Katzenjammer

To Tilted and Stoic Lady, thank you for posting. I’m so glad I came across your posts, I do get the pain and sadness you’re going through, right now I’m clinging to the hope that life won’t always be this difficult. It’s hard to go on when it feels like this will never change. I wish peace for you tonight. Katzenjammer

Dude333, thanks for taking the time to reply. Even though I can’t talk to my family about this right now (they know about the bipolar 2 but not the radio stuff), these replies have helped me feel less alone. im going to bring it up at my next appt. thx, Katz

Dear June, Thanks for the reply, I feel somewhat less alone. You’ve given me some things to think about, especially the idea that we sometimes feel as if we had “every mental illness in the world”.... so true. : ))))

I don’t have any place to ask this question other than this forum - I truly don’t know what to do I’ve fought depression and OCD since 16-17 yrs. old, (I’m 62 now), and have recently been diagnosed with Bipolar II. Dr. started me on Lamictal and is slowly increasing dosages & decreasing the SSRI’s My question is, in the midst of this I’ve been going through a really stressful few weeks (family member hospitalized, enormous debt, beloved family member moving away) and I’ve started to hear voices in my head, like a radio is broadcasting inside my head-voices with strange accents & dialect. I can’t believe this is happening, I don’t know what to think about it, I’m just really frightened and confused. Does anyone have experience with this? have you heard of it before? I’m worried I’m losing my grip. Thank you for listening, K

It made a difference to me. Tonight it helped more than you could know. Bless you,

Dear Oussama, I’m hoping because you’ve posted that somewhere deep down inside you know there is some small sliver of hope for you, just as I know and pray that there is a sliver of hope for each of us on this forum. It’s a place to start,don’t you think? I wish you peace and hope, I know your journey is a painful one, yet please know we are here for you, and know you are in my thoughts tonite as I write this. All is not lost, dear one. I believe that you have a purpose, there is forgiveness, and you are here for a reason. Please take care and be safe ((( hugs)))) warmly, katzenjammer

Dear Sarahbeth, I’ve read through many of your posts tonight. i know what it is to lose and miss one’s mother. There is nothing and no one like a mother. You are loved, though, by us.....you are family to me and to countless others here. We love you, right now.

Alex, You are not alone. At all. I certainly understand the isolation, and I know from spending time on this site that you are among comrades. We all get the isolation and the loneliness I don’t have any special wisdom but I am here often enough to offer a listening ear. And others do too. Your life is important,, we can never know what a difference we will make in someone else’s life.. I wish only good things for you. Please take care and keep coming back here if you need a lifeline. warmly, Katzenjammer

I’m 62 and and totally get the title of your post as I feel like that often. Life does feels like I’ve bungled it and now it’s late in the game. I got started in my career later in life and retired sooner than most having a my nervous breakdown my friends are gone I do wish I could think of something wise or profound to say to you, but I don’t have anything, I’m sorry for that. There are others of us out there, I’m comforted by the fact that there are others who get us. the people in this forum are a blessing and I couldn’t do it without the understanding I get here take care, you are in my thoughts EleanorGrace

Duncan I am sorry for the amount of pain you've had to endure in your life to date. As someone who's had depression for decades, I don't (obviously) have a magic bullet. But I do know that medication is worth trying. And therapy or counseling is worth trying. At some point in this journey we all require some support structures to hold us up - otherwise its very easy to get sucked in by the undertow...... take heart, I was on the same combo of meds for 12-15 years, losing it and having a nervous breakdown. I finally sought a new dr. who changed my meds, what a difference. I realized I had forgotten what it was like to feel "okay" sometimes, and to be able to ignore my torturous thoughts, the ones that I call the "river of sh•t". i hope I haven't offended you in any way with my reply, just wanted to reach out and let you know WE'RE HERE for you. Katzenjammer

I'm right there with you. Sleep is the only thing that gets me away from EVERYTHING. Havent any solutions, yet, and I'm sorry you're going through this. FWIW, you are not alone

Hi Nic, it's a hard place you're in, I'm sorry you're going through this. Depression can rob you of your motivation to do anything and it's hard to get out of those slumps. The fact that you've tried CBT and self-help makes you an excellent candidate for therapy. Starting counseling is a great idea! Especially since you're so willing. Look for someone who's a fit for you, someone you feel comfortable with, and don't look back! I wish you well,

Hi and Welcome!!!! im in the same boat, trying to figure out how to (semi) - regularly emerge from the house - sorry to say I haven't figured it out yet Sometimes, when I have something I've got to do, it's easier if I just do a small part of it, then I leave, quick as possible, knowing that I can get back home asap. And then I do!!! It's a small step, but it's enough for today. Blessings to you,

Hi there, sorry things have taken a downward turn for you. You sound like a very sincere person who has a good deal of integrity. I had issue with weight gain after using Prozac for a few years: now I'm on Sertraline and the weight gain has stopped. Also on Wellbutrin which is not a "weight offender ", but oh yeah, now on top of my depression and anxiety people make disparaging comments about my weight. People can be pretty sh!!!!tty and hurtful. I can relate to the discontent you are feeling. Peace se and blessings

Hi Rainforest, I'm late to this discussion but want you to know your words mean so much to me. I'm 61 and have suffered depression since my teens. Mostly your post resonates with me because I feel so alone, no peers who understand, I've missed out on so much of life by not living. Maybe I've missed the boat entirely, so tired of trying, it's exhausting isn't it. Im sorry you are dealing with so much dark pain. I hope for better days for you. And thank you for writing.