Demonpenz

I need to meditate on my breaks and use my time as my most important resourse. If you died what would you differently. Sense of urgency. Take it all ideas. Make sure you use a G2 and nice journal. Start keeping a journal at al times so you can get better and capture all ideas. Take notes everywhere and etch. Get the mental effort to get the journal and the picture clear as possible. Make sure you take notes. Focus is important. You focus on what is awesome. The most valuable resource is time. Don't spend it on bulls***. I am trying to get 999 billion dollars. I am trying to get the most chedder possible. I want to help other people. My mission is to make 999 billion dollars #1 player of all time. Top of the food chain. Leader. Time management Browser black out. Waste time. Browser black out. Need to do a better job to not have browser blackout. I trust that if I do this. I need to meditate on my breaks. Long term goals 1 year 999 billion dollars year 5 1 trillion dollars year 10 2 trillion dollars 20 year 3 trillion dollars. Inspire the heart and the soul. Fishing. Bass boat. All fishing. Become a master fisherman. Own a Nascar team or a racing team. You have to dream. Mansion like the playboy mansion. Playmates of all races as girlfriends. The best athlets as my friends and I can coach them. Chiefs KC Sporting KC tickets HALL OF FAME BOWLER. Mercedez Benz two suv's Buick Grandnational Short Range goals. To meditate on my breaks. Work hard. Build batches be passionate. This weekend walk 5 miles a day. Don't eat and lean up. Work so hard I am miserable. Play the lottery everyday. You have to spend money to make money. Stick to it. A breakthrough is right around the corner. You show God you won't quit with this 999 billion he will be like alright dooty ere you go. Do whatever it takes. If it takes reading I will read if it takes me starving my starving myself I will do. I know one day it will be worth it. If I have one good day it can turn into two days. Fat people put sleep over working out. Fat people put lots of over working out. Poor people put lots of before making money.

I had a challenging day. I NEVER QUIT. I always grind. The Chiefs won which is awesome. My medicine seems pretty good. My focus is very good.

*****breakthrough***** I had an emphany that I don't want to be ripped and be a pimp and 999 billion dollars too badly...Why? Because I choose sleep and relaxing over those things. If I truely wanted those things instead of sleeping I would jump my happy ass out of bed and do massive action. Every time I choose working out towards getting ripped over sleep over everything it sends a signal to my brain that "Yes this is what it takes to be ripped" Everytime I go out rather than coming home and relaxing it sends a signal to my brain "yes this is what it takes to be a pimp. Everytime I go the extra mile at work or spend the extra dollar on the lotto I tell myself "This is the kind of balls out massive action it takes to be successful at whatever you are doing. Commitment to excellence. Commitment Enthusiasm do what you love. 10 Keys to Personal Power 1. Clarity ——Decisiveness ——Vision 2. Competence —Excellence yields opportunities —Hard work yields improvement —The market pays for excellence 3. Concentration —Key to Effectiveness —Best use of time —Sense of urgency —Completion of every task 4. Common Sense —Train your mind —Think things through —Listen to your intuition —Learn from setbacks 5. Creativity —Tap creative potential —Look for better ways —Be flexible —Ask questions —Have one new idea 6. Consideration —Relationships determine success —People skills —Golden rule —Learn to listen —Most firings result from personal problems 7. Consistency —Dependable work is superior —Consistency in relationships —Guard your integrity —Consistency in personal development 8. Commitment —to your company, boss, job —to your family and friends —to yourself, your career, and success —to your goals 9. Courage —Confront your fears —Dare to go forward —Avoid ruts —Be a little afraid —No security, just opportunity —Fear of failure begets failure —Persist despite adversity 10. Confidence —Self-doubt can paralyze —Self-confidence begets achievement —Behave confidently

12/06/2016 I woke up today. I was a bit p*****. I am so far away from my goals and dreams. Oh well time to get to work. I started going for a walk. My goal is not to eat much today and get on the treadmill. I need to get my butt on the treadmill as well. Self-discipline. I am working towards getting money to give back. I want to become the best version of myself. When I raise my toughness and raise my perseverance. If I enforce strategy. I can look at my vision board to really fuel the fire of success. You have to really come up with level of passion, excitement, success.

