should drive over to the place to do it. I just wanted the phone number so I could call in the prescription. That's all. I gave up and googled the phone number and put it in my phone. I was going to call the place after grocery shopping since she wanted to do it in the morning, but just as we're ready to go she decides that she's going to call the place and make an appointment. So I have to sit down and wait and I don't dare argue because she's blown up at me before. She made the appointment for me and everything. I don't get the chance to do anything myself. I don't want to fight it because she's gone off at me before for trying to do things by myself. I just wanted the phone number. I stood there for a minute waiting for it and not getting it, I go onto google and get it within two seconds with no fuss.... don't do this to your kids. Please. Just let them do things and if they ask for help just nudge them in the right direction. Don't take the learning opportunity away, do it yourself, then hand it back to them. That doesn't accomplish anything. Part of being a parent is raising your kids to be self-sufficient. This is the opposite of parenting. I should have kept my mouth shut in the first place and asked google instead. Dad does the same thing with refusing to work out the steps on how to parallel park and instead just tells me to go watch a youtube video. Always with both of them it's all or nothing.
  2. DarkRain

    How Do You Feel Today? #32

    My mood's been all over the place today. One minute I'll be thinking about horrible depressing things, the next I'll be fine, the next I'll be laughing about something, then I'll be back to thinking dark things....I think I should just go to bed.
  3. DarkRain

    I'm so tired of them

    Thanks MarkintheDark. I don't know anyone. We have family friends but I'm not that close to them and they're more my parents friends. I have no other family where I live and no friends, so there really isn't anyone I can go to for help. I'm trying to finish school and hopefully get a job that'll get me enough money for at least an apartment. It seems like a long way off though and the job market isn't encouraging. I really wouldn't know where to look for help.
  4. DarkRain

    How Do You Feel Today? #32

    I've been so numb and stressed out lately. One class I have has been stressing me out because I haven't been able to fully understand it, and it's one of those things where if you miss even one step the whole thing is off. I know I haven't been doing well and I know it's most likely that I'll fail the class and have to retake it, but I wanted to succeed at this class and I don't know what to do at this point. I've been having tension headaches almost daily this week. Also the fact that I really need to get a laptop for school because of the kind of work I do is really stressing me out. I kind of know what kind to get but they aren't cheap and I spent a lot of money back in June so I'm really reluctant to spend big again this year.
  5. I just need a place to vent. I don't get along with my parents but today has been unusually worse. My dad told me that I would have to leave my cat behind when I move out and "just get a new one" which upset me for the whole day. He knows I love my cat and he just treats her like something disposable. Oh it's just a pet, you can just get a new one and it's all the same. Then I found out that my mom tore out all my herbs in the garden without saying anything. I've been busy with school so I hadn't been out there since summer. I have no idea when she tore them out. She never said anything, never asked me if it was okay, never told me to cut them back. She just decided she didn't like it and ripped them all out without ever saying anything or caring about how I feel about it. I feel like grabbing some of her teacups and smashing them on the floor so she understands what it's like when someone takes something of yours without your permission and destroys it. And she's done this before. She's done this a lot throughout my life. Whether it's clothes, toys, or furniture, she'll take it, throw it in the trash, and never say anything. She doesn't care if it's someone else's stuff, she doesn't like it so it goes in the trash without a word. It makes it impossible for me to trust her with anything. She'll also parrot anything I say back to her friends regardless of what kind of information it is. Neither of them care about how the things they say or do affect other people. They're difficult people to live with.
  6. DarkRain

    The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" Topic (5)

    How to Fail at Making Friends:I was trying to be encouraging but came across as rude and selfish.
  7. DarkRain

    The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" Topic (5)

    Still p-----d off from today. i wanted to order a cake at the bakery and my mother decided to tag along and completely dominate the situation, talking to all the ladies/workers there and not even paying attention to me or allowing me to speak, ask questions, and place an order. I got so flippin' p---ed off that I just left. 27 year old adult and momma won't even let me order my own cake. It's like the reverse of clinging to mommy's apron strings. She made the excuse that 'well I was going to let you talk but then you walked off'....??? You were going to allow me? Like i didn't have permission to speak in the first place? What does that even mean? What were you even doing talking in the first place? This had nothing to do with you? What about this situation made you think you even had to say anything? Does she thing I'm actually that disabled or mentally ******** to the point where I can't ask a single question or perform basic communications? Even if I couldn't verbalize I could at least write them a clear note making my request. I'm sick of her. She just wants to dominate.
  8. DarkRain

    The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" Topic (5)

    Pre-birthday blues. The realization that I'm getting older and still have nothing to show for it. Fear of not being able to use my degree in animation and actually be a part of any kind of creative process. Fear of never getting a decent job and being unable to move out and my parents berating me over it. Fear of moving out because I've never lived anywhere else in my life and especially never alone, convinced by people that I'm unable to take care of myself. Beating myself up for the fact that I haven't been drawing because I have no motivation. I'm already over halfway done with my degree so there's no backing out, even so my drawing skills are still poor. I don't know how to do anything and I'll be 27 soon. I still don't have my license and I got yelled at today for not stopping soon enough to let a car go by. I break so easily.... I have so many things I want to do but either don't have the motivation, the resources, or the know-how to do them.
  9. DarkRain

    The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" Topic (5)

    Had a meltdown today. Went to buy a couple giftcards with the change I saved up, but the machine wouldn't read the change I put in and it came up five dollars short. Of course my mom was standing right by my elbow and had to call over one of the clerks who then called over another clerk and it ended up with her yapping a mile a minute with three people at my elbow all talking at once when I just want my giftcards and to get out of there. I can't stand having people that close to me. One is bad enough but three is a nightmare then they all start talking and I have a sensory overload and a meltdown. I hate her. She should know I can't handle stuff like this. She should know she's just making things worse. Every time I say something she just says 'don't get mad at me', 'don't be so nasty' She's so nosy and a control freak. I'm turning twenty-seven next month she needs to f-off and stop holding my hand like I'm a five year old baby who can't do anything.
  10. DarkRain

    The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" (4)

    I'm so tired. Everything is so exhausting. Please leave me alone.
  11. DarkRain

    How Do You Feel Today? #32

    Tired. Everyday problems are such a huge task for me to get through. They wear me out. When does it get better?
  12. DarkRain

    Random Thoughts 2

    People can be so nasty over petty things. Like...please go outside and pet a puppy, take a deep breath, and stop attacking people over things that don't matter in the end. These kind of people in fandoms make me go 'yikes'!
  13. DarkRain

    The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" (4)

    Pretty good all things considered. I took an extra long shower to get the tangles out of my super long hair. I'd been putting it off for a while and finally decided to tackle it. Brushed all my hair out and everything, major accomplishment of the day.
  14. DarkRain

    What Really Bugs You (7)

    Helicopter parents.
  15. DarkRain

    The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" (4)

    Furious. Parenting tip: If you can't let your 26 yo kid cook their own damn grilled cheese sandwich you have a problem. A very big problem. I do not need a helicopter parent standing at my elbow eating chips watching me like a hawk for the instant I make a mistake so they can swoop in and take my cooking away from me because apparently I'm making a mistake and burning the food (hint: I wasn't). This is why I don't cook despite loving to. I can't put up with a helicopter mom who is lying in wait every second, waiting for the instant she can pounce and shove me aside. You have to let people make mistakes. You have to. If you don't make mistakes you won't learn anything, in addition it takes away any sense of freedom, responsibility, and autonomy.