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  1. whats up with this spamming?
  2. Hi Liliah. I desperately wanna try it but is it true that it can be hard on the heart? Thats actually my main concern.
  3. I wish they would give ketamine here. They did a trial in 2019 and idk what happened. Its hard if not impossible to get it
  4. My brother is still going through hell and one doctor thinks it is because of klonopin withdrawal. I have also been on it for almost 15 years and sometimes on quite high doses. Right now I am weaning off at 3 mg daily. You should taper very slow
  5. Can you get therapy through any community organization? I managed to get it through Islamic Services and they are paying $150 on my behalf every week. I used to wait for province appointed subsided therapy and after about a year later I got someone who had no idea how to help me. So not only is waiting time too long but you risk to get an inexperienced one.
  6. I've had some burning sensation in my brain as well as my limbs. It would come and go but it was really unbearable. I am on a few medications and I don't know if it went away on its own or because of some meds. If it was any drug that helped it was probably suboxone. Don't give up. Have you done brain MRI?
  7. I understand. But normal people have "normal" fears. They don't go into a distress mode whenever they hear scary news 😞
  8. That's good. My biggest problem for the last 2 years which has actually made me feel much worse is my brother's suffering. It's so hard to watch him suffer and nothing is helping. Everyday stress since we are living together. I could move out but I can't leave him being so sick despite it's negative effects on me. And I wish I could make some friends in real life it would be real helpful when I feel OK but I don't even know where to make any. I did try online then I backed up because it seemed odd to me.
  9. One of my huge problems is fears of unknown. I went through chronic distress because of covid. Now I fear the war potentially escalating. Huge fears of family tragedy. Fear one of those events might force me run out of my meds and go off cold turkey which would be horrible. That's why I avoid reading news and stuff even though I miss searching web and facebook. I know I am waaaaay more likely to die and suffer from a natural disease or something unrelated but the obsessing fears are too strong. If anyone had fears like I do and managed to control them please do tell how. Even a good book would be helpful or a good therapist but I just can't find anything.
  10. Benzos have caused me to feel worse. I was taking it for 15 years in high doses and now there is nothing to help me for withdrawal.
  11. I disagree. Many people with full faith try everything and anything and if they are treatment resistant no help for them.
  12. I have tried natural supplements such as nootropics. Many of them but nothing worked. Never tried Yoga , therapy nor anything like that mainly because I need something to stabilize me a bit. I was explained that TMS works different on 1 side of the brain like left side is for anxiety and right side for depression or vice versa but they are very hesitant to do the anxiety side unless I pay outof my pocket which I can't afford. I might try MAOIs and TMS (anyway) but vegus nerve can cause severe anxiety but they cut down on mental health care in my province. IDK what to say I truly despise psychiatrists or 99% of them but unfortunatelly I still need them even though I don't like nor trust them.
  13. What has helped you if anything? My problem is firstly anxiety and I would literally rate it 12/10. They wanna send me for TMS but as they say to the side of the brain for depression not anxiety. I'd like some meds for extreme anxiety but don't know what to take. I feel im in distress mode 247
  14. I also am lonely. I have no real life friends nor could I handle any right now. I talk to my family only. For me time goes crazy fast that literally scares me and I think that's in part because I'm so lonely and have the same routine. Sleep, laptop, sleep.
  15. has anyone recovered from long term ed caused by antidepressants? My problem started 15 years ago. Never been off meds. I think I have chronic pelvic pain syndrome as well so I don't know how much that effects but I am just curious can you regain sexual health if you stop the meds after many years.
  16. MAOIs can help as well. Parnate or Nardil but gotta watch your diet. @ladysmurf what kinda doctor do you see about the vegus nerve? I tried to see a GI about it but they dont even wanna see me
  17. This old anti depressant (MAOI) has the highest rating for anti depressant meds after Nardil (Nardil is being discontinued due to shortage). Many doctors are reluctant to prescribe these type of meds because they cause low blood pressure but if you watch your diet and have no heart issues it is said to be fine. My brother and I would like to try it but I would like some feedback if I can get from anyone taking it?
  18. Have you tried a sleep specialist? They often work hand in hand with your shrink. I too could sleep fpr 20 hours and yet force myself to bed. Sleeping disorders can boost up depression a lot and wise versa.
  19. Even though I am on disability I am allowed to earn some money. This Wednesday I am supposed to start as a parcel delivery driver. Haven't been working in ages. Little exited but little scared because it's hard to push depression away. Plus sleeping disorder which I gotta control. Let's hope it works out.
  20. I suppose you take meds that gain weight?
  21. After losing a few lbs for the last 3 months I ate too much sweet and junk foods. I didn't even notice I was back at my peak 2 weeks ago. It is better to be overweight but healthy than sick and skinny but the reason what added to my weight gain is not my medication for depression but sleeping pills. For the last 2-3 months I also was taking 3-4 times a week mirtazapine and chlorpromazine to help me fall asleep. I believe that boosted my weight gain. So from tomorrow I am stopping those and will try to deal with my sleeping disorder in other ways. Also I wanna do some light exercise such as swimming, walking, etc... But I have a question or two. If you take drugs that cause weight gain, can they cause extra weight even if you avoid fat foods or even if you have low appetite? Also, if you are on such drugs (because I still take suboxone and klonopin) can you lose weight still if you exercise? Many people are stuck between obesity and depression (or other mental illness). They find meds that help them but gain too much weight and if they stop then they go right back into depression. In some cases the obesity makes people more depressed. I am very overweight but thanks to my height it is easier for me than for others many who have this problem.
  22. The way it works here is complicated. Doctors are very reluctant to send you to a GI if they do it has to be specific otherwise GI will refuse it like it happened in my case. Waiting times are at least 1 year, partially because it is free and partialy because of covid. But I did manage to get it done yesterday. It is weird how you can have scary symptoms and negative test results. IDK which is better or worse. Free health care but long waiting times or expensive hc but having to pay. The latter one is better if you have money but if you don't it's tough. I have friends and family in the states and some can't get treated because they can't afford and here no worries about pay but you can die due to waiting.
  23. I know this is not an easy or even a good question but due to my physical symptoms I need a gastroscopy. My doctor agrees but there's only the referral he can do and told me to keep going to ER every day until they probably get tired of me and get it done. I was there on Friday they refused it. But how can I can go daily when I am soooo depressed and am getting scared of rejections it's like they don't believe me or something. But going daily or almost every day is the only way to get it done cuz they don't have private ones.
  24. The checking with lights annoyed him a lot. But they have to do it if a patient is trying to self harm they are to intervene. When you have a serious sleeping disorder it's extra hard. One day he felt really like ending it and went to the desk and told them that. He expected something to calm him down as I would but they gave him a piece of paper to fill out like why you shouldn't do it, reasons to live etc....I know they have their tactics it's been done by professionals but when they are underfunded they can't be much helpful. A friend of mine was in such a hospital in Germany and the difference is huge but still not perfect.
  25. I also can't find the point of this life. Sometimes to the point where my therapist calls it "existential crisis".
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