thank you for George1 and Ambrer. i will appcet your good advice. have you seen movie <limitless > acted by Bradley Cooper , zoloft is just like NZT for me in this 9years. without zoloft i can't win my on career and get my wife. however for my future baby i can abandon all of this. so i stopped zoloft after 9years. but to be honest, i cant control my OCD now. and is easy exhausted by some trivial affairs. i need to overcome it for this period but i real have not good method without antidepressant help. i only insist on stop medication. and i doubt i wil live with zoloft forever. please forgive my terrible condition. sorry.