Part of the fun in life is dropping knowledge bombs on unsuspecting people. I was getting my haircut at sport clips yesterday and I dropped some knowledge about anxiety and I started a conversation about how would you rather be lit up with anxiety or be sluggish. I personally would rather be lit up with anxiety so I can finish Elder Scrolls online level 50. This lady agreed. We also agreed that half the battle with mental illness is getting used to...dipping your toes...even wadding into the warm hot tub that is the fact that it isn't a ruptured disk in the back situation or neck situation. You can cut hair run around and do errands and it sucks but it isn't so bad you can't do anything. Once you play in the mud with that fact it lightens the load to go to places. There is a sickness in being a martyer ohhhhh I don't feel good, but once you see that as a block from getting stuff done then you can make the next call, respond to the next email, do the next thing to get things done.

12/04/2016 I woke up early today. I have two things on my mind. Getting my body, mind and spirit in awesome shape. I am going to take massive action. I am going to do whatever it takes to be the #1 businessman of all-time. Roth 401k save money network build skils kiss butt where need be WHATEVER IT TAKES. I am doing that to inspire myself and inspire others. Being sensitive to being inspired is a skillset. If you aren't on the lookout on what moves you you will always be depressed and bla. Be on the lookout what can get you out of depression or at-least keep yourself from ******* yourself. Everyday you don't eat a bullet is a day closer to getting out of a hole. YOU INSPIRE SOMEONE YOU DON'T KNOW YOU INSPIRE BY JUST BEING ALIVE. So get your butt to a theropist or something. Some sort of action. It is important to have a clear vision or outcome you want in life all the way down to small situations. One reason of millions to get that vision as clear as possible is so when you are learning you can say to yourself "This is important for my vision because with this skill I can make my dream a reality" I need to save money, invest money, learn skills, build toughness, build my pain tolerence, so I can be the #1 businessman of all-time. So always get clear and clearer on your vision. I was able to watch the Kansas City Chiefs play today. They did awesome. I met with my friends Adam and Jason. We had a great time. I felt good for most of the day. I went to the casino lost about 30 dollars, but had fun. I was planning on really kind of having a crappy day, but it was good. B+ Back to work tomorrow. On the grind.

12/04/2016 I woke up early today. I have two things on my mind. Getting my body, mind and spirit in awesome shape. I am going to take massive action. I am going to do whatever it takes to be the #1 businessman of all-time. Roth 401k save money network build skils kiss butt where need be WHATEVER IT TAKES. I am doing that to inspire myself and inspire others. Being sensitive to being inspired is a skillset. If you aren't on the lookout on what moves you you will always be depressed and bla. Be on the lookout what can get you out of depression or at-least keep yourself from ******* yourself. Everyday you don't eat a bullet is a day closer to getting out of a hole. YOU INSPIRE SOMEONE YOU DON'T KNOW YOU INSPIRE BY JUST BEING ALIVE. So get your butt to a therapist or something. Some sort of action.

***breakthrough*** I woke up today in some fear. Fear that I wouldn't get what I want that I would get side tracked from my goals of 999 billion dollars being #1 businessman of all time. I said this encantation that helped I woke up in a bit of fear today. I like this saying. "I am fully complete the way I am. I don't need anything. I come from the frame of abundance. I am here to provide value to any situation" That is a great situation to get me out of fear. I can stop thinking about what am I going to lose. I already have plenty of everything. Just need to add value to situations. Adding value to Raymonds sponsership is amazing on your part as well. You always have to have an open mind to have a breakthrough. The idea Raymond might give you could launch your game your money into another level. Having an open mind is a skill you have to cultivate, excersize and build. I played some farming simululator. Picking up logs is such a pain in the ass. Oh my GOD!!KU won. Everyone looked good. I ate too much. Going to have to work hard tomorrow on staying present and having the presense of mind not to go too big on the overeating. We went bowling it was good. I bowled a bit over my average and we won 4 games. I had a girl at the gas station that gave me a free fountain diet mountain dew. That made me feel good. I don't let my mind and my emotions dictate who I am. I am not my mind.

