Jump to content

samadhiSheol

Platinum Member
  • Content Count

    3,552
  • Joined

  • Last visited

  • Days Won

    22

Reputation Activity

  1. Like
    samadhiSheol reacted to RiverLight for a status update, Feeling pretty good!   
    Feeling pretty good!
  2. Like
    samadhiSheol reacted to RiverLight for a status update, Well I made up for my less than optimal interview Friday by writing some kick ass Tha   
    Well I made up for my less than optimal interview Friday by writing some kick ass Thank You letters to my interviewers. Hopefully that will help to cinch the deal. Welcome to Monday everyone!
  3. Like
    samadhiSheol reacted to RiverLight for a status update, Ahhhhh... .so perfect!   
    Ahhhhh... .so perfect!


  4. Like
    samadhiSheol reacted to RiverLight for a status update, Sending pretty flowers to everyone! Hope the sun shines in your world today!   
    Sending pretty flowers to everyone! Hope the sun shines in your world today!


  5. Like
    samadhiSheol reacted to RiverLight for a status update, Sending rays of sunshine to everyone today!!!   
    Sending rays of sunshine to everyone today!!!


  6. Like
    samadhiSheol reacted to RiverLight for a status update, Feeling great!!!! Wishing everyone a beautiful day!   
    Feeling great!!!! Wishing everyone a beautiful day!



     
  7. Like
    samadhiSheol got a reaction from Natasha1 for a status update, Day after day They send my friends away To mansions cold and grey To the far side of   
    Day after day
    They send my friends away
    To mansions cold and grey
    To the far side of town
    Where the thin men stalk the streets
    While the sane stay underground
    Day after day
    They tell me I can go
    They tell me I can blow
    To the far side of town
    Where it's pointless to be high
    'Cause it's such a long way down
    So I tell them that
    I can fly, I will scream, I will break my arm
    I will do me harm
    Here I stand, foot in hand, talking to my wall
    I'm not quite right at all...am I?
    Don't set me free, I'm as heavy as can be
    Just my librium and me
    And my E.S.T. makes three
    'Cause I'd rather stay here
    With all the madmen
    Than perish with the sadmen roaming free
    And I'd rather play here
    With all the madmen
    For I'm quite content they're all as sane as me
    (Where can the horizon lie
    When a nation hides
    Its organic minds in a cellar...dark and grim
    They must be very dim)
    Day after day
    They take some brain away
    Then turn my face around
    To the far side of town
    And tell me that it's real
    Then ask me how I feel
    Here I stand, foot in hand, talking to my wall
    I'm not quite right at all
    Don't set me free, I'm as helpless as can be
    My libido's split on me
    Gimme some good 'ole lobotomy
    'Cause I'd rather stay here
    With all the madmen
    Than perish with the sadmen
    Roaming free And I'd rather play here
    With all the madmen
    For I'm quite content
    They're all as sane as me
    Zane, Zane, Zane Ouvre le Chien [rpt]
     
    David Bowie
    All the Madmen
  8. Like
    samadhiSheol got a reaction from RiverLight for a status update, I love each and every one of you. If in my frenzied madness I say anything else..If i   
    I love each and every one of you. If in my frenzied madness I say anything else..If i imply I feel Nothing..  you know the truth.
  9. Like
    samadhiSheol reacted to RiverLight for a status update, I am choosing and embracing positivity in the face of adversity.... it's really the o   
    I am choosing and embracing positivity in the face of adversity.... it's really the only way.


  10. Like
    samadhiSheol reacted to RiverLight for a status update, I'm going to be opposite George Costanza now... lol.   
    I'm going to be opposite George Costanza now... lol.


  11. Like
    samadhiSheol reacted to RiverLight for a status update, I woke up this morning and just started crying. I think I've just been through too mu   
    I woke up this morning and just started crying. I think I've just been through too much recently between losing a friend, seeing my ex and almost losing all of my savings to a scam... plus I haven't heard back on a third interview with a company. The tears just started flowing as soon as I woke up. =(

    This photo almost looks like me.


  12. Like
    samadhiSheol got a reaction from gandolfication for a status update, I hate my job and I'm fed up with my life. Oh, i've said all this before haven't I?   
    I hate my job and I'm fed up with my life.
    Oh, i've said all this before haven't I?
     
  13. Like
    samadhiSheol reacted to RiverLight for a status update, Ha it's more like this one today:   
    Ha it's more like this one today:


  14. Like
    samadhiSheol reacted to RiverLight for a status update, I've got the Monday blues.... too much going on and I just want it all to stop.   
    I've got the Monday blues.... too much going on and I just want it all to stop.
     

