HeatherG

major headache

I wonder if I'm really even trying? I mean, I don't know..

I'm trying to get myself back to a therapist, anxiety will make you pick at and see things that aren't there. I wish you good luck, and peace of mind.

I think I want to be super-productive tomorrow, Monday. At least try to be.. That's how I feel right now.

Starbucksjunkee, Actually you posting this helped me with some of my stronger feelings. So I really thank you

couldn't transfer photos to my laptop. Ugh, had to tell my cell it's ok, like, is this some safety mechanism? And the advice online is awful!! I figured it out on my own.

big cable bill, lots of channels, but so few quality shows on that's why I'm on my laptop so much.

I don't like my local post office. Mail comes too late. Like, you ever have a package from Amazon and the anticipation is better than the package, but you just want to get it, peel off the tape, open it, like, a present for me! #PostalProblems Well at least it came, better late than never I guess. #FirstWorldProblems

I did the responsible thing and had a doctor help me gradually get off mine--and it was the most excruciating experience, and not the getting off of it that was slow and careful. It was my mind, brain, whole body (after that very last tablet) reacted in a way and I can't explain it now, but people in the medical field marvel that I not only got off of it but requested to. They said people getting off this particular antidepressant have such a horrible negative experience--that few get off, few stay off and most just won't try to. I did. It's been h.*l.l it still feels like I'm experiencing something from it.

Oh don't I know what you're talking about when it comes to people's behavior--ugh where I am, the people are just horrible. Yeah you and me both, I'd rather order takeout and pop myself on a couch and just run up the cable bill buying and renting movies. Online antique car groups? That sounds awesome! I'll tell myself that I learned something in 2018 so 2019 can be better--I can tell myself that.

Well I would say I answered the phone, but that would be ridiculous! ok I talked to my nephew's teacher and guidance counselor, to get her contact into Feed my nephew din din (what he calls it) I think I did some other stuff, but it's never enough, ya know? I read that post about inner critic, mine's is brutal..

Nothing fun to do, and if there was- would I even get up to do it?

sleep too much, or the feeling of not enough sleep.. #SleepProblems

My nephew spilled water on 5 new books of mine. I wanted to cry. BOOKS! yeah they're ok.

Karl Urban

WOW! Talk about turning around your day!!

Kinda de*d inside? Not a good feeling at all.

Exhausted.

One of my many fears is seeing something I cannot unsee. But never to this magnitude, my goodness my thoughts and prayers go to your brother and to you, his caring sister. I agree with SillySally43 on helping him find a counselor, a therapist. And, know that the first 2 therapists may not work, or be who your brother needs but please tell him to hang in there. I went through a couple, hung in there and found one who to this day really showed me that therapist can be truly compassionate. I hope your brother finds compassion in a therapist and can help him process that awful scene and experience. He deserves peace of mind. And it's wonderful seeing how much you love him.

Mom's commenting on my lack of a life.

Hi Mtnborn, Yes, welcome to DF! I'm sorry you're struggling so, and absolutely this is a very comforting place to come to. You are not alone, not at all. And I completely understand those feelings of loneliness, feeling a bit isolated and your only contact maybe with people at work. I mean, I can only speak about what's alleviated my symptoms of depression and anxiety over the years. Therapy is one, having that weekly connection with someone who can offer tips and advice, suggestions on where maybe shy people meet--local spots to check out. Things like that. Also, someone weekly to check in with who offers that face to face, with empathy and compassion. You certainly deserve compassion, we all do. I've found this community/site here so helpful to me. DF is a really warm place, like a second family but this second family understands me when my own biological family doesn't. So, I hope you'll maybe keep us updated on how you're doing.

I only remember tiny pieces, but I do wake up knowing I was struggling in my dreams. Always trying to get away from something or someone. I'm also trying to rescue someone. I wake up feeling disturbed, but can't for the life of me remember exactly what happened. Strange.