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  1. You're definitely right on that. I've just been through hell for 3 months or so from messing with my meds, I want so desperately to feel like my old self again. I'm just tired of the emotional rollercoaster and want relief. :(
  2. So I recently tried to taper of my 100mg Zoloft (which I took for ten years) a few months ago. Anyways, I got down to 12.5/6mg and quickly plummeted. So I started 25mg on Jan. 14th and 50mg on Jan. 19th. Trying to stick with 50mg instead of 100mg, so I want to give it time to see if it is efficient enough on this dose. I dealt with terrible side effects for a couple weeks, then things started to work out for the better. I had a good week or so and last week things started going bad again. I've been getting morning anxiety again, bad dreams, and trouble sleeping. I'm no longer waking up refreshed and instead waking up several times at night again. I'm having anxiety and obsessive thoughts, although not as severe as before. Is it normal to go up and down like this? I was so hopeful I was on the right track and to go backwards is terrifying me. I can't go back to that panic. I need advice. Also, as a female, I did start my cycle four days ago. I thought maybe the hormones could've made things whacky. I'm just really worried the meds aren't working or won't work.
  3. When I tried tapering over the course of a few month, I experienced withdrawals and decided to re-up my doses from 12.5 to 50. It took me about 2 1/2 - 3 weeks to start feeling better. It could happen any day now or it could take anywhere from 4-8 weeks, so I've read. Also, I believe you could be in a weird overlap time where you are experiencing withdrawals and side effects from starting again. I would say you should start to feel better relatively soon.
  4. Glad to hear you are feeling better! Honestly the waiting and anxiety from side effects is the worse part. You should continue to even out as each day goes by. THen you'll get to the point where you don't even think about side effects or analayze how you feel: you'll just feel fine again! :)
  5. I would suggest avoiding alcohol.i used to drink heavily on Zoloft, but I would experience severe depression and sometimes anxiety the day or two afterwards. There are no benefits to alcohol anyways. I think it's best just to avoid it altogether. As far as your lack of interests, how bad would you rate that? It could be the normal bout of depression as opposed to the severity of our clinical depression. Sometimes life is just blah and sucky. Could it possibly just be a funk? If you believe it is more than that, an increase might help you. Although I've started Zoloft again, im trying to maintain on the smallest dose that works to curb my severe depression and anxiety. I figured we shouldn't rely on the medication itself but to use it to help develop better coping strategies to deal with the normal woes of life. Just my two cents but ultimately you know how you feel and what path you believe is best.
  6. The side effects have eased up tremendously over the past few days. Hoping it stays this way and I can continue to stabilize. Thank you for your replies.
  7. I avoided sugary foods and tried to stick with whole, organic veggies, fruits, whole grains, nuts, and beans. Exercising helps and practicing good sleep hygiene. I also take magnesium, fish oil, vitamins D3 and B12. The fatigue should let up soon. I was struggling a few days ago and now I feel fine.