  15. Like
    samadhiSheol reacted to RiverLight for a status update, I went to the police and am taking measures to protect myself.. covering all the base   
    I went to the police and am taking measures to protect myself.. covering all the bases. Dammit. Screw these bas.tards, but I'm not gonna let this most hideous experience ruin my day!


  16. Like
    samadhiSheol reacted to RiverLight for a status update, Wishing everyone a peaceful and serene day!   
    Wishing everyone a peaceful and serene day!


  17. Like
    samadhiSheol reacted to RiverLight for a status update, Inner peace & inner happiness are on my mind.. returning to Buddhist/Zen philosop   
    Inner peace & inner happiness are on my mind.. returning to Buddhist/Zen philosophies... and the end of personal suffering...



     
  18. Like
    samadhiSheol got a reaction from RiverLight for a status update, Not knowing who I am doesn't make the all out multi-reality attack assaulting me from   
    Not knowing who I am doesn't make the all out multi-reality attack assaulting me from within and the outside any easier to deal with. Im in so many places at once...
    Xanax and red alcohol are making me comfortably numb though. Like watching five movies at once.
    Yep I.ve actually done something like that before.
     
  19. Like
    samadhiSheol reacted to RiverLight for a status update, The BIG Ds. Depression, disgruntled, disenchanted, disengaged, dismantled... total di   
    The BIG Ds. Depression, disgruntled, disenchanted, disengaged, dismantled... total disarray.
  20. Like
    samadhiSheol reacted to RiverLight for a status update, Heading into a deep depression.. will come back when I feel better. I am not managing   
    Heading into a deep depression.. will come back when I feel better. I am not managing well.
  21. Like
    samadhiSheol got a reaction from gandolfication for a status update, No point on inventing the wheel all over again. And I'm lazy. Lyrics says it all: The   
    No point on inventing the wheel all over again.
    And I'm lazy.
    Lyrics says it all:
     
    The Line Begins To Blur"
    There are things that I said I would never do
    There are fears that I cannot believe have come true
    For my soul is too sick and too little and too late
    And my self I have grown to weary to hate
    The more I stay in here
    The more it's not so clear
    The more I stay in here
    The more I disappear
    As far as I have gone
    I knew what side I'm on
    But now I'm not so sure
    The line begins to blur
    Is there somebody on top of me?
    I don't know I don't know
    Isn't anybody stopping me?
    I don't know I don't know
    Well I'm trying to hold my breath
    I don't know I don't know
    Just how far down can I go?
    I don't know I don't know I don't know
    As I lie here and stare
    The fabric starts to tear
    It's far beyond repair
    And I don't really care
    As far as I have gone
    I knew what side I'm on
    But now I'm not so sure
    The line begins to blur
    Nine Inch Nails again.
  22. Like
    samadhiSheol reacted to RiverLight for a status update, Ugh. Big interview today and I have hardly prepped! Now I'm in a panic, trying to pre   
    Ugh. Big interview today and I have hardly prepped! Now I'm in a panic, trying to prep last minute. I'll be busy most of the day working on this. HUGS to all!
  23. Like
    samadhiSheol reacted to RiverLight for a status update, Smile at someone today! =)   
    Smile at someone today! =)


  24. Like
    samadhiSheol got a reaction from feeling_lost for a status update, Guilt Is crushing me to pulp Most times I just hide it from myself But it's always th   
    Guilt
    Is crushing me to pulp
    Most times I just hide it from myself
    But it's always there,
    with the self-hate, anger and despair
    Guilt for being this way
    Not being able to get out
    Shake myself
    And carry on with life
    A life I could call my own
    A life I would't feel guilty about
    Harbouring feelings
    I wouldn't have to hide
    Being able to love
    Without all this guilt
  25. Like
    samadhiSheol got a reaction from SugaredSloth for a status update, Guilt Is crushing me to pulp Most times I just hide it from myself But it's always th   
    Guilt
    Is crushing me to pulp
    Most times I just hide it from myself
    But it's always there,
    with the self-hate, anger and despair
    Guilt for being this way
    Not being able to get out
    Shake myself
    And carry on with life
    A life I could call my own
    A life I would't feel guilty about
    Harbouring feelings
    I wouldn't have to hide
    Being able to love
    Without all this guilt
×
×
  • Create New...