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    Demonpenz got a reaction from anita_123 for a blog entry, 12/10/2016   
    I need to meditate on my breaks and use my time as my most important resourse. If you died what would you differently. Sense of urgency. 
    Take it all ideas. Make sure you use a G2 and nice journal. Start keeping a journal at al times so you can get better and 
    capture all ideas. Take notes everywhere and etch. Get the mental effort to get the journal and the picture clear as possible.
    Make sure you take notes. Focus is important. You focus on what is awesome. The most valuable resource is time.
    Don't spend it on bulls***. I am trying to get 999 billion dollars. I am trying to get the most chedder possible. I want to help
    other people. My mission is to make 999 billion dollars #1 player of all time. Top of the food chain. Leader. Time management Browser black out.
    Waste time. Browser black out. Need to do a better job to not have browser blackout. I trust that if I do this. I need to meditate on my breaks.
    Long term goals 1 year 999 billion dollars year 5 1 trillion dollars year 10 2 trillion dollars 20 year 3 trillion dollars. Inspire the heart and the soul.
    Fishing. Bass boat. All fishing. Become a master fisherman. Own a Nascar team or a racing team. You have to dream. Mansion like the playboy mansion.
    Playmates of all races as girlfriends. The best athlets as my friends and I can coach them. Chiefs KC Sporting KC tickets HALL OF FAME BOWLER.
    Mercedez Benz two suv's Buick Grandnational
    Short Range goals. To meditate on my breaks. Work hard. Build batches be passionate. This weekend walk 5 miles a day. Don't eat and lean up. Work 
    so hard I am miserable. Play the lottery everyday. You have to spend money to make money. Stick to it. A breakthrough is right around the corner. You
    show God you won't quit with this 999 billion he will be like alright dooty ere you go. Do whatever it takes. If it takes reading I will read
    if it takes me starving my starving myself I will do. I know one day it will be worth it. If I have one good day it can turn into two days. Fat people put sleep over
    working out. Fat people put lots of over working out. Poor people put lots of before making money.
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    Demonpenz got a reaction from Jalen for a blog entry, 12/03/2016 part 2   
    ***breakthrough*** I woke up today in some fear. Fear that I wouldn't get what I want that I would get side tracked from my goals of 999 billion dollars
    being #1 businessman of all time. I said this encantation that helped I woke up in a bit of fear today. I like this saying. "I am fully complete the way I am. I don't need anything. I come from the frame of abundance. I am here to provide value to any situation"
    That is a great situation to get me out of fear. I can stop thinking about what am I going to lose. I already have plenty of everything. Just need to add value to situations.
    Adding value to Raymonds sponsership is amazing on your part as well. You always have to have an open mind to have a breakthrough. The idea Raymond might give you
    could launch your game your money into another level. Having an open mind is a skill you have to cultivate, excersize and build.  I played some farming simululator. Picking
    up logs is such a pain in the ass. Oh my GOD!!KU won. Everyone looked good. I ate too much. Going to have to work hard tomorrow on staying present and having the presense of mind 
    not to go too big on the overeating. We went bowling it was good. I bowled a bit over my average and we won 4 games.  I had a girl at the gas station that gave me a free fountain diet mountain dew.
    That made me feel good. I don't let my mind and my emotions dictate who I am. I am not my mind.
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    Demonpenz got a reaction from Maria_ for a blog entry, 12/03/2016   
    I woke up in a bit of fear today. I like this saying. "I am fully complete the way I am. I don't need anything. I come from the frame of abundance. I am here to provide value to any situation"
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    Demonpenz got a reaction from Jalen for a blog entry, 11/30/2016   
    I woke up today. I went down to see my sponsor. So much of life is just meeting with mentors or sponsors. That went well.
    We talked about loving people for who they are and just be at peace with life. Life on lifes terms. I made my
    magnificant purpose which is to make 999 Billion dollars on Jan 1st 2026. I will be connected with awesome people and awesome athletes.
