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I need a hero

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  1. I’m 27, but life’s already less fun than it was when I was in my early 20’s. I don’t think it’s going to get any better from here. Depending on your lifestyle or other unforeseen circumstances, your body might age quicker than normal too. That would make me depressed too. Accelerated aging. I’m sorry for my comment. I didn’t mean any disrespect. I feel bad now. 😢
  2. I just think that being old in general would suck. Your body starts breaking down. You can’t do the things you used to do anymore. You need help getting around for the rest of your life. Who would want to live life like that? Add on top of all of that, a lot of your friends and family you’ve known your whole life start dying.
  3. I understand completely now when put this way. Lol. A lot of it is change too. To live without depression requires work and drastic change to lifestyle. That’s scary.
  4. Interesting. I’m not sure I completely understand.
  5. I just switched careers. I’m a roofer now. Don’t ask me why I decided to do this. I’m not sure I know why either. Maybe I’m bored with work. The pay is good. Well, I’m about 2 weeks in and everything’s been going okay. I haven’t been sleeping well because of the early start times, but it’s been manageable. Well yesterday I was making some mistakes. Simple stuff. Like not understanding what tasks needed to be done or not moving well enough. Well, my foreman was yelling at me a little bit and it really got to me. I tested up a little bit. Nothing huge and no one saw because I was wearing safety graded sunglasses. I thought that today would be better, but it wasn’t. It was the same thing. Not understanding what needed to be done and not doing it well enough. It’s disheartening. There’s another apprentice who’s steps ahead of me. He’s doing so much more than I am. I’m essentially a laborer. He’s already doing some actual roofing. It makes me feel like such an idiot. I can’t stand being yelled at. It makes me feel like such a disappointment. It made me feel like a failure. I thought I might get fired. I’m the short time I’ve been there, I’ve witnessed 2 apprentices get fired and 1 get transferred to another crew which is very close to being fired. It’s so hard for me. I don’t have a whole lot going for me professionally. I don’t think I have a whole lot of skills. All I ever wanted to do was be good at something. Anything.
  6. How long have you been dating or seeing him? It could be anything, but if he’s feeling depressed, he’s probably very indecisive. He could be too nervous to respond in a timely fashion. That’s how I would feel in this situation, but everyone’s different.
  7. I certainly wouldn’t be able to do that and I think a lot of people have the same fears. I have an intense fear of being yelled at. I hate it. Hearing someone angrily yelling at me just puts me an emotional downward spiral. Maybe I got yelled at more so than most kids when I was younger. There was also someone in high school who was in my circle of friends who would tear into me all the time whenever I did something that wasn’t up to standards. It was like nothing was ever good enough. I’m glad I don’t see that person anymore. Its really bad. In fact just a few months ago both of my parents were yelling at me over gossip I was spreading at a family gathering. It was gossip, but it wasn’t with bad intentions. I was trying to make conversation. Anyways it was bad enough to where I broke down in tears. Such a terrible feeling.
  8. I already requested the day off I’m still waiting to hear if it was approved that’s the problem. My supervisor is coming out to my site to drop some equipment off and probably so I can sign off on my write up. He’s probably going to tell me the request is denied. I was thinking about being completely honest with him that I’m not happy with work and I’m trying to better myself in my career aspirations. I think he might be understanding. I don’t know how management would take it. He’s not that high up there in the company or anything. He’s just one level above me.
  9. I have a standing post at work. The place where I’m working is all automated and from what I can tell, they don’t watch cameras a whole lot. Well today I took a bathroom break that was unscheduled. Normally I do this all the time because they don’t check the cameras. Well this time they did and now I’m getting written up for it. I suspect they checked me because I checked into work late today. I was already removed from my previous account, which hit me real hard. The company already doesn’t like me because of that. Now I’m on their watch list. I want out so bad but I can’t get out. I’m on a fixed schedule, Mon - Fri regular hours. It’s hard to schedule an interview or go in for anything related to work or the application process outside of my working hours. For example, I applied for a trades union recently, and they want me to come in for an aptitude test, but I would need to get the day off of work, or call off to do it. I feel stuck and I feel like a failure for being written up and everything. If I don’t get this day off approved, I would have to call off to take this test and if I call off, I might be written up again and I don’t want that to happen to either. What do I do? I can’t take working here much longer.
  10. Pretty sure I joined because I was going through one of my terrible bouts of insomnia.
  11. The only thing that made me feel better about it, is one of the other girls at the gym who knew about my situation and knew that I was upset told me that I’m better looking than her boyfriend.
  12. I know. There’s a lot of things that I need to work on. Just the fact that I did ask her out is a huge step for me. Normally I would be to afraid to do so. Sometimes it’s just really hard to move on. Just this past week, she showed up to the gym with another guy who I’ve never seen before and a kid who I assume to be the guys son. I can only assume this guy is her new boyfriend. When I saw her with him, I jumped to the conclusion that he was her boyfriend and I was thinking about it the rest of the night at the gym. I was doing pretty good up until that point.
  13. Thank you for your response and advice, but you have to see it from my perspective. I’ve never really had a girlfriend, so it’s incredibly hard for me to move on from these kind of things. Especially because these things tend to be triggers for me. I’m okay now, but it still hurts a little. I’m actually surprised I’m taking it as good as I am.
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