  8. Hello all. Over the past few months, I seemed to have put my brain through the wringer. I've been on 100mg for ten years or so. On my birthday this year, I realized how long I had been on Zoloft and I became worried about long term effects. So I decided to taper myself down. I did this from October (Maybe September) to December. I went from 100, 50, 25, 12.5. I now realize it was way too quick of a taper and I should have consulted a doctor to begin with. But I was convinced I could do this with proper self care, i.e. Exercising, supplements, and proper diet. I experienced withdrawal symptoms but powered through. Until December hit and I was on 12.5mg. I need to say that I experienced a traumatic event 3 years ago after Christmas. This has given me Ptsd which I self medicated with MJ for the past 3 years, as well as therapy for a year. So when December hit, all hell broke lose. I was anxious 24/7 and experienced multiple panic attacks in a day. I had to leave work weekly, thank God my manager understands what I go through. I couldn't live a daily life. I would be frozen with fear just to leave the house. I couldn't eat. I couldn't sleep. It was an absolute nightmare. Even worse than the event that caused me PTSD. I even stopped smoking MJ in the beginning of January because I had a really bad episode of depersonalization after smoking all day. My family urged me to up my Zoloft and reluctantly I did. I upped my Zoloft from 12.5mg to 25mg on January 14th. Desperate to feel better and to decrease the length of side effects I upped it to 50mg on the 19th. This was because I still had anxiety on the 25mg and felt it would be best to at least be half of my original dose of 100mg. So this week marks two weeks total since upping Zoloft and is the middle of my second week of 50mg. i feel like I'm losing my mind, but I have felt that way for the past 2-3 months. My anxiety increased when I first upped it to 25, and again when I upped it to 50. I thought my sleep improved, but I'm noticing I'm waking up a few times at night. So I seem to sleep in intervals, sometimes trying to fall back asleep for an hour or so at a time. I had really bad intrusive thoughts for a while as well. With the occasional ones leaking through some days. I've been clenching my jaw non stop it seems. Also have headaches. Also felt extremely sad and suicidal for a day or two. I also randomly cried for hours just wanting it to end. This isn't every day, just one or two days during the week. But it's crippling and makes me feel insane. (Btw, I will never act on such thoughts.) Now for the past 2-3 days I feel very dopey. My eyelids are heavy and I'm constantly tired. I get out of bed around 11am but am right back in bed around 11pm. I just feel kinda spacey and not all the way here. I'm sure this could be from putting my brain through hell with all of the chemical changes. i guess my question is, all of these side effects are normal, right? It's been so long since I've dealt with start up side effects, I can't remember. Also, they should subside and eventually go away , right? I just desperately need reassurance. I need to know this is normal and will improve. These past few months have taken such a toll on me. I also go to college and work full time. I just need to know that I didn't ruin my brain and that it'll heal and adapt to Zoloft just like before. I need so much to feel like a normal functioning human again. I'm 26 and feel afraid of life, if this is how it'll be. Any advice or comments would be appreciated. Thank you.
  9. I just want to say that I relate a lot to your post. I had been on Zoloft since I was 16, maybe even 14 or 15. My memory isn't the best. I also drank heavily since 17 years old till about 23. I also have PTSD since I was 23. I have been self medicating with MJ as well for the pst 3 years and recently quit about a month ago. I only quit because I tried to wean myself off of Zoloft, I believe since October 2016, maybe even September. I weaned myself from 100mg to 12.5mg but then was hit with crippling panic attacks and depression in December which I'm sure we're triggered by anniversary dates related to PTSD. Now this is my second week in upping the Zoloft. (First week 25mg, second 50mg) I relate to feeling like I'll never be "normal." I seem to constantly need a substance, whether prescribed or not, to keep myself from imploding. What I have began to do over the past couple months to ease the anxiety I've experienced, is taking better care of myself. I've been exercising at least 3-4 times a week. Really exercising and breaking a sweat. I've also drastically changed my diet. I began to eat whole, organic foods. I'm a vegetarian so I made sure to increase my protein intake because your body needs sufficient protein to heal. I also began taking supplements such as magnesium, fish oil, and vitamins B12 and D3. These things have definitely helped to an extent. My anxiety is still here but I figured it will be since I experienced withdrawals from Zoloft and MJ plus start up side effects from my Zoloft dose increase. Another thing that has helped is therapy and having a good support system. It helps to have someone remind you that these are chemical imbalances and you're not crazy. It also helps to have someone provide positive words of encouragement. I've been trying to meditate and be more mindful of my thoughts. My thoughts tend to be drenched in negativity. I have to constantly combat a negative thought with a positive one. It's not always easy, and can be exhausting, but I'm told it is necessary to ultimately change the way we think. You seem to have had a life full of negativity, which I can relate to. We grew up anxious and expecting the worse. Now as adults, we have the ability to be more mindful and aware of our thought patterns. Now we must begin to change it for the better. I suggest adapting a healthier lifestyle and researching meditation and mindfulness. It seems silly and it is time consuming, but I do believe it will benefit us in the end.
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