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My empire of dirt

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My empire of dirt last won the day on March 2 2016

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  1. BUT THAT'S WHAT WE ALWAYS SAY ISN'T IT? WE HAVE LOST OUR WAY THEN AGAIN MAYBE THIS IS THE WAY MAYBE SOME OF US ARE MEANT TO SUFFER WITH NO HAPPINESS? JUST MAYBE THIS IS THE MEANING LIFE THAT LIFE IS UNEVEN AND AND ONESIDED WITH THE FEW HAVING ALL WHILE THE MANY HAVE LITTLE. LFE I CAN SAY WITH GREAT CONFIDENCE HAS NO RHYME OR REASON TO IT. LOT'S OF BAD PEOPLE STRIVING OUT THERE RIGHT NOW WHO ARE LIVING THAT GOOD LIFE WHILE THE REST WELL YOU KNOW NOT DOING SO GOOD. WHO HERE BELIEVES IN THE GOD ALL MIGHTY? DO YOU BELIEVE THERE IS A REASON FOR EVERYTHING AND IF YOU DO CAN YOU COME UP WITH AN ANSWER OTHER THEN I DON'T KNOW WHY GOOD PEOPLE SUFFER AND THE EVIL GETS REWARDED? I CAN'T SAY I FEEL SO GOOD RIGHT NOW BUT AGAIN I GUESS ITS AN UPSET THAT I'AM STILL HERE NOW WONDERFUL WOULD IT BE TO BE LOVED AND EXCEPTED BY ALL? THAT NO ONE HELD A GRUDGE OR BAD FEELINGS TOWARD YOU AND YOU TOWARD THEM? AND NO MORE BAD HEALTH NO MORE WORRY OVER OUR LOVE ONES WHO ARE SICK AND DYING NO MORE HUNGER? I GUESS WHAT I AM SAYING WOULDN'T IT BE GREAT IF THERE WAS A HEAVEN?
  2. Is how i feel i keep trying and trying and keep getting knocked to the floor. I don't have a answer as to how to outrun my past and live. You know you can only say it to yourself so many times before you get sucked right back into feeling worthless.
  3. i'm getting better and that i am on my way to seeing the light and that there is hope out there. I hope i have finally accepted my fate in life and that what will happen is god's will. I hope my rage and anger for those who wronged me is now over. Finally i hope i can live even if it is for a short time and have piece in my mind and soul.
  4. I know the feeling i'm having the same problem what little i gained lst summer is now gone. I've ballooned to 230lbs now that's up like almost 30 lbs. I'm back lifting but its nothing (40lbs) And i haven't walked since last september
  5. Your welcome i will try to be around more if i can.
  6. I know i haven't been around much but hang in there Camellia
  7. They can hold us hostage robbing us of our right to life. I never knew how bad my past got in the way til now i can't function or think. I've stopped workingout and have gained back all my weight. Rightnow i'm 230 pounds. I will try to join a gym this summer but that requries me being around people which is getting harder and harder to do. I've basically been a zombie the last few months finding it impossible to rest i have days i don't sleep at all now as i know i'm getting worse i can't turn the noise down in my head. I can't get rid of the feeling of not belonging it doesn't feel natural it feels wrong.
  8. I wanted a wife and family to so there's men at their like me like and there's women out there like you. We got the short end when it comes to life i'm afraid.
  9. I didn't go into the hospital like i thought i might but i think i'm get ready to lose my leg as it has gotten worse. Its just not healing and my fear is going under the knife yet again. I won't be back for awhile if at all as i've got to deal with this i feel my life passing from me. Thanks to Natasha1 and Camilla for being friend to me i will miss you both.
  10. In my case and many others it comes down to having no money, no social skills and sickness. Women won't admit it but they would never go for someone like us. They pay lip service and say "sure i'd date a guy like you" only to be turned down if you have the nerve to ask. So at 48 i must come to terms i will be alone. But on the brightside if there is one is i feel that i'm getting sicker so it won't be much longer that this soul crushing feeling lasts. I pray everyone here in this thread that is going through this feeling you find love someday with a good girl for the guys and for the ladies a good man. God bless and merry christmas.
  11. how have you been?, sorry for being away so much just don't feel like talking at all.

     

    1. Natasha1

      Natasha1

      I know, I understand. I haven't been good, but I'm pulling through. with me, I think I talk too much and it gets me in trouble.

    2. My empire of dirt

      My empire of dirt

      not to much to me take care of yourself Natasha1

    3. Natasha1

      Natasha1

      please keep coming back. maybe you can find words for your blog.

  12. My health has taken a turn for the worst i fear now of dying in the hospitial
  13. How are you ME. I hope you're okay. 

    1. My empire of dirt

      My empire of dirt

      Not great Camellia i hope you are better tho my friend

       

    2. Camellia

      Camellia

      Im very sorry to hear that. I hope you're feeling a bit better today my friend.

  14. I WILL FAIL AT LIFE! I WILL FAIL AT LOVE! I WILL FAIL AT NORMAL! I WILL FAIL AT FAMILY! I WILL FAIL AT FRIEND! I WILL FAIL AT ME! I HAVE FAILED!
  15. I understand you brother those words do no good for someone whos been pushed aside. But an upside if not hope for you is that you are young. I'm 48 and never dated or even kissed a woman. Mylife is over but you have hope at least.
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