I woke up in a bit of fear today. I like this saying. "I am fully complete the way I am. I don't need anything. I come from the frame of abundance. I am here to provide value to any situation"

Good job from me to walk away from a meal not overeating and not eating pie. Yesterday I went to bed a bit hungry. I try not to eat before bed. Your body stores fat easily when you go to bed full. I had to hone, flex and cultivate my self-discipline muscle of going to bed yesterday. I don't feel great today. I made a video about completing against other people. When I think about my self-discipline being so far ahead of other people I achieve near God-like status that stokes the fire. When I am so far ahead of people by being a humble executer that people are amazed and ask me how did I do it that stokes my desire to keep going. I was able to walk away from my catfish dinner. I was able to leave pie at the table.

Today was really tough. I was snippy with a lady at work. I felt terrible and I was sick and depressed. I pushed through. I know that when things are tough and the chips are down. You can take that time and look at it as a challenge. Challenges like today happen every once in awhile. I strive to use tough times to cultivate, hone, harness, and grow my toughness and spirit. I made it through the day. I try not to talk crap on people as well. That is lame.

I woke up today. I went down to see my sponsor. So much of life is just meeting with mentors or sponsors. That went well. We talked about loving people for who they are and just be at peace with life. Life on lifes terms. I made my magnificant purpose which is to make 999 Billion dollars on Jan 1st 2026. I will be connected with awesome people and awesome athletes. I will wear brooks brothers outfits and be awesome. The theme song for the Kansas Jayhawks really pumped me up and inspired me. You have to cultivate the sensitity to be inspired. You have to cultivate, hone, and increase your inspiration everyday. Find photos shows, and music that moves you. It can be good or bad. Some things may pi** you off, but if it gets your butt moving use it!

Need to come up with description of success you have to put down sight, hearing, sound, what it feels like etc. I would envision myself in brooks brothers pants, nice high end polo's, for sports have the best jersey's, also a wide arange of funny shirts. Boss 429, 2 jeeps BMW SUV, and ferrari in the garage. Steak and fish, and fresh veggies and fresh fruit to eat. Great video games and arcade games to play pinball machines to play. Alice Eve, Krystenn ritter, Elsiha cuthbert on speed dial. People hitting me up on social media all the time 999 billion dollars. Money to gamble, putting money on bets online and on the lottery, working for a charity that feels good. Great enthusiasim most of the time. This will happen 2026. Living breathing success. Record your vision every two weeks. I got the buffalo in Farming simulator. Now I can really harvest some trees. I was able to go to Planet Fitness. I can always excersize, grow, and hone my ability to be self-disiplined. Everytime I excersize my ability to self-discipline myself it gives me more freedom. It is totally counterintoitive Leena needs to be on my vision board.

11/27/2016 I woke up and I didn't feel terrible. I started to think about the .jpg that I made with all the pictures that really move me. You have to go through the internet and magizenes and find pictures that actually make you feel something. I know depression can leave you numb. My dad said that since I didn't buy my nephew anything for his birthday my dad is going to give my nephew my money. That is a good idea and because I was able to attend the party and not have that bad of depression my load was lightened. Today I had 3 people including a girl message me on facebook. That didn't feel great, but it was a step in the right direction. If you are successful people want you to be around. Even if you aren't successful you are probably still loved and have value to other people. So make sure you get out of the house. Now a picture of Airwolf!

I rode for 2 hours to my nephews birthday party. I didn't buy him anything but just being there was a step in the right direction. Those long days around people can be terrible with depression, but welburtrin and stratera seem to bringing my mood a bit up. They do make me jittery though at the end of my sentences I studder a bit. I will trade that off from feeling like I am dead or that feeling of sweat and dread.