    I will wear brooks brothers outfits and be awesome. The theme song for the Kansas Jayhawks really pumped me up and inspired me.
    You have to cultivate the sensitity to be inspired. You have to cultivate, hone, and increase your inspiration everyday. Find photos
    shows, and music that moves you. It can be good or bad. Some things may pi** you off, but if it gets your butt moving use it!
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    Demonpenz got a reaction from carter_burn1 for a blog entry, 11/30/2016   
    I woke up today. I went down to see my sponsor. So much of life is just meeting with mentors or sponsors. That went well.
    We talked about loving people for who they are and just be at peace with life. Life on lifes terms. I made my
    magnificant purpose which is to make 999 Billion dollars on Jan 1st 2026. I will be connected with awesome people and awesome athletes.
    I will wear brooks brothers outfits and be awesome. The theme song for the Kansas Jayhawks really pumped me up and inspired me.
    You have to cultivate the sensitity to be inspired. You have to cultivate, hone, and increase your inspiration everyday. Find photos
    shows, and music that moves you. It can be good or bad. Some things may pi** you off, but if it gets your butt moving use it!
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    Demonpenz got a reaction from irah007 for a blog entry, 11/26/2016   
    I wasn't able to sleep yesterday without eating which was a bummer. On the bright side I woke up thinking about cash.jpg and alice eve. So that
    got me emotionally motivated to go for a walk. It sucked, but I know I have to increase my toughness and increase my self-discipline if I want
    to move up in the world and grow as a person. If it was easy everyone would do it. I know I am on the right track when I feel like crap, because
    the things that need to be done to be successful suck. 
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    Demonpenz got a reaction from doughjohn for a blog entry, 11/15/2016   
    Every night before I go to sleep I like to type something up that I can read in the morning. It is usually something to the effect of....."your mind is going to play games with you today, focus on your breathing, it is just a game. You winning the game depends on you just breathing and getting through whatever situation you are put in." I also write down what I want to focus on. I want to focus on making 999 billion dollars and becoming physically and mentally fit. I have a vision with me being lean and mean. Giving a Tedx talk. I would love to help people have hope through depression, being poor, being fat, and being alone. That is what I am coming out of. I am alone, fat, broke, but I have the internet and books. I also have the ability to take massive action. I know there will be setbacks. My entire life has been a setback. Everyday I can get tougher, meaner, and stronger.
     
    I believe there is a correlation between Hard Work working out. Hard Work on your diet and hard work at work. They are all tied together. If you work out hard that will 
    spill over to your work life. If you work hard at work you will work hard when you work out. You have to have the will to win. Will yourself to do things
    that make you successful. Will yourself to go farther dig deeper embrace the pain embrace the suffering. More pain more gain. More pain more growth. Growth 
    is happiness. You have pain...pain will turn to growth and growth will turn into happiness. Get the fundalmentals down. Praying, Encantations, packing
    into the stream of life. 
     
    I am making a Killer Mike great tracks for my car. I didn't feel bad today 
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    Demonpenz got a reaction from carter_burn1 for a blog entry, 11/20/2016   
    Yesterday I felt like garbage. I have a sponsor in AA and it is important to let him know when I feel like crap. It is important to me that I don't view depression as good or bad. It just is. I have read a couple books that back that up. "Letting Go" is one of the book. Another book is called "Depression is a Liar." I am going through a a work book called "The neuropsychology of Self-Dicipline. It is on youtube and it is on PDF to download. I have clear goals and I don't care how crazy they are. I am going to hone, and build, cultivate the skills of "Taking massive action" Modeling my sponsor" Modeling Rich and wealthy. You don't have to reinvent the wheel you just have to find good role models and do what they do.
