Ok , so I'm not sleeping, and I'm so sick of this crap. Since I went to bed over 4 hours ago, I tried to think only positive things, I stopped ALL the bad thoughts before
I completed them and forced a positive replacement thought. Didn't work, and now I'm just as angry as I was before I went to sleep! Nothing is working... and I am canceling
my shrink appointment Monday morning, I'm not wasting another trip, and money to see that blow off, he is a total waste of my miserable time. I even tried to find a therapist
and the one that is available (or was supposed to be...) has a voice message "I'm not taking new patients" I'm really fed up... Church is the only social activity I have, and I
avoid that as much as possible as well... so why bother? I am useless, unemployed, and sick to death of life... it has no meaning what so ever... I'm only here because I don't
want to hurt my Mom.... I feel sorry for my husband, he puts up with me & since he's working out of state, I don't even try to keep the house up...(or I think about it, & then don't).
Can't keep the smile on my face, I feel like I have 50 lb weights on both corners of my mouth... UGH! what a waste of space I am.