LouisRiel

Crashed at six (pm) Up at one

Delaying leaving bed

Smoothie like concoction with instant coffee because I hate mornings and slept under 4 hours

From what I can decipher from my Fitbit I woke up just before 4am ugh. Not tired and haven’t slept a healthy amount in a few days. Things are getting done, but I am fighting to pace myself and not chase a high.

A new desk chair. All my wheels are pretty much broken.

Anxious dread time

Fearing burnout while I attempt to keep myself busy waiting for news risking overexertion.

Almost done dishes

Water! No worries there was quite a bit of Pepsi prior

#HowIGotThroughHighSchool is trending.. Undiagnosed, rapid cycling, silent sobbing panic attacks at my table, bathroom stall, hallway, hypomanic blackout rage till sobbing, and dropping out.

I want Redbull

Always such a struggle to decide at that point. I stayed up for about 30 hours from Thursday evening to about midnight today and then had very broken sleep till 5am when I think I woke up for good. I have reached an age where my body punishes me for being up that second day, so any sleep is better than none. Good news: I also recognized the upswing and avoided a full on episode for now Bad news: I want caffeine bitch, but could undo that. Also I ran out of OTC pain meds for this pain.

Trying to secure funding to return to school. I don’t want to waste another year of my life waiting. I need lectures, passion, and discussion.

Depakote hair chunks

Eggs, seafood, nearly all cooked vegetables, pickles, aspartame, and any jarred, canned, or frozen vegetable