    1.Sober
    2.999 Billion dollars
    3. play and enjoy video games
    4. Bass boat
    5. Nascar SKC KU CHIEFS ROYALS TICKETS
    6. Inspire others
    7. Be a good son help my parents
    8. Keep my room and desk clean
    9. Save money
    10. Cultivate self-dicapline
    11. Concerts Lots of them
    12. Take time out to read
    13. Take time out to do encantations
    14. Enjoy and have passion no matter what
    15. Get better each day at my job Cultivate the will to win
    16. Be a role model in AA
    17. Save people with my sober experience
    18. Inspire fat people
    19. Make st joe better. 
    20. New Wardrobe
    21. Jordans Timberlands Nike's rebook assics
    22. Mercedez Bens Suv
    23.The 2017 GLE350 SUV MERCEDES-BENZ
    24. MERCEDES-BENZ 2017 GLE350
    25. Help my dad retire
    26. Power boat
    27. Give back books to the poor.
    28. Give Cortland and Max 25 dollars
    29. Gibson Les Paul
    30. Pearl Drumset. 
    31. Electronic Drum Set
    32. Good peddles and recording studio.
    33. Be in a band with Reid.
    34. Help my sister and Ben.
    35. Big Ass chains
    36. 999 Billion dollars in my 401K
    37. Travel Across Europe and take Crabtree with me.
    38. Be a good stand up comedian
    39. be a good motivational speaker
    40. Be a good teacher and a good spirital leader.
    41. Give my mom lots of money to gamble with.
    42. Give mike some money
    43. Alienware computer a good gaming computer
    44. Xbox one. Battlefield one. Mass effect 3. Nba2k17 Madden 17. Project cars. f1 2016. 
    45. Elder scrolls skyrim.
    46. Have big parties with pretty people. 
    47. Go into business with the guy in westport.
    48. Have a taco truck
    49.  Give clothes to people who need it. Books as well.
    50. Brooks Brothers outfits Jos A Bank ties brooks brothers trousers. 
    51. Go to Tony Robbins, Eckhart Toole, Tyler Workshops.
    52. Give back to Mo West and help draw in recruits. 
    53. Bose noice canceling headphones
    54. Good gaming computer. Huge screen for gaming. Iracing set up. Racing wheel Shifter the works.
    55. Boss 302 or 429. Camero 1968
    56. Own a Nascar or Indy team
    57. Drive race cars. 
    58.Ferrari 488 GTB
    59. Pay Chrystler 200C off
    60. Dentist and doctor checkups
    61. Change Oil in Chrysler
    62. Floss. 
    63. Listen to Motivational speaches. Tony Robins. Zig Ziggler. Get the basics and the fundlemenals down
    64. Jane From breaking bad date that lady. Kate Windslet and the brown headed girl from 2 broke girls
    65. Meet Mike Tyson. Donald Trump. Obama. Joe Randa. Kobe Bryant. RSD crew. Eric Thomas. Elliot. The Rock. Drew Carrey
    Tina Fey. Alec Baldwin. Meet Eckhart Toole. Crew from RSD. Alex Gordon. Meet Dale Earnhardt JR
    Meet Dale Earnhardt JR. Meet Tony Stewart. Meet Alex Zanardi. Meet Dave Grohl. Meet Metallica.
    Meet The Urge and hang out with them. Meet Carrie Underwood. Meet Lonely Island. Meet Lebron James
    Meet Tom Brady. Meet Eric Berry. Meet Derrick Johnson. Meet Sidney Crosby. Meet Roger Espinoza.
    Meet Mike Sweeey. Meet Rusty Kuntz. Meet Bill Self. Meet Perry Ellis. Meet Tim Duncan. Meet Eric Clapton
    Meet Chipper Jones. Meet Ben Gibbin From Death Cab for Cutie. Meet Choheed and Cambria. Meet Tony Robbins. 
    Meet Dr. Dre Meet Craig Fergison. Meet Anthony Bourdain. Meet Kyle Busch. Meet Megan Fox. 
    Meet Wayne Gretzky. Meet Black Keys. Meet 311. Meet Incubus. Meet Karl Icon. Meet Warren Buffet. Met Oprah
    66. Travel to other Nascar, Indycar, F1 tracks. Watch the races. Make friends so you can watch the races together.
    67. Buy A million books
    68. Help others write out goal lists.
    69. have a six pack with big arms. 
    70. 64 Impala. 2017 camaro SS. Jeep Trailhawk deep blue color. A low rider. 
    You work hard at work. You cultivate the will to win. You will yourself to do things that you know is nessessary and right to do. 
    You work harder and harder each day. You push at work and that will spill over to your workout. You work out hard.
    You don't cut corners. You work harder and harder each day. That will spill over to your career and work life. You
    work hard with AA and workout hard going to meetings. You work harder to be more and more into AA and to help people
    That will spill over to your career, to your workouts, to your diet. You work hard to give to relationships. You give
    more and more that will spill over to your career, to your workouts, to your diet, to your AA life.
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    Demonpenz got a reaction from carter_burn1 for a blog entry, 11/18/2016   
    I walked the dog for a bit today. I went to planet fitness as well. It sucks to go out in the cold. You have to cultivate, hone, improve your self-discipline and get out in the cold and do work.
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    Demonpenz got a reaction from Jalen for a blog entry, 11/13/2016   
    Some things that help me through my day is acknowledging that there are down times and boring times. That is normal. That is a big part of success and getting out of depression. When things seem bleak and boring. Just keep breathing and staying alive. I am not going to sugar coat it. Things suck. They suck most of the times. I have the goal of dying a natural death.  I feel like it is my job and choice to keep going. Even though I may feel bad and times are tough. I can make money, cultivate my skills, I can be funny and creative. I can help other people. If that helps me feel better awesome. The focus is staying alive so others especially my mom feel good. 
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    Demonpenz got a reaction from sunflowers and contusion for a blog entry, Labor Day weekend   
    What is supposed to be a awesome 3 day weekend away from work is always a terrible time for me. Work is hard and taking it day by day is hard. Everyone else gets off work for the 3-day weekend and posts pictures on facebook of their family and friends having an awesome time. For me my depression keeps me down. Saturday I slept most of the day. Sunday I was able to fish a bit and then I watched the Football game on T.V. I was tired most of the weekend. I woke up Monday just hating life. I wish it would get better but I don't think it will. Just got to hang in there and I know life is short so I can finish it out.
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    Demonpenz got a reaction from BettrResultsHereIHope for a blog entry, Labor Day weekend   
    What is supposed to be a awesome 3 day weekend away from work is always a terrible time for me. Work is hard and taking it day by day is hard. Everyone else gets off work for the 3-day weekend and posts pictures on facebook of their family and friends having an awesome time. For me my depression keeps me down. Saturday I slept most of the day. Sunday I was able to fish a bit and then I watched the Football game on T.V. I was tired most of the weekend. I woke up Monday just hating life. I wish it would get better but I don't think it will. Just got to hang in there and I know life is short so I can finish it out.
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    Demonpenz got a reaction from MarkHollywood for a blog entry, Labor Day weekend   
    What is supposed to be a awesome 3 day weekend away from work is always a terrible time for me. Work is hard and taking it day by day is hard. Everyone else gets off work for the 3-day weekend and posts pictures on facebook of their family and friends having an awesome time. For me my depression keeps me down. Saturday I slept most of the day. Sunday I was able to fish a bit and then I watched the Football game on T.V. I was tired most of the weekend. I woke up Monday just hating life. I wish it would get better but I don't think it will. Just got to hang in there and I know life is short so I can finish it out.
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    Demonpenz got a reaction from JasonDark for a blog entry, 4th of July   
    I didn't have a great 4th of July. I was just trying to relax as much as possible and spend as little as possible. I did buy my fishing lic which was 40 bucks. Day by day just staying alive things are bound to get